Former Viner and YouTuber who made funny and meaningful songs about his life and other topics.
His most popular song Please Never Fall in Love Again has over 34 million plays on Spotify as of September 2020.
Currently, he co-hosts a podcast with his longtime friend George Ezra called "Phone A Friend", where they chat about their lives and their issues with mental health. He also runs the podcast's Instagram page.
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Disappear Daily
Ollie MN Lyrics
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Shouldn't be so hard to do
But when it's dark inside your head
Who cares if the sky's blue?
The smallest thing
Can split my mind in two
I wish everything
Came as easily as loving you
Loving you, you
Isn't it fun how I completely
Disappear daily?
And make it hard to see
Why you love me at all?
Isn't it funny when I can't breathe
Insist that we both leave
Your own birthday party
Cause of nothing at all?
I wanna dance
Freely like others do
I wish everything
Came as easily as loving you
As loving you, you
Loving you, you
And I hate myself today
And I hate being seen this way
Everybody wants to be told "I'll be okay"
But I thought that was what they're supposed to say
The opening lines of Ollie MN's song "Disappear Daily" set a somber tone as they describe the difficulty of getting out of bed when one's internal struggles make it feel like the world is dark and bleak. The lyricist notes that even small things can feel overwhelming and cause a mental split. In this state of mind, the lyricist wishes that everything in life could be as easy as loving someone - a sentiment that is repeated throughout the song. However, there seems to be an undercurrent of doubt about the love they receive in return, as demonstrated in the question posed in the chorus: "Isn't it funny when I can't breathe, insist that we both leave your own birthday party cause of nothing at all?"
As the song continues, the lyrics reveal a deep sense of self-criticism and insecurity. The lyricist hates themself in the present moment and wishes for reassurance from others that they will ultimately be okay. The repetition of the chorus throughout the song reinforces the cyclical nature of struggling with mental health and the attendant feelings of self-doubt, isolation, and the fear of rejection. In a final plea for resolution, the lyricist returns to the idea that everything should be as easy as loving their partner, perhaps as a way of finding a sense of stability in a world that feels out of control.
Line by Line Meaning
Getting out of bed
Starting a new day is hard
Shouldn't be so hard to do
It should be easy to start a new day
But when it's dark inside your head
When you're feeling depressed or anxious
Who cares if the sky's blue?
Depression makes you indifferent to things you usually enjoy
The smallest thing
A small problem or worry
Can split my mind in two
It can be overwhelming and cause anxiety
I wish everything
Wants things to be easy
Came as easily as loving you
Wants to feel the same level of ease and happiness in everything as they do when loving someone
Isn't it fun how I completely
Sarcastic, meaning it's not fun at all
Disappear daily?
Feeling lost, alone and invisible on a daily basis
And make it hard to see
Makes it difficult for the person they love to see them through their struggles
Why you love me at all?
Feeling unworthy of love and questioning why the person they love does love them
Isn't it funny when I can't breathe
Sarcastic, meaning it's not funny at all
Insist that we both leave
Wanting to escape or run away from their problems
Your own birthday party
No longer finding joy in things they used to enjoy
Cause of nothing at all?
Feeling overwhelmed without knowing why
I wanna dance
Wishing to feel carefree and happy like others do
Freely like others do
Wishing to be carefree, happy, and free like others are
And I hate myself today
Feeling self-loathing and low self-esteem
And I hate being seen this way
Feeling embarrassed and ashamed of their struggles
Everybody wants to be told "I'll be okay"
Everyone wants reassurance and comfort
But I thought that was what they're supposed to say
Feeling like the reassurance from others is not genuine or meaningful
Writer(s): Ollie Mn
Contributed by Ellie W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@diekleinechrissi8702
"but when it's dark inside your head
who cares if the sky's blue?"
That's what I need to hear at 3am to cry myself to sleep even though the song has a happy melody
@michaelverdugo3968
You can cry to anything
@redphoenix980
Listen to the at sunset version it’s so much calmer and better suited to the song
@itsgrey8135
The 31 people who disliked...
I just wanna play funny sticks with them
@messyink8805
I miss this man, hope he's doing okay these days
@mochabliss.
@@sleepingbeshouldireally? What's his @? I miss him
@SkeletonXP3
He's also got a podcast!
@messyink8805
Oh shit bet!! I'll have to take a peek! Thanks fam 🙏
@lukedeconcini
fucked up that this comment is over a year old itself
@ninaencarnacion1464
You’re the cutest lil sad boi I’ve ever seen.