Beginning with what sounds like garbled cries, the sixth track on Pretty Hate Machine is perhaps the most solely beat driven song on the album, lacking a clear melody and utilizing a lot of samples and loops (similar to Year Zero). The middle section samples the drum beat, similar guitar work and some vocals from "Down In It". The rolling drum fills on the choruses are sampled from "Good Old Music" by Funkadelic. The distorted cries at the end segue directly into "Sin".
Kinda I Want To
Nine Inch Nails Lyrics
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There's a devil sleeping in my bed
Watching you from across the way
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to
I'm not sure of what I should do
When every thought I'm thinking of is you
All of my excuses turn to lies
Maybe god will cover up his eyes
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to, but kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
Maybe just for tonight
We can pretend it's alright
What's the price I pay
I don't care what they say
I want to
I want to (I'll take my chance tonight)
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
The lyrics to Nine Inch Nails' "Kinda I Want To" are a raw and honest portrayal of the internal struggles that one may face when they find themselves attracted to someone who may not be ideal for them. The singer is unable to shake the feeling of attraction towards this person, even though they know that it is not the right thing to do. The devil in their bed symbolizes the temptation that they are facing, and the fact that they cannot make the feeling go away suggests that this attraction is deep-rooted and difficult to ignore.
The singer acknowledges that their thoughts are consumed by the person they are attracted to, and all of their excuses to resist this attraction become meaningless. They even suggest that they are willing to ignore moral or religious implications of their actions, as they say "maybe god will cover up his eyes". The repeated phrase "kinda I want to" shows the singer's internal conflict as they struggle between their desire and the knowledge that pursuing this attraction may not be the right thing to do.
The lyrics also suggest a sense of desperation and willingness to take risks. The singer suggests that they are willing to pretend that everything is alright, even just for tonight, and that they do not care about the price they may have to pay. The repeated chorus of "I want to" emphasizes this desperation and the intense desire that the singer is feeling.
Overall, "Kinda I Want To" is a powerful and introspective look into the complexities of desire and internal conflict.
Line by Line Meaning
I can't shake this feeling from my head
I can't get rid of this feeling in my mind.
There's a devil sleeping in my bed
There's a dark part of me that's causing my inner turmoil.
Watching you from across the way
I'm observing you from a distance and wishing I was with you.
I cannot make this feeling go away
I can't control this desire I have for you.
I know it's not the right thing
I am aware that my actions are not morally justifiable.
And I know it's not the good thing
I also know that what I'm doing is not good for me or the people I care about.
But kinda I want to
However, I'm still tempted to pursue you despite the consequences.
I'm not sure of what I should do
I am uncertain about how to properly address my emotions.
When every thought I'm thinking of is you
Whenever I think, my mind is filled with thoughts of you.
All of my excuses turn to lies
All of the reasons I come up with to justify my actions are just dishonest rationalizations.
Maybe god will cover up his eyes
Perhaps I can avoid divine punishment by hoping that God doesn't notice my transgressions.
But kinda I want to, but kinda I want to
Despite these doubts and misgivings, I still feel the urge to commit to this desire.
Maybe just for tonight
Maybe it's possible to indulge in this feeling temporarily without any long-term repercussions.
We can pretend it's alright
We can both act as if what we're doing isn't wrong or taboo.
What's the price I pay
What are the consequences that I will have to face if I succumb to this temptation?
I don't care what they say
I am indifferent to the opinions of others who may judge me harshly for my actions.
I want to
I simply desire to pursue this urge regardless of any hesitations or objections.
I want to (I'll take my chance tonight)
I am willing to accept the risks that come with this opportunity.
I want to
Again, I am driven by the desire to chase this feeling.
I want to
Ultimately, my desire outweighs my sense of reason or rationality.
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Trent Reznor
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SabrinaOnlineFan96
on Hurt
This is the most depressing song ever. I listened to this a lot back in November-December 2022.
SabrinaOnlineFan96
on Eraser
This song is so intense. It sounds like music from a horror movie. I love the Dissonance Tour version, but I don't like the Polite version, as it just sounds like one of those easy listening tracks. This song has gory vibes.
DrJKintobor
on Driver Down
I have a theory that this song is the instrumental for "Just Do It", the lost song from TDS that was scrapped for "promoting suicide".
DrJKintobor
on Heresy
I'm really resisting the urge to make a Warhammer 40k joke.
DrJKintobor
on Mr. Self Destruct
This song reminds me of Fleetway Super Sonic (if you don't know, the Fleetway Sonic Comics have Super Sonic as an evil split personality of Sonic)
Mohin Kann
on Closer
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Antoinette Alvarez
on Something I Can Never Have
This song is sooo beautiful ♡
Antoinette Alvarez
on Sanctified
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Antoinette Alvarez
on Find My Way
OMG I ♡ THIS SONG