GOD
Nochang Lyrics

My labor pains that lasted just one month did not have any goal (next)
The difficulties I experienced in a short period of time were aimless and lacked purpose.

Or consciousness from the beginning. They started only as (next)
These challenges began without any awareness or understanding. They simply emerged as

Confusion and chaos, so I had to leave that place and (next)
Confusion and chaos arose, forcing me to abandon that environment and

Walked quite far. It was a pointless walk
Embarked on a lengthy journey that ultimately proved to be without direction or significance.

As it turns out,
In hindsight,

I cannot change who I am now. Turning back, I wonder (next)
I realize that I am unable to alter my current self. Reflecting on the past, I contemplate

Why I couldn't take more than a few
Why I was incapable of taking more than just a handful of

Dozen steps. Again I am walking toward (next)
Steps. Once more, I find myself progressing towards

The identity of confusion and chaos
The essence or state characterized by confusion and chaos

Who are my womb. I was sure that (next)
Which serve as the source or origin. I believed that

Even that was too far of a journey,
Even that path seemed too distant or arduous,

But now it has been a short distance for me
But now, in comparison, it feels like a brief and manageable distance.

A confusion that is me and which is greater
A profound confusion that encompasses and surpasses

Than myself had been keeping me alive (next)
My own existence. This confusion has been sustaining my life

Since way before my beginning and made and spread
Long before my very inception. It created and propagated

Out the Earth for my two feet to stand on. I (next)
The very Earth upon which I can stand. I

Am standing on top of disordered concepts
Reside and find stability amidst chaotic and unpredictable ideas or notions

That took shape, yes I am standing (next)
That have materialized. Indeed, I am now firmly situated

This is my home, this is my land, this is my me, this is me
Within the context and realm of my existence, this is my place, my territory, my true self

A swamp that does not even have a rock bottom exists (next)
There exists a swamp that lacks a stable or solid foundation

So close that I could reach it with
In such proximity that I can almost touch it with

Just a few steps, as if it was (next)
Merely a small number of steps, as though it were

Gesturing me over. The me of now has just (next)
Inviting or beckoning me towards it. Presently, I have recently

Fallen into that place,
Descended or immersed into that location

So while looking at the bottom of the swamp one ground above, (next)
While observing the depths of the swamp from just above,

I learning (continuing, next)
I come to understand and realize (continuing with the next)

The moment I start blaming myself for
When I begin to hold myself accountable for

Having kept the swamp close and fall- (next)
Keeping the swamp in close proximity and (continuing with the next)

Ing in, the swamp has unknowingly to me crept up to (next)
Sinking into the swamp, the swamp has gradually and inconspicuously approached (continuing with the next)

The side of my right little toe
The edge or vicinity of my smallest right toe

From the beginning, the darkness was me, and I (next)
Right from the start, I embodied darkness, and I (continuing with the next)

Was nothing but darkness.
Existed solely as a void or absence of light.

Somewhere in that space of nothing but emotions, (next)
Within that realm consisting solely of various emotions, (continuing with the next)

Something that seemed like a speck was quite distinct (next)
A seemingly insignificant entity appeared remarkably discernible (continuing with the next)

It was the thing called the balance of the
That thing was none other than the equilibrium and harmony of the

World, I discovered the existence of light
World. It was then that I realized the existence of light.

A far-away beauty exists inside of me that (next)
There exists a distant beauty within me that (continuing with the next)

I can only look at and I want to stay forever to (next)
I can only admire and long to remain within indefinitely (continuing with the next)

Enjoy it. Meanwhile,
To savor and take pleasure in it. However,

It also exists when I am fallen into the swamp, and (next)
It also manifests itself when I am immersed in the swamp, and (continuing with the next)

The swamp is fallen into beauty3) as well
The swamp itself is also drawn towards this beauty (continuing with the next)

Everything started taking steps4) with a
All things began to progress or advance slowly and gradually, with a (continuing with the next)

Background of confusion (and continuing with the next)
Foundation or context of perplexity (continuing with the next)

This empty vast Earth is too big for
This expansive and empty Earth is too immense for (continuing with the next)

Me to fill up (continuing with the next)
Myself to completely occupy or occupy entirely (continuing with the next)

The responsibility of having to carve
The obligation or burden of sculpting (continuing with the next)

And make all creation anew is heavy (next)
And recreate the entirety of existence is burdensome (continuing with the next)

Therefore, my real story will finally begin now
As a result, my true narrative will commence at this moment

