On 2 November 2022, it was announced that he would participate in Eesti Laul 2023 with the song "Venom". He participated in the first semi-final and qualified for the final. In the final, he qualified for the superfinal and eventually came in second place after Alika.
Distance
Ollie Lyrics
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I don't know why I always feel like this
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
I'm caught up, don't know where to go
Push away the people that I need the most
So, I've been spending my time
Just pretending I'm fine
Every night that I lie alone
Thinkin', "What did I do to deserve this?"
Somehow always end up feeling worthless, yeah
As if running's my purpose
I know, all I need's
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
I can barely answer texts, hands paralyzed
It's more than just depressed, I'm terrified, that
I lost my care to try, and now I'm a slave to emotions
Can't fix all the pieces you've broken
These words that you speak cut me open, and
It's like I'm eroding from the pain that changed me
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
Feelings I never should've shown
In "Distance," Ollie laments the emotional pain and confusion he feels after a difficult breakup. The opening line, "I don't know why I always feel like this," conveys a sense of frustration and confusion about his own emotions. Ollie then goes on to talk about the distance he feels from his ex-partner, both physically and emotionally. He describes a tendency to withdraw from those around him and to push away the people he needs most.
Despite this, Ollie acknowledges that moving on is an art form and that he must be resistant to the memories and feelings he tried to fix. He deletes his ex-partner's number from his phone and tries to keep his emotions hidden, admitting that the feelings he showed shouldn't have been revealed.
It's clear that Ollie is struggling to cope with the pain of the breakup, and that his emotional state is affecting his day-to-day life. He struggles to even answer texts and feels paralyzed by his emotions. He's terrified that he's lost his ability to care or to try, and feels like a slave to his own emotional turmoil. The pain is so intense that he feels like he's eroding away.
Overall, "Distance" is a raw, emotional song about the pain of moving on from a difficult breakup, and the struggle to cope with the complex emotions that come with it.
Line by Line Meaning
Yeah
Acknowledgment
I don't know why I always feel like this
Confusion and lack of understanding of personal emotions
Distance, distance
The need for emotional separation from the past
Tendency to go missin', missin'
The inclination towards isolation and solitude
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
The difficulty of being alone and facing personal emotions
That's just the art of moving on
The process of learning to let go and move forward
Resistant, 'sistant
The unwillingness to fully let go of past memories
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
Attempts to reconcile and heal from past experiences
I delete your number from my phone
The act of severing ties with the past
Feelings I never should've shown
Regret for being emotionally vulnerable
In me
Personal reflection
I'm caught up, don't know where to go
Feeling lost and uncertain about the future
Push away the people that I need the most
The tendency to distance oneself from those who want to help
So, I've been spending my time
Using distraction as a coping mechanism
Just pretending I'm fine
Putting up a facade to hide from personal emotions
Every night that I lie alone
The sadness and discomfort of loneliness
Thinkin', "What did I do to deserve this?"
Questioning the fairness of personal struggles
Somehow always end up feeling worthless, yeah
Negative self-perception and low self-esteem
As if running's my purpose
Using running as a means of escape
I know, all I need's
Personal realization
I can barely answer texts, hands paralyzed
Feeling unable to perform simple tasks due to emotional distress
It's more than just depressed, I'm terrified, that
The depth of personal emotional struggle
I lost my care to try, and now I'm a slave to emotions
Feeling trapped and overwhelmed by personal feelings
Can't fix all the pieces you've broken
Acknowledgment of past emotional damage
These words that you speak cut me open, and
The power of hurtful words on personal emotions
It's like I'm eroding from the pain that changed me
Personal transformation as a result of significant emotional trauma
Feelings I never should've shown
Regret for being emotionally vulnerable
In me
Personal reflection
Contributed by Elizabeth V. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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Lyrics
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Yeah
I don't know why I always feel like this
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
I'm caught up, don't know where to go
Push away the people that I need the most
So, I've been spending my time
Just pretending I'm fine
Every night that I lie alone
Thinkin', "What did I do to deserve this?"
Somehow always end up feeling worthless, yeah
As if running's my purpose
I know, all I need's
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
I can barely answer texts, hands paralyzed
It's more than just depressed, I'm terrified, that
I lost my care to try, and now I'm a slave to emotions
Can't fix all the pieces you've broken
These words that you speak cut me open, and
It's like I'm eroding from the pain that changed me
Distance, distance
Tendency to go missin', missin'
But it's gettin' hard when I'm alone
That's just the art of moving on
Resistant, 'sistant
Memories I tried fixin', fixin'
I delete your number from my phone
Feelings I never should've shown
In me
Feelings I never should've shown
@legitlunaticz
Hey Ollie,
I just realized I can't write comments on people's channels, ounless i missed how to. Im writing you this message because I wanted to tell you how i feel about your music, as someone who's deeply affected.
The past last year, I've been listening to you and your tracks while going through hard times. My girlfriend of 3.5 years and I separated, and I still think about her daily, but now we're estranged. I feel like I lost more than just a part of me since we brokeup in Sept '20.
I just read your bio on YT for first time, and hearing the phrase "More than music" really resonates with me. Im so thankful in life there is a music artist like you that can express in a song how i feel emotionally and deeply profound at times. It's like those days when you're depressed and kicked down, but something is relatable and makes you feel not so alone.
I want to tell you that I resonate with your message, and i am so blessed your music exists. Your music helps me get through rough times in life, more than what i thought would come to fruition.
As a sincere fan commenting to you for the first time, thank you for being on this planet. Without you, life would've been more agonizing to go through.
Furthermore, I hope you're doing better since the accident you had. I wish you wellfullness and healing on a profound physical and spiritual level.
Thank you for reading up to this point. You changed my life. Please continue what you do best, expressing yourself through songs that are, "More than music."
Much love from Vancouver BC,
Btw this song is my new favourite jam. I was wasted and in my feels last night when I found this.
#morethanmusic
@ollieraps
The best fans in the world, thank you for always supporting me!! I love y'all!!
@raize7182
Always bro
@kirasohma1562
Love ya too oli 🖤
@edwinlugo864
GOAT
@slattpaulenskii
Will always support a good an artist with a passion for music! Keep it up dude you’ll eventually blow up
@Jordan-bb7pz
love ya'll
@a_paradise_bird
Thee vibe is real love it
@jzson
🗿🎧
@ollieraps
Thank you!! 🙏❤️
@architectsxiii5379
the worst part is knowing someone who was in half of your life is no longer there, and you still have them in your mind every single day, week, month and year, yet they do not think of you a single second.