human
Nokturnl Lyrics

Wanted to make you into a demigod
I desired to elevate you to a position close to a deity, giving you higher status and abilities.

Superhuman so you'd never die
My aim was to transform you into an extraordinary and invincible being, immortal and beyond the reach of death.

Die to me, my golden boy
You were the object of my great admiration, my favorite and cherished. I would be devastated if I lost you or if you let me down.

I was so in awe of you I was silenced inspired changed fired
You impressed and awed me to such an extent that I couldn't find words to express my feelings. You were a source of motivation, transformation, and enthusiasm for me.

A graven image in my heart
You left a deep and lasting impression in my emotions and memory, an unchanging icon of my affection and devotion.

You more than human to me
To me, you are not just a regular person, but a supernatural and exceptional being, endowed with extraordinary qualities and significance.

And I'm alone now with my compulsions
I am isolated and consumed by my insistent and uncontrollable impulses and desires, unable to share them with others.

And I'm desperate drained from all those tantrums
I am in a state of hopelessness and exhaustion, drained of energy after numerous outbursts of rage or frustration.

I don't exist without a lover/fix
I feel like my identity depends on having a romantic partner or an addictive substance, without which I lose my sense of self and purpose.

And I'm nothing without a heart overstuffed to the brim of bursting
I consider myself worthless and empty unless my emotions are overflowing, overwhelming me to the point of almost bursting.

With murder in its wake
My intense and violent emotions leave behind a trail of destruction and harm, hurting myself and others.

And you more than human
You have surpassed the limitations of humanity in my eyes, becoming an object of fascination and adoration beyond reason or logic.

If I make you a god
I intend to raise you as a divine or worshipful figure, possibly even creating a new religion or mythology around you.

Mythologize this bond
I want to turn our relationship into a legendary or epic tale, one that inspires awe, admiration, or even terror.

And all those other gods I use to fill that spot to overdose
I have relied on other deities, idols, or obsessions to compensate for my unfulfilled desires and addictions, sometimes to the point of excess or harm.

Revel in the flood, and my veins have turned against my blood
I indulge in the overwhelming surge of emotions, despite the harmful effects on my body or mind. My natural impulses and instincts have been corrupted or distorted by my unbridled passions.

And you the stand-in saviour
You have become a substitute for a savior or a rescuer in my life, someone who saves me from my despair or loneliness.

And I've tricked you into staying...
I have deceived or manipulated you into staying with me, possibly out of fear of losing you or a need for control or dependency.