Orla Gartland (born 3 February 1995) is an Irish singer-songwriter from Dub… Read Full Bio ↴Orla Gartland (born 3 February 1995) is an Irish singer-songwriter from Dublin known for her quirky folk pop, bursting with personality and catchy melodies. Her songs are all tied together by her distinctive, celtic-infused vocal and trademark animated live performance.

Following 11.5 million hits on youtube and almost 80k likes on Facebook, Gartland independently released her first single in 2011 which reached top 10 iTunes placement in over 17 countries. Since then, 2 EPs have followed.

Did It to Myself
Orla Gartland Lyrics

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I woke up to empty bed

I took a walk to clear my head

I wished you were there instead

But then I shook it off

What the hell did I used to do

I’m even starting to speak like you

And now you’re living in my memory

Living in my mouth

Living in the four fucking walls of my house

I feel like a let down to not be your friend now

I feel like a let down and now you’re gone, gone, gone

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I

Your personality’s split in two

I fell in love with the half of you

And when you told me what you went through

I couldn’t brush it off (brush it off, brush it off, brush it off, brush it off)

I wonder what are you doing now defeats the point of shutting you out

And now my part of london feels so haunted

You gave me a power that I never even wanted

You said I feel like a let down to not be your friend now

I feel like a let down and now you’re gone, gone, gone

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I

Oh I did it

Oh my god you’re everything I know

Let it sink in right now

Oh my god you’re everything I know

Get ready for the come down

Did it to myself

Did it to myself

Did it to myself

I know I

Did it to myself

Did it to myself

Did it to myself

I know I

Did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I did it to myself

I know I

I know I can’t blame nodody else

Did it to myself

I know I

You said answer honestly

And I went with option b

I lost you and you lost me

I can’t shake it off

Overall Meaning

The song "Did It to Myself" by Orla Gartland is about the aftermath of a break-up and the self-blame that often comes with it. The lyrics describe the sense of missing someone and wishing they were still there, while also acknowledging the fact that the singer has no one to blame but themselves for the dissolution of the relationship. The singer reflects on how they've changed since being with the other person and how they're struggling to move on with their life. They're haunted by memories of the relationship and the person, even as they try to shut them out, and they feel like they've let the other person down by not being their friend anymore.

The opening lines of the song set the stage for the rest of the lyrics, as the singer wakes up alone and takes a walk to clear their head, feeling the absence of the person they've lost. They're reminded of the other person in small ways, such as the way they speak, and it's clear that the memories of the relationship are still very much present. The repeated refrain "I know I did it to myself" emphasizes the self-blame that the singer feels, as they take responsibility for the breakup and the subsequent emotional fallout. The line "you gave me a power that I never even wanted" suggests that the intensity of the relationship was overwhelming and ultimately led to its demise.

Line by Line Meaning

I woke up to empty bed
I woke up alone in an empty bed

I took a walk to clear my head
I went for a walk to clear my mind

I wished you were there instead
I wanted you to be there with me instead of being alone

But then I shook it off
But then I tried to forget about it

What the hell did I used to do
I'm questioning what I used to do before I met you

I’m even starting to speak like you
I'm starting to adopt your way of speaking

And now you’re living in my memory
I can't stop thinking about you, you're always on my mind

Living in my mouth
I can't stop talking about you

Living in the four fucking walls of my house
You're everywhere in my house, I can't escape you

I feel like a let down to not be your friend now
I feel like I let you down by not being your friend anymore

I feel like a let down and now you’re gone, gone, gone
I feel like I let you down and now you're gone forever

I know I did it to myself
I know that I'm the reason why you're gone

Your personality’s split in two
Your personality is divided into two parts

I fell in love with the half of you
I fell in love with one part of your personality

And when you told me what you went through
When you shared your struggles with me

I couldn’t brush it off (brush it off, brush it off, brush it off, brush it off)
I couldn't ignore it or forget about it

I wonder what are you doing now defeats the point of shutting you out
I wonder what you're doing now, which defeats the purpose of shutting you out of my life

