Colorful Mess
Nik Day Lyrics

I found you today
Today I stumbled upon something that reminded me of you

There in a box
The thing that reminded me of you was in a box, hidden away

Smiling at me like you never forgot
The thing reminded me of a time when you were happy and carefree with me

Remembering when we were young and had nothing to hide
The thing brought back memories of a time when you and I were younger and didn't have any secrets

But time took its toll
However, as time passed, things changed

Nothing's the same
The world is no longer the same as it was back then

You changed your mind, and you changed, and your name
You changed your opinions about things, you changed who you were, and you changed your identity

You burned all your bridges without even saying goodbye
You cut off all connections with me without giving me a proper explanation or saying goodbye

And I pick up the pieces that you left behind
I try to put together the remnants of our relationship that you left behind

And take them together one piece at a time
I am trying to reassemble our relationship, bit by bit

Painting a picture that won't ever take your place
I am reconstructing the picture of our past, but I know it will never replace the real you

Trying to make sense of this colorful mess that we made
I am trying to understand and rationalize the chaos and confusion that our relationship has caused

Pieces of paper
I have scraps of paper from when we used to write notes to each other

Scissors and glue
I am putting them together with scissors and glue

Piecing together the memories of you
I am trying to recreate memories of you using these scraps

But it's all a waste so I take it, and tear it apart
However, I realize it's all futile and end up tearing apart what I've created

Erasing your name
I try to forget you by erasing your name

Trying to forget
I am doing everything in my power to forget about you

But then your face comes and haunts me again
Unfortunately, thoughts and images of you still haunt me

I'm there ruminating and that keeps on breaking my heart
I find myself thinking about our past and it continues to hurt me

The ones I could find
I can only piece together what scraps of our relationship are left

I'm sculpting a masterpiece filled with regret
I am now sculpting a work of art, but it is filled with regret from our past

Building a dream that I just can't forget
I am creating something that I can't let go, a dream that I'm still holding on to

Wishing that I could dismount it and throw it away
Although I continue to create something from our past, part of me wishes I could let it all go

Filling the hole that you made when you left
I am trying to fill the void in my life that was left by your sudden absence

Trying to make sense of this colorful mess that we made
I am still trying to understand the chaos and disorder that our relationship put me through