Oceans & Engines
Niki Lyrics

Saturday sunset, we're lyin' on my bed
The singer and their partner spend time together on a Saturday evening.

With five hours to go
They have a short amount of time left together before parting ways.

Fingers entwined and so were our minds
They were intimately connected both physically and mentally.

Cryin', "I don't want you to go"
The artist expresses their fear and sadness about their partner leaving.

You wiped away tears but not fears
While the partner comforts the artist, the artist still has fears and doubts.

Under the still and clear indigo
The sky is clear and beautiful.

You said, "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine
The partner tries to reassure the singer that everything will be okay.

You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
The partner emphasizes their commitment and love for the artist.

My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
The artist's mother believed they were pretending to be skilled at something when they were younger.

Well, nothing then, much has changed
The artist suggests that they are still pretending.

'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor, my soul, it gets sicker
The partner's behavior may be harmful to the singer's well-being.

But I'm sticking to the screenplay, gotta say I'm okay, but answer this, babe
The artist tries to put on a brave face, but still wonders if the partner is okay with their situation.

How is it now, that somehow, you're a stranger?
The singer feels like the partner has become distant or unfamiliar.

You were mine just yesterday
The singer laments how quickly their relationship has changed.

I pray the block in my airway dissipates
The singer hopes that their anxiety and sadness will fade away.

And instead deters your airplane's way
The artist wants to avoid distracting the partner while they are traveling.

But heaven denied
The relationship has ended despite the artist's wishes for it to continue.

Destiny decried
Their breakup was fate or inevitable.

Something beautiful died
Their relationship was special and meaningful, but has ended.

Too soon
The relationship ended prematurely.

But I'm lettin' go
The artist is trying to move on from the relationship.

I'm givin' up the ghost
The artist is trying to let go of their attachment or ghost of the relationship.

But don't get me wrong
The singer still loves the partner, but is accepting that it's over.

I'll always love you, that's why I wrote you this very last song
The artist expresses their love for the partner by writing a song about their relationship.

I guess this is where we say goodbye
The relationship is over and it's time to say goodbye.

I know I'll be alright
The singer is confident that they will be okay after the breakup.

Someday, I'll be fine
The singer hopes that someday they will be fully healed from the breakup.

But just not tonight
Despite their optimism, the artist is still struggling with the pain of the breakup.

Plungin' into all kinds of diversions
The artist is trying to distract themselves from their pain.

Like blush wine and sonorous soirees
The singer is using alcohol and social events to cope.

But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
The distractions can't compare to the partner's intoxicating effect on the singer's emotions.

I see you're all that can intoxicate
The partner is still the only thing that truly makes the artist feel alive or passionate.

Oceans and engines, you're skilled at infringin'
The partner has a knack for causing havoc in the artist's life.

on great love affairs
The relationship was a great love affair that has left the artist in turmoil.

'Cause now my heart's home, all I've known is long gone
The singer feels lost and alone without the partner.

and ten thousand miles away
The partner is physically far away from the artist, adding to their feelings of distance.

And I'm not okay
Despite their attempts at distraction, the singer is still struggling with the pain of the breakup.

Tonight was the first time I stared into seas
The singer remembers a significant past experience.

of beguiling sepia two years ago
The experience happened two years ago and was significant in some way.

And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words
The experience taught the artist an important lesson.

They revitalized my frayin' bones, oh
The lesson helped the artist feel better in some way.

Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down, you've lost all solid ground
The singer is grappling with the chaos and uncertainty of the post-breakup period.

Both dreams and demons drowned and this void's all you've found
The singer feels like their emotions and desires have been silenced, leaving a void or emptiness.

And doubts light it aglow?
The artist is plagued by doubts and struggles to move forward.

I have so many questions
The artist is grappling with many unresolved issues.

But I'm pouring them into the ocean
The artist is letting go of their doubts and questions by symbolically giving them to the ocean.

And I'm starting up my engine
Despite their pain, the singer is preparing to move forward with their life.

I marked the end with this last song I wrote
The artist is using music to symbolize the end of their relationship.

This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
The singer is saying a final goodbye to the partner through music.

My great, lost love
The singer acknowledges the significance of their relationship with the partner.