And now my part of london feels so haunted
The place where I live feels haunted by our memories

You gave me a power that I never even wanted
You gave me control over something I never wanted control over

You said I feel like a let down to not be your friend now
You said you feel like I let you down by not being your friend anymore

Oh my god you’re everything I know
You were a big part of my life and my identity

Let it sink in right now
Take a moment to realize the impact of your absence

Get ready for the come down
Prepare for the inevitable lows that come after the high

I know I can’t blame nodody else
I know that I can only blame myself for what happened

You said answer honestly
You asked me to be truthful

And I went with option b
And I made a choice that wasn't the best

I lost you and you lost me
We both lost each other

I can’t shake it off
I can't forget about what happened and move on

Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Orla Gartland

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@blackthunderbird425

3y↑1

Tessa Violet,

You are an angel, and I am the one who ordained you with my love.
Just like this angel Orla Gartland, I poured my love out of my heart, and out of my chest.
I'm trying to save everyone.
I've been trying to warn you all.
There is destruction coming.
I am trying to gather my Stars.
So, that we can prevent as much death as possible.
My Stars are bright beacons to humanity.
I can't get the attention of my Stars alone.
I am Apollo, the destroyer of evil.
I am the angel of light, love, music, and creation.
I am the son of Lucifer, and Lucifer means light bringer.
Jesus is Lucifer.

@alsocupcakes8885

4y↑42

1. They’re broken hearts, too much paint on the earlier stampings meant that we couldn’t see that crack.

2. I believe the inconsistent paint was unintentional, because it muddled the stamp’s design.

3. Most of these aren’t “fun friend activities”, but rather things you’d do on a date (the hug, the umbrella guy).

4. They all seem to realize she isn’t paying attention to them, one of the guys waves his hand in front of her.

5. Some of these might be friend activities, but they all eventually leave her with a broken heart.

@Sweetoof_

5y↑775

LYRICS

[Verse 1]
I woke up to an empty bed
I took a walk to clear my head
I wished you were there instead
But then I shook it off
What the hell did I used to do?
I'm even starting to speak like you
And now you're living in my memory, living in my mouth
Living in the four fucking walls of my house

[Pre-Chorus]
I feel like a let-down
To not be your friend now
I-I feel like a let-down
And now you're gone, gone, gone

[Chorus]
I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I
Oh, I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I

[Verse 2]
Your personality's split in two
I fell in love with a half of you
And when you told me what you went through
I couldn't brush it off (Brush it off, brush it off, brush it off, brush it off)
I wonder, what are you doing now?
Defeats the point of shutting you out
And now my part of London feels so haunted
You gave me a power that I never even wanted

[Pre-Chorus]
You said, "I feel like a let-down
To not be your friend now"
I-I feel like a let-down
And now you're gone, gone, gone

[Chorus]
I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I did it to myself
I know I
Oh, I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I (I-I did it)

[Pre-Bridge]
Oh my god, you're everything I know
Let it sink in right now
Oh my god, you're everything I know
Get ready for the comedown

[Bridge]
Did it to myself
Did it to myself
Did it to myself
I know I-
Did it to myself (I-I)
Did it to myself (I-I)
Did it to myself (I-I)
I know I (I-I)

[Chorus]
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I can't blame nobody else (I-I)
I know I did it to myself (I-I)
I know I

[Outro]
You said answer honestly
And I went with option B
I lost you and you lost me
I can't shake it off

@willowsill1

4y↑19

The lyrics nobody asked for -

I woke up to an empty bed.
I took a walk to clear my head.
I wished you were there instead.
But then I shook it off.

What the hell did I used to do?
I’m even starting to speak like you.
And now you’re living in my memories,
Living in my mouth,
Living in the four f***ing walls of my house.

I,
Feel like a letdown.
To not be your friend now.
I,
Feel like a letdown,
And now you’re gone, gone, gone.

I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I,
Oh I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I.

You’re personality’s split in two.
I fell in love with a half of you.
And when you told me you went through.
I couldn’t brush it off.

