Prélude
Nine a.m. Lyrics
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I find I'm always drawn to pain in hopes I'll find love
Sometimes, I feel like I'm chained to hopeless destiny
Like I've been cursed from the stars above
Long ago, I was approached by the phantom
And dove into what would become my darkest hour
Now, I have chosen a path intended to free me from the darkest of crevices
And propel me to the brightest of stars; the saga begins
As I replay those nights
Slowly losing my mind
I just wonder sometimes
Why do I think about you, girl
Why do I feel so empty inside
My mind repressed those nights
Haunted by all your words
You loved me out of spite
You never loved me, girl
Back in and out my life
When you and him wasn't right, damn
Tell me why, oh why would I still try
In the dimness of the night
I'd slip away to the moonlit beaches
And as I gazed upon the starry night
I'd be searching for you
I'd be searching for you
Why did I try to hold onto your lies
All those days and those nights
When I dried off my eyes
I would wonder sometimes
Why would I think about you, girl
Why would I feel so empty inside
Why, oh why do I think 'bout you
Why, oh why can't I
Why do I form toxic 'tachments
Wishing they'd turn right
One day, I'll let go your memories and your lies
All your curses, your guise
When you cursed me those nights
I would wonder sometimes
Why would I think about you, girl
Why would I still try to be your world
Do you remember those times
Do you remember those nights; 'cause I do
Do you remember that time
Do you remember why you would fail to move on
Do you remember those times
Do you remember those nights; yes, I do
Yes, I remember those times
But I don't remember why
Why did I end up like this
Why do I endure suffering to find love
The lyrics to Nine a.m.'s song Prelude explores the theme of heartbreak and the struggle to move on from a toxic relationship. The singer in the song expresses vulnerability as he acknowledges his tendency to be drawn to pain in the hopes of finding love. He feels chained to a hopeless destiny, and the ghost of his past haunts him. He reminisces on the moments spent with his lover, but with hindsight, he realizes that they were built on lies and spite.
The song is tinged with a deep sense of regret and loss as the singer tries to come to terms with his emotions. He blames himself for holding onto the toxic relationship for so long and wonders why he continued to subject himself to his lover's lies. However, he admits that it is challenging to forget about her completely. Still, he hopes to one day let go of the memories and curses of their past and find true love.
Overall, the song Prelude is a poignant ballad that examines the complexities of healing from heartbreak and finding true love.
Line by Line Meaning
Can I be vulnerable real quick
Can I show my weakness and open up for a moment?
I find I'm always drawn to pain in hopes I'll find love
I have a tendency to seek out suffering, hoping to find love in it.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm chained to hopeless destiny
At times, I feel like I'm bound to an inescapable fate of misery and despair.
Like I've been cursed from the stars above
It feels as though a curse has been bestowed upon me from the celestial bodies.
Long ago, I was approached by the phantom
A long time ago, I encountered a mysterious figure, perhaps even a ghostly presence.
And dove into what would become my darkest hour
I delved into a situation that would turn out to be my lowest point of despair.
Now, I have chosen a path intended to free me from the darkest of crevices
I've decided on a direction in life that aims to liberate me from the most profound depths of hopelessness.
And propel me to the brightest of stars; the saga begins
I hope to be propelled towards the greatest heights imaginable, and my journey towards them begins now.
When will I forget about you and your lies
When will I be able to erase you and the falsehoods you spread from my mind?
As I replay those nights
As I relive those experiences I had with you at night,
Slowly losing my mind
I gradually slip into a state of mental instability.
I just wonder sometimes
I frequently ponder
Why do I think about you, girl
What makes me dwell on you so much?
Why do I feel so empty inside
What causes me to feel so hollow and incomplete?
My mind repressed those nights
My subconscious has suppressed the memories of those nights.
Haunted by all your words
I'm plagued by your words as they keep echoing in my mind.
You loved me out of spite
You showed affection to me only to hurt me as an act of vengeance.
You never loved me, girl
You never truly had any love for me, my dear.
Back in and out my life
You kept coming in and leaving my life sporadically.
When you and him wasn't right, damn
When things didn't work out between you and him, damn,
Tell me why, oh why would I still try
Why, oh why did I continue to pursue you?
In the dimness of the night
During the dark period of the night,
I'd slip away to the moonlit beaches
I'd escape to the beaches lit only by the moonlight.
And as I gazed upon the starry night
Looking up at the starry night sky,
I'd be searching for you
I'd still yearn for your presence.
Why did I try to hold onto your lies
Why did I foolishly cling onto your deceitful words?
All those days and those nights
Throughout all the days and nights spent with you,
When I dried off my eyes
When I tried holding back tears,
I would wonder sometimes
I would frequently ponder
Why would I think about you, girl
What made me think of you so much, dear?
Why would I feel so empty inside
What made me feel so hollow and incomplete?
Why, oh why do I think 'bout you
Why, oh why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why, oh why can't I
Why am I unable to?
Why do I form toxic 'tachments
What drives me to form such unhealthy attachments?
Wishing they'd turn right
Hoping that they'd eventually turn out well.
One day, I'll let go your memories and your lies
Eventually, I'll be able to release my memories of you and the lies you told me.
All your curses, your guise
All the maliciousness and deception you possessed,
When you cursed me those nights
When you inflicted those curses upon me during our shared nights,
I would wonder sometimes
I would often ponder
Why would I think about you, girl
What made me dwell on you so much, my dear?
Why would I still try to be your world
Why did I continue to strive to make you the center of my life?
Do you remember those times
Do you recall those experiences we shared?
Do you remember those nights; 'cause I do
I do recall those nights we had, do you?
Do you remember that time
Do you remember that particular moment?
Do you remember why you would fail to move on
Do you recall why you were unable to move on, my dear?
Do you remember those times
Do you remember the moments we shared?
Do you remember those nights; yes, I do
Yes, I do recall those nights we spent together.
Yes, I remember those times
Yes, I remember those times we had.
But I don't remember why
Though, I cannot recall the reason for them.
Why did I end up like this
What led me to end up in this state?
Why do I endure suffering to find love
What compels me to bear so much pain and agony in search of love?
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Written by: Saleem Ahmed
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