Am I Not Merciful
O.S.T Gladiator Lyrics

I'm totally in pain
I am experiencing a great deal of physical or emotional suffering.

Burning, pulling, dragging me around
The pain is overwhelming and all-consuming, making it difficult for me to function normally.

Can't find a way out, these claws
I am unable to escape from the pain or the circumstances causing it.

Make me faint mute
The pain makes me unable to communicate or express myself effectively.

I've got nothing under control
I feel powerless and helpless in my current situation.

I'm out of hand
I am no longer in control of my own actions or emotions.

My ego begins to derail
My sense of self-worth and identity is being threatened by my circumstances.

I'm like a sinking ship
I feel as though I am slowly and steadily going under, with no way to save myself.

I'm not alone
Despite my pain and despair, there are still people who care about me and want to help.

I may be in need
I require assistance or support from others to overcome my struggles.

But far from dead
Although I am suffering, I am still alive and capable of recovery.

Even the deepest night
Even the darkest and most difficult times in my life have not been able to destroy me completely.

Didn't kill me
I have survived through many hardships in my life, including this one.

I may be damaged
Although I have been hurt or broken by my experiences, I am still capable of healing and becoming whole again.

But not totally ruined
Despite the damage I have sustained, there is still hope for me to recover and find happiness.

The next pain attack this morning
I am aware that my pain is likely to return, and I am dreading its arrival.

The healing hope is thereby destroyed
Although I had hoped to recover from my pain, its ongoing presence has made me lose faith in the possibility of healing.

I'm angry, trying to rip out the place of pain in me
My desperation to end my suffering has turned into intense anger and a desire to remove the source of my pain at any cost.

My life doesn't seem worth anything to me anymore
My sense of purpose and meaning in life has been severely diminished by my pain and despair.

Friends, partners, nobody can help me
Despite the love and support of those around me, I feel as though nobody can truly alleviate my pain.

The compassion is only fanning the pain
Although people are trying to help me, their concern is only making my pain feel more intense.

All I have left is to sit and wait
I feel as though there is nothing more I can do to improve my situation, and must simply endure my pain until it subsides.

Until this cup passes on to me
I am hoping that my pain will eventually dissolve or become more manageable over time.

I'm not alone
Despite my pain and despair, there are still people who care about me and want to help.

I may be in need
I require assistance or support from others to overcome my struggles.

But far from dead
Although I am suffering, I am still alive and capable of recovery.

Even the deepest night
Even the darkest and most difficult times in my life have not been able to destroy me completely.

Didn't kill me
I have survived through many hardships in my life, including this one.

I may be damaged
Although I have been hurt or broken by my experiences, I am still capable of healing and becoming whole again.

But not totally ruined
Despite the damage I have sustained, there is still hope for me to recover and find happiness.

I'm not alone, no, no, not alone
In spite of my struggles, I know that I have the support and love of those around me, and am not truly alone.