I wonder what are you doing now?
To face the point of shutting you out.
And now I’m right part of London,
Feel so haunted,
Gave me a power I never even wanted.

I,
Feel like a letdown.
To not be your friend now.
I,
Feel like a letdown,
And now you’re gone, gone, gone.

I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I did it to myself,
I know I,
Oh I know I did it to myself, (I, I)
I know I did it to myself, (I, I)
I know I did it to myself, (I, I)
I know I.
(I, I)

Oh my god,
You’re everything I know,
Let it sink in right now.
Oh my god,
You’re everything I know,
Get ready for the come down.

(Did it to myself)
(Did it to myself)
(Did it to myself)
(I know I)
(Did it to myself) (I, I)
(Did it to myself) (I, I)
(Did it to myself) (I, I)
(I know I)
(I, I)

Oh, I know I did it to myself, (I, I)
I know I did it to myself, (I, I)
I know I did it to myself,(I, I)
I know, I know, I know, I, (I, I)
I know I did it to myself,(I, I)
I can’t blame nobody else,(I, I)
I know I did it to myself,(I, I)
I know I.

You said answer honestly.
And I went with Option B.
I lost you and you lost me.
I can’t shake it off...

YOU’RE WELCOME

All comments from YouTube:

@BacadoTheSkoggy

5y↑5.3K

I'm not sure if it was entirely intentional but i kinda love that with every stamp the heart looks more and more broken as the ink in the tray runs out

@orlagartland

5y↑1K

not intentional but a great spot

@gabrielborjas7923

5y↑17

i was just noticing that

@janethebluemouse

5y↑78

It looks intentional. Look at the crack on the one on her cheek.

@fancastic1

5y↑98

@@janethebluemouse I think the stamp is of a broken heart. I believe she is saying that it wasn't intentional for the earlier stamps to look like a full heart.

@pixelatemii

5y↑8

I noticed it too, I just guessed it was intentional hah

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@kriss2720

5y↑3.3K

this is so sad but so funky and now im crying while dancing in the bath thanks a lot orla

@oO0THELevena0Oo

5y↑44

Sounds like a great way to spend an evening. I need to try that

@strawwberryyy

5y↑15

big dancing on my own energy

@Omegawerewolfx

5y↑1

maybe get help

@TrulyAwefull

5y↑28

The most hazardous activities for all ages are bathing, showering and getting out of the tub or shower. Only 2.2 percent of injuries occur while getting into the tub or shower, but 9.8 percent occur while getting out...

I wonder how many could occur during a bath dance? Be safe, dance safer. <3

@galacticpotata8192

5y↑11

@@TrulyAwefull this is going to be my favorite way to die in that case

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@AliceRoseFish1

5y↑3.3K

That is what it feels like when I dissociate

@crappyabbi2712

5y↑76

This is what it looks like too

@AliceRoseFish1

5y↑16

@@crappyabbi2712 big old mooood

@sierrarobinson4447

5y↑11

My exact and first thought

@izzierose2

5y↑4

Same

@forgetmenot277

5y↑6

That's exactly what I thought of!

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@halloweenfreak2769

5y↑1.5K

Listening to Orla for the first time is a religious experience

@cephi

5y↑43

listening to orla every time is a religious experience

@chaz4768

5y↑23

this was my first time listening to orla (i came from dodie) and i think im in love

@catiebrown2890

4y↑1

Fr 😂

@kmations4049

jelle mood

@whatcanidooo

3y↑8

I literally have a playlist that I made after spending the entire night listening to all her songs for the first time called "OMFG ORLA HOW DID I NOT DISCOVER YOU SOONER," which is very unusual for me because normally it takes awhile for me to warm up to an artist I've never listened to lol

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@tessaviolet

5y↑685

LOVE

@blackthunderbird425

3y↑1

@chrondog18

3y↑1

Love you too Tessa!!

@c9films198

5y↑413

Can we just take a moment to appreciate that this was shot in one take!

@jayvintus7498

4y↑10

Finally, someone of culture😎

@orlagartland

5y↑7.8K

you are not ready.

