S.O.S
One.Xельсинк Lyrics

Yeah, feeling lost in space
I currently feel disconnected and lost in my own thoughts and emotions.

Now I need an SOS
I require help and support to get out of this state of mind.

I'm stuck out here
I feel trapped and unable to escape my current state of mind.

And I don't know how to get back
I am uncertain how to regain my previous state of mind.

Recently I've been too far in my head
I have been consumed by my thoughts and emotions.

I keep overthinking things and it has led
My tendency to overthink has resulted in negative outcomes.

Me down dark paths, wishing myself to be dead
My overthinking has led to suicidal thoughts and feelings.

So I reach out to anybody who's willing to take my SOS
I am reaching out to anyone who is willing to offer help and support in my time of need.

Keep getting up to work, only thing keeping me fed
I am only able to sustain myself through my work and employment.

But to be honest, I rather be in bed
I would prefer to be sleeping or resting than being at work and facing my struggles.

Anxiety and depression in stone it has been set
My anxiety and depression have become a permanent fixture in my life.

Why do I keep treating my family with neglect
I am struggling to maintain healthy relationships with my family due to my mental health issues.

I don't call I don't even fucking text
I am failing to communicate with my family and keep them updated on my current state.

But they know in their hearts I wish them all the best
Despite my shortcomings, I still care for my family and want the best for them.

And I know it makes them upset
I am aware that my actions and lack of communication are causing my family stress and pain.

One instance fills me with regret
One particular moment in my life causes me to feel remorseful and regretful.

My pop passed, I spoke to him once a month at my best
I only spoke to my father once a month before he passed away, despite my desire to communicate more often.

Yeah I said at my best
Even at my best, I still struggled to communicate with my father as much as I would have liked.

I should have spoke more, before he left
I wish I had communicated with my father more frequently before he passed away.

Twice now I've been Deja vu ing peoples deaths
I have experienced the feeling of 'deja vu' related to the deaths of certain individuals more than once.

This life is a simulation and I need an SOS
I feel as though life is a simulation and I require help and support to navigate through it.

All I need is an SOS
My sole requirement in this moment is help and support.

It feels like I've crossed the line
I feel as though I have gone too far and cannot return.

Lately i been reminiscing what a waste of time
Recently, I have been reflecting on my past and feeling as though it has been a waste of time.

It really hits at night, all the fucking could've, would've where's the wine at?
At night, I am haunted by thoughts of the things I could have done differently and seek solace in alcohol.

Tell me where's my spine at?
I am questioning my own strength and resilience in this situation.

Climbing out of bed feels like I'm chained to a micro-van
The simple act of getting out of bed feels extremely difficult and challenging to me.

God, it's so hard to break the cycle
I am struggling to break free from my current state of mind and establish a more positive mindset.

Running round with my head off 'till I'm idle
I am constantly busy and occupied, but ultimately unproductive and idle in my efforts.

I thought it's going to be a while before someone gets this
I did not anticipate someone understanding me so quickly or easily.

So I'm going to take in awe at this dying star
I will take a moment to appreciate the beauty of this dying star.

It's happening right now, right here
I am acknowledging the present moment and the beauty of the dying star before me.

The Halcyon System
The system in which this dying star exists and the wonder of the universe as a whole.