Just like heavy responsibility is a force of
Similar to how a weighty obligation functions as a source of (continuing with the next)

Gravity, [the fact] that I am able to stand (next)
Gravity itself, the fact that I am capable of remaining upright (continuing with the next)

Has been proof that gravity,
Serves as evidence that gravity, (continuing with the next)

Which I have not been able to be aware of
Of which I have been unaware (continuing with the next)

For even one moment, has been holding me (next)
For a single instant, has been supporting or sustaining me (continuing with the next)

Disorder and dizziness that are constantly growing bigger (next)
Disarray and vertigo that continuously escalate or become more pronounced (continuing with the next)

Are expanding like the universe (continuing, next)
Are enlarging or expanding akin to the vastness of the cosmos (continuing, next)

The gravity that has been holding me
The force of gravity, which has been supporting me (continuing with the next)

So that I would not fall into (next)
In order to prevent me from descending into (continuing with the next)

That lump of confusion, will it simply let go of my (next)
That mass of chaos, will it merely release its grip on my (continuing with the next)

Feet when I want to fly and soar? (next)
Feet when I desire to take flight and ascend? (continuing with the next)

When I have finished everything that I had to be
Once I have completed everything for which I was responsible

Responsible for, I will probably be able to rise
I will likely have the ability to ascend or elevate myself

Once again into confusion and chaos
Once more into a state of perplexity and disorder

I learned it once, so this time, in order to
I have already experienced it before, so this time, with the intention of (continuing with the next)

Create a completely beautiful,
Craft or establish an utterly exquisite,

Warm and bright place, with my whole will
Warm and radiant place with my entire being or determination

Into the darkness, yes into the darkness, yes into the darkness
Into the realm of obscurity or the unknown, yes into the darkness, yes into the darkness

When the time comes that I invite everyone to that place,
At the moment when I extend an invitation to everyone for that location,

May you follow me without an ounce of fear, only
May you accompany me without even a trace of fear, solely

By looking at the proof I have created
By observing the evidence or testament I have produced

I know that only I can do it, I have to do it
I am aware that I alone possess the ability, I must undertake it

You guys cannot endure this place where there is a
You individuals cannot endure this location, which features (continuing with the next)

Sight so rare you want to scrape out your eyes and
An incredibly uncommon sight, to the point that you would want to gouge out your eyes and (continuing with the next)

Where you hear sounds that make you want to
Where you hear sounds that evoke the desire to (continuing with the next)

Roast your coachlea and give them to Brigitte Bardot
Cook your own eardrums and offer them to Brigitte Bardot

I have been thoroughly preparing my conscious self
I have diligently readied my aware or conscious self

If I face a huge black wall that is
Should I confront an immense black wall that is (continuing with the next)

Five thousand times bigger than it,
Five thousand times larger than my own being,

Giving up is my only self
Surrendering becomes my solitary identity or essence

In here, it seems like I'd be beheaded
Within this context, it appears as though I would be decapitated

Right away, dying without seeing any blood
Immediately and without witnessing any sight of blood

You guys might see even death as one concept, but
You individuals may perceive death as a unified concept, however,

That is by no means true, that is by no means true
That is entirely false, that is completely untrue

Because after you die you go into the swamp in the swamp in here
Because after you pass away, you enter into the swamp within this very swamp

Around the time I will forget
Approximately when I will cease to remember

Around the time my existence and deeds will all be forgotten
When my presence and accomplishments will all be erased from memory

Everbody will receive them
Everyone will receive those aspects

The invitations that I,
The invitations that I, myself

Who will have achieved everything, will have sent
Having accomplished everything, will have dispatched or issued

You may forget me, you may erase me [from your memory].
You might forget about me, you might eliminate me [from your recollection].

Because when I look for you, it will not be out of selfishness
Because when I search for you, it will not stem from self-centeredness

It will be after the invitations that I,
Rather, it will be in response to the invitations that I, myself

Who has created heaven at the very bottom of the swamp, sent
Having built paradise right at the deepest point of the swamp, sent

Have created a haven above the era in which6) you all will be happy
Have established a sanctuary beyond the time in which you all shall find joy

At that time, will you not hesitate but come to me?
During that moment, will you not hesitate and instead come to me?

At that time, you will probably not hesitate but come to me
During that moment, it is likely that you will not hesitate, but instead come to me

At that time, I will certainly come to myself too
During that moment, I will certainly also approach or reunite with myself

The I who left me, the I who left me
The version of myself that departed or separated from me, the version of myself that departed or separated from me