@ZeroTwo-ir5th

5y↑166

none of us are

@silentwhisp4r670

5y↑28

Well we do have like 24 hours to get ready :D

@pragyaverma351

5y↑8

Think not

@JimHealy

5y↑4

Yes I am!

@zoef5688

5y↑11

you are correct

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@pompeedooz8353

5y↑799

Interpretation:
Orla is going through all these relationships, either romantically or platonically, and she can’t seem to get attached the way she wants to. The people are trying by doing all these activities with her, but she can’t get into it. Eventually they get tired and leave her with the love that the used to have. When they leave she misses them and is left with their love, and with each relationship the love isn’t as strong(the hearts get more dry with each stamp). She knows that she can’t blame them for leaving or for how she misses them because she did it to herself by the way she acted in the relationship. So now every activity or everything they used to do reminds her of them, and there’s nothing she can do about it.

@dannymantra8569

4y↑9

damn i really feel this song now

@vanshika2773

4y↑7

Love people who interpret a song's video :)) <3

@k.n.1312

4y↑14

Best interpretation I’ve seen. Definitely spot on with the observance on those who “left their mark” on her.

@samhitasv4067

3y↑2

Wow this is has happened to me way too many times I can't even count anymore.

@sofgp4311

4y↑58

I was so pumped when I heard this in Normal People!

@saumyasharma6790

Me too

@bagialexandra

4y↑45

Normal People....listened to this song hundreds of times.. hearing it in Normal People made me smile and dance the first-second hearing it. Love this song Orla!

@stasiamusic

5y↑2.8K

Edit: HOW DOES THIS HAVE 300+ LIKES?!

My interpretation inbound!
.. Orla is still caught up on someone and while all her friends are trying to be there for her and spend time with her. She brushes them off causing them to leave because they are hurt by her actions (broken heart stamps) and in the end she is left by herself (when each person brings their prop and leaves it with her) but she can’t blame them because she did it to herself.

@tudormiller8898

5y↑21

She's probably an introvert.

@angelicabrill2101

5y↑98

So I haven’t finished the video yet, however, it kinda feels like all these people are dates she’s been on that haven’t worked because her heart isn’t into it.

@stasiamusic

5y↑23

Angelica Brill that could also be it. But idk when the guy brought out the cake I thought of like someone she knew for a while

@achilles7116

5y↑3

You had 666 likes, so I helped you to 667 xD

@Bard420

5y↑1

Yeah but all she has to do is apologize to them

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@shaunab6367

5y↑227

it's weird how people interpret videos differently. I saw this as association, how we hurt when somebody leaves but never really go, they also leave a part of themselves in memories. Such as hobbies they took a part in, sweet and funny moments in our memories, etc. And it makes you hurt because you can't help but think of them when you see this thing you associate them to

@user-bv5sq9dy7w

4y↑5

That’s cool, I thought of how oblivious you are to your surrounding when people hurt you, and you’re left with your thoughts.... or is it just me😂

@vibhormechu4042

4y↑34

Who came here after seeing "Normal people". Loved that show!!!♥️

@vanessaofereh-mugbeh9964

4y↑1

lol was literally just about to write this comment haha

@Himmelsfeger

5y↑340

What a wonderfull one-take. I guess keeping a straight face while getting stamped on it was hard.

@meganholtmeyer-cole1433

5y↑818

Right time for wild theories on the video (not been previewed yet). Orla is hosting a dating show called me and my cactus but keeps falling in love with all the people she's meant to be helping find love. Eventually she gets fired from the show, only to fall in love with the new host. In a fit of anger she runs on stage and destroys everything, finishing with her in her previous seat where she hosted all those years

@orlagartland

5y↑183

Megan Holtmeyer-Cole I always seem to find the pricks

@zfbananas

5y↑12

Well you were close...

@georgelinford5576

5y↑12

gold star for trying ⭐

@robin-gg8me

5y↑5

@@orlagartland omg😂😂

@melododie

5y↑4

This is amazing

@e.b.315

5y↑555

This was so not what I was expecting but the imagery and colours and just the overall aesthetic works so well with the song!! I love the silhouette shot of you!

