Sober
Niykee Lyrics

Feel it race
My heart is racing with excitement or anxiety.

Going numb
I am losing feeling or sensation in my body.

Got me beating like a drum
My heart is pounding loudly and rapidly like a drum beat.

What I say
The things I speak or communicate to others.

When I spill
When I reveal or disclose information to others.

Maybe I should never talk
Perhaps it is best for me to keep quiet and not share my thoughts or feelings with others.

Stories end
Narratives reach their conclusion eventually.

People change
Individuals transform and evolve over time.

But I'm ripping like a page
I feel like I am being torn apart and emotionally shredded apart like a page from a book.

I don't dream
I do not have any hopes or aspirations for my future.

I'm afraid
I am filled with anxiety or scared of something.

Seeing nightmares in the day
I am experiencing mental anguish and torment that feels like a never-ending nightmare.

Say goodnight
Acknowledging the end of a conversation or interaction and wishing someone well for the night.

I'm still lying awake by your side
I am unable to sleep and am still next to you.

And even though I know I shouldn't I'm
Despite the knowledge that I should not do something, I am still doing it anyway.

Feeding the monsters I'm afraid to fight
I am enabling negative behaviors and tendencies that scare me and feel out of control.

Leave every bottle
Emptying out each container of alcoholic drink.

As empty
Completely devoid or lacking anything valuable or worthwhile.

As my promises
Just like how I break promises and fail to follow through on my word.

Just like the last time
Similar to how I have behaved and what I have said in previous instances.

I swore I'd
I made a pledge or vow to myself or someone else.

Get sober for this
I promised that I would abstain from consuming alcohol for this occasion or reason.

Told you I fought 'em
I informed you that I struggled or battled against my urges or temptations.

They tempt me
External factors or desires are luring me to make poor decisions or engage in risky behaviors.

I'm begging to live
I am pleading to continue existing or having a meaningful existence.

Hands on your shoulder
Physical gestures of reassurance or comfort, resting my hands on your shoulder.

I told ya
I had previously communicated or explained to you.