I Hate Myself and I Want to Die
Nirvana Lyrics


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Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still haven't had my full fill

In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?

Broken heart and broken bones
Finger plaster cast and horse pills
One more quirky cliché phrase
You're the one I wanna refill

In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?

Most people don't realize that large pieces of coral
Which have been painted brown and attached to the skull with common wood screws
Can make a child look like a deer

In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?

Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still haven't had my full fill

In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?
In the someday
What's that sound?




In the someday
What's that sound?

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Nirvana's song "I Hate Myself and Want to Die" describe the nihilistic mindset of someone who is experiencing deep emotional pain and despair. The opening stanza of the song presents a grotesque image of bodily fluids, suggesting a sense of sickness or disgust. The line "you can cough on me again, I still haven't had my full fill" could be interpreted as an invitation for the other person to infect them with their illness, reflecting a self-destructive attitude.


The repeated refrain of "In the someday, what's that sound?" suggests that the singer is envisioning some kind of catastrophic end to their suffering, without having a clear idea of what that might entail. The juxtaposition of "broken heart and broken bones, finger plaster cast and horse pills" suggests that the singer is experiencing both physical and emotional pain. The line "you're the one I wanna refill" could be interpreted as a desire to numb oneself with drugs or alcohol.


The closing stanza of the song is somewhat surreal, with the image of large pieces of coral and a child who looks like a deer. This could be interpreted as a commentary on the way that society fetishizes youth and beauty, even to the point of dehumanizing individuals. The repetition of the refrain throughout the song emphasizes the singer's sense of hopelessness and desperation, as they search for some kind of escape from their pain.


Line by Line Meaning

Runny nose and runny yolk
Physical symptoms of sickness and disgust


Even if you have a cold still
I am so lonely that I will welcome any kind of attention, even if it is from someone who is sick and contagious


You can cough on me again
Even if it causes me harm, I will still seek out attention from others


I still haven't had my full fill
I am insatiable in my desire for attention and validation


What's that sound?
The repetition of this question suggests a feeling of confusion, disorientation, and despair


Broken heart and broken bones
Emotional and physical pain


Finger plaster cast and horse pills
The singer has sustained an injury and is taking strong medication


One more quirky cliché phrase
The artist is employing empty and trite language to express their pain


You're the one I wanna refill
The artist seeks out relationships in order to find validation and satisfaction, even at their own expense


Most people don't realize that large pieces of coral which have been painted brown and attached to the skull with common wood screws can make a child look like a deer
This surreal and violent image suggests the artist's detachment from reality and their willingness to embrace chaos over order




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Written by: Kurt Cobain

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