The Enemy
OH FYO! Lyrics

Ive been struggling to fit in
I have faced continuous challenges to find acceptance and belong.

For as long as I remember
Throughout my entire existence, this struggle has persisted.

And every time I tried
In each attempt I've made

I felt like a pretender
I felt as though I was pretending to be someone I'm not.

Out of place in my own skin
Feeling disconnected from my own identity.

Even when i've been accepted
Even in moments of acceptance

Being buried in my thoughts
Being consumed and overwhelmed by my own thoughts.

I fail to get connected
I still struggle to form genuine connections.

My head is like a chamber
My mind resembles a dangerous enclosure.

That's dangerous to enter
A place not easily navigated or understood by others.

My mind is my tormentor
My own thoughts become a source of pain and suffering.

I can't shake it off
I am unable to escape or rid myself of this torment.

I fear that I can't break free
I am afraid that I will never be able to escape this struggle.

From my unrelenting nemesis
From the relentless adversary within me.

Cant fight this demon deep inside of me
I am unable to engage in battle against this inner demon.

So I am falling victim to myself
As a result, I am becoming trapped and harmed by my own thoughts.

I know I'm not like the others
I am aware that I am different from those around me.

But sometimes I wish I was
At times, I long to be more similar and accepted by society.

They're all friends and lovers
Everyone else seems to have close relationships and connections.

While I'm just cold and numb
Meanwhile, I feel emotionally detached and unaffected.

I think I'm craving closeness
I believe that I long for genuine emotional intimacy.

But I can't break this resistance
However, I am unable to overcome the barriers preventing it.

And nobody ever noticed
No one has ever truly acknowledged or understood my struggle.

My eyes lost in the distance
My gaze remains fixed on a distant place, lost in my own thoughts.

My thoughts are like a virus
My thoughts resemble a destructive and overwhelming force.

Destructive and desirous
Causing harm and fueled by unfulfilled desires.

Devouring me alive
Consuming and destroying me from within.

And I can't shake them off
I am unable to rid myself of these thoughts and their effects.

'Cause I'm hosting my enemy
Because I am unknowingly providing a dwelling for my adversary.

I know something is wrong with me
I possess the understanding that there is an issue within myself.

But I was born this way
However, I cannot change or escape this inherent nature.

It's taken control of me
It has gained power and dominance over my being.

And I can't help myself
I am unable to control or overcome this situation on my own.

Why am I lonely in company
Why do I still feel isolated even when surrounded by others?

In every single place
Regardless of the location or circumstance.

How can I fight an enemy
How can I engage in battle against an adversary

Who never shows their face
Who remains hidden and never reveals themself.

I'm hosting the enemy
I am unknowingly providing a dwelling for my adversary.

Sitting in my head
Residing within the depths of my mind.

No remedy
No solution or cure.

No I cant break free
No, I am unable to escape or liberate myself.