No More
Olivera Lyrics

I feel the calling like a warning sign
I feel a strong urge to move forward, but it also feels like a warning sign to be cautious

It's been a while out of my mind
It has been a while since I have stopped overthinking everything

Ripped off the bandaid, I still the feel the scars
I have tried to move on from my past, but the pain is still present

It took some time
It took some time to heal and get to where I am now

I'm almost fine
I've made progress, but I still have some healing to do

Now you are the shadow
You have become a constant presence in my life, always there even in the darkest moments

Sewn to my heels, my friend, my foe
You are attached to me and are both my friend and my enemy

You are the stranger I recognize
You may be a stranger to others, but to me, you are familiar and known

And we both know
Both parties are aware of the connection that exists between them

I'm not gonna let you close
I am aware of the danger that exists and will not allow myself to get too close

I keep on running from your arms, I'm sure
I continue to distance myself from you, knowing it's for the best

This is not the day I lose control
I am in control of my life and decisions and won't allow myself to be manipulated

I might be fragile but this much I know
I may seem vulnerable, but I am aware of my strength and ability to overcome

I'm not falling back no more
I'm not going back to old patterns and ways of thinking that held me back in the past

There is something ‘bout the midnight hour
The late night brings different emotions and feelings to the surface

It makes me weak
The nighttime brings out my vulnerabilities and insecurities

I'm losing sleep
I am unable to rest or shut off my mind

Hallucinations throw me back in time
My mind is playing tricks on me and taking me back to past memories and experiences

The rush was real
The intensity and passion of past experiences cannot be denied