I Wonder
Nines Lyrics

I wonder if my parents never met
What kind of person would I be if my parents never met, and I grew up in a completely different environment?

Middle man, made a killing yo I wonder will I ever meet the 'nect
I wonder if I'll ever be able to cut out the middle man and secure my own connections to make a lot of money

Wonder how these niggas sell out for a check
I'm curious how some people are willing to betray their values and morals for money

Wonder if she knows I woulda made her wifey if she had a better rep
I wonder if this girl I like would see my worth if she had a better impression of me and my reputation

Wonder why they don't wanna see me shine
I wonder why some people don't want to see me succeed and reach my full potential

Wonder will I ever leave the streets
I'm curious if I'll ever be able to leave behind the dangerous environment of the streets and find peace of mind

Behind so I can have a piece of mind
In order to feel truly calm and content, I need to leave the streets and the criminal lifestyle behind me

I wonder why I love buyin' ice
I'm curious about why I'm so attracted to buying expensive jewelry, particularly diamonds

Wonder how my nigga Cash and Hydro felt when the judge gave them life
I wonder how my friends Cash and Hydro emotionally coped with being sentenced to life in prison

Let's go, I wonder how they cope
I wonder how other people who have suffered difficult circumstances are able to get through it and cope with their struggles

I wonder if my chick would still love me if I was broke
I wonder if the girl I'm with would still love me and see my worth even if I didn't have money or success

I wonder how all these guns get into my area
I'm curious about the source and method of distribution of the many guns that end up in my area and contribute to the violence and danger there

Wonder why they care about celebs instead of Syria
I wonder why most people pay more attention to celebrities and entertainment news than the much more important and pressing issue of the devastating war in Syria

Wonder will get a L plate or get merked
I'm afraid that I may be targeted and attacked with violence, wondering if I will have the chance to learn from and recover from my mistakes instead

Wonder why they care about someone else's net worth
I'm curious why people put such a high value on other people's wealth instead of focusing more on their own goals and progress

I wonder out of all tracks what's my best verse
I'm curious which of my songs has the highest quality and impact, and which of my lyrics are most powerful and effective

And I wonder if them paigons know they about to get burst
I'm wondering if my haters and enemies know they're about to face the consequences of their own actions and face retaliation from me or others

Wonder will the lord forgive me for my sins
I'm concerned about whether or not I will be forgiven for the mistakes and crimes I've committed in my life

Wonder if them lifers hear me on the radio
I wonder if the people I know who are serving life sentences in prison are able to hear me and the music I create on the radio

Or miss me on the wing
I wonder if my friends in prison miss me and my presence there

I know they wonder what kinda numbers my bud line do
I'm aware that many people are curious and envious about the amount of money I'm making from selling drugs

Wonder if them broke niggas know, I was just like you
I wonder if people who are struggling financially can appreciate the fact that I also come from a similar place and background, and that anyone can overcome their circumstances to find success

Wonder will Arsenal ever win the league
I'm curious if my favorite football team (Arsenal) will be able to win the league championship in the future

Wonder why they notice my bad and not my good deeds
I'm frustrated that people seem to pay more attention to and judge me based on my negative actions and choices rather than my positive ones

Wonder why I'm so cool with all this weed in the base
I wonder why I am able to remain calm and relaxed despite being surrounded by a lot of marijuana and criminal activity

Wonder how'd it be if I grew up in a different place
I'm curious how my life would be different if I had grown up in a different environment than the one I experienced

Free my nigga Wonder I wish he was free
I hope that my friend Wonder, who is currently incarcerated, is able to be released and free to live his life again

I can hear them sirens comin', wonder if it's for me
I'm afraid that the sound of approaching police sirens may be a sign that I am being pursued and investigated by law enforcement

I had my hand on a scale when you was touchin' the remote
While others were relaxing and watching TV, I was actively involved in criminal activity and making money through drug sales

They don't put in work but got nerve to wonder why they broke
I find it unfair and frustrating that people who don't put in effort or work towards their goals still complain about and wonder why they are not successful or wealthy

All these new niggas actin like they graffed it with me
I'm annoyed that many people are trying to claim credit for my success and reputation when they had no involvement in my journey

Family members only holla when they askin' for P
I'm disappointed that some of my own family members only seem to reach out to me and talk to me when they want to ask for financial support or favors

I know they wonder how I kill these tracks
I know that many people are impressed by my musical talent and ability to make high-quality, successful tracks

It's the middle of the drought, I know they wonder how we still got packs
Despite the current shortage of drugs and other challenges, I know that some people are curious and envious of how I am still able to maintain a stockpile of drugs to sell

There's a certain essence that you have
There's something unique and essential about your personality and character

There's a certain spirit inside of you that has to come out
There's a powerful and meaningful part of you that needs to be expressed and shared with others

That is a part of who you are as well
This essence and spirit is an integral part of your identity and personality

They act like the mandem on the street corner are the criminals
Many people stereotype and judge those involved in the criminal lifestyle without understanding the complexities of their lives and decisions

But the real criminals are in suits and ties
The people who truly profit from and enable crime and violence are often the ones in power and with authority, not the ones visibly involved in criminal activity

Selling arms to crazy countries around the world
These 'real criminals' often profit from selling weapons and resources that fuel wars and violence in other parts of the world

War is profitable, murder is profitable
Many political and financial powers benefit from violent conflict and the tragic loss of human life

You understand?
Do you comprehend and see the realities of this injustice and corruption?

And then they look at us like "Yo you people are the"
Despite being the victims of systemic oppression and prejudice, people in the criminal lifestyle are often blamed and stigmatized for the problems in their communities

Our badness ain't nuttin' compared to their badness
The actions and choices made by criminals in their day-to-day lives pale in comparison to the misdeeds committed by powerful people and leaders

Their badness is real badness and our badness is joke badness
While the crimes and mistakes made by criminals may be serious and impactful, they don't compare to the true corruption and malice of those who hold power and wealth

And when you're on the road ting you gotta ask yourself
When you're involved in street life and crime, you need to be introspective and reflective about your actions and purpose

"Boy, year in year out the food gets in and out of the country you ain't got no place"
Even though drugs and other contraband continue to enter and exit the country despite increased law enforcement, people in the criminal lifestyle are still pursued and punished for being involved in it

Who's that man, you understand?
Who is the person or network behind the illegal activity and drug trafficking that's prevalent in society?

Illegal drugs is worth 16 billion a year to the UK economy
Despite being illegal, the drug industry is worth an enormous amount of money and contributes significantly to the economy

That ain't used in Harlesden, or Tottenham, or Peckham, or East Glasgow
The vast majority of this money and profit made from drugs is going to people and systems above and beyond the people involved in street drug sales

It's someone else, somewhere else making most of that P
The real profit and gain from the illegal drug trade is being made by people and industries far removed from the actual street dealers and users

But there's bigger questions
Despite the many questions, issues, and frustrations involved in the criminal lifestyle, there are much larger and more significant ones, such as justice, equality, and compassion

What can we build?
Instead of tearing each other and our communities down, what can we do to build them up and create a better future?

Can we change anything, or is it just set the way it's set?
Do we have the power and ability to make real change in our society, or are the structures and systems too powerful and entrenched to overcome?

I don't know, I wonder the same stuff all the time
I often struggle with the same questions and uncertainties, without clear answers or solutions

That's what you wanna ask yourself
Ultimately, we need to be asking ourselves these difficult questions and seeking to create change and growth within ourselves and our communities