@jennabreland5261

5y↑3

love the silhouette!

@triskop1047

Imagine spelling colors wrong bc ur country jus bad

@Capturia

5y↑196

My interpretation:
I think their her friends trying to help her get over someone but when they can't get through they leave (give her some space) but the hearts are there to show her their still there for her & love her despite her ignoring them.

@istymix

5y↑2

not friends, lovers, she's bisexual, i guess

@ss-tz6fj

Exactly my thouhtsssshadvvhsdyasfugs

@alsocupcakes8885

4y↑42

@libbyjohnson4024

5y↑150

saw orla last night in houston and she’s honestly even more beautiful in person. so much talent and kindness

@confusedpretzels

5y↑4

Ahhh same! her and dodie and the whole freaking House of Blues was awesome.

@confusedpretzels

Yeehaw!

@torisosa5248

Libby Johnson I get to see her tomorrow in Austin 😩😩😍😍😍

@fishfoods2622

aaa i was there too!!! yeehawwww

@rd8342

same! I saw her in nashville last friday. such a talent ✨

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@florencegrace8579

5y↑104

this is so beautiful, i kinda interpret this as orla feeling like no matter how much love her friends and family give her, she feels like she can’t recover from losing someone special to her. and how she just feels empty and said without that person, it’s super sad but such an amazing video 💓

@ericthelemming

5y↑168

every💔stamp💔hurts💔and💔it💔shows💔BRILLIANT!

@Sweetoof_

5y↑775

@cruelcimmcia859

5y↑5

Wanna give a like but i dont wanna mess the likes 161 is a good # So i comment to show i like.

@linhfphung7867

Thank you!

@AngelsOfTheSea13

Thank you very much!🤗

@lovelyraincoat475

4y↑9

this is the EXACT "feel shitty but need a bop" i was hoping for

@virginiaviola5097

3y↑5

A relationship ends, depression, anxiety..when you’re locked in, and despite all the good intentions of those who love you, trying to cheer you up...but you are unreachable, lost inside your head, so they leave their love, and go. I know.

@MsRetroKittyKat

5y↑70

Everything that Orla does resonates so deeply within me. I love her so much. A true artist and inspiration. 💐

@ixchel4784

5y↑496

people are dropping interpretations so here i go:
all the people passing by are the relationships that she’s had in her life (romantic and not) , who leave because she does not pay attention and leave her with a bit of guilt of breaking their heart (stamps), and when she steps back into reality she realizes how much weight she has been accumulating and how she is alone and she “did it to herself “

idk it’s kinda wild but haha

@MJ-hq6zn

4y↑1

Wow

@lilyyeoman7778

4y↑8

Actually choked when this started playing in Normal People. I had no idea that was going to happen

@tuner6255

5y↑139

I SPIT MY WATER IM SO EXCITED YOU ALWAYS HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CLIPS SOO EXCITED

edit : so i watched it and i was right

@orlagartland

5y↑9

Tunahannes slurp

@georgelinford5576

5y↑3

@@orlagartland you-

@HudsonTaylorMusic

5y↑45

Powerful! Love this song and video. Orla, its been such a joy to watch you grow and
see where your music has taken you these past 9 YEARS. insane amount of time where so much has changed. Very Grateful to have shared stages with you, made videos back in the day and busking in Dublin as well.

This is such a banger. Much love!

Harry & Alfie x

@icy9428

i like the music you guys make

@isabelah3023

5y↑7

the fact that this was all shot in one take blows my mind

@GoldCogIronMachine

2y↑4

im only really speaking for myself but the line "you gave me a power i never even wanted" always hit me hardest since the first time i heard this song. coming out of abusive relations in the past, being told "the trauma made you stronger" or "think of how much you've learned from this" stings so much. even if you do gain some power from the experience, it isn't worth the cost. i never asked for the so-called "strength" that came at the cost of being used. just one perspective on this awesome song, im curious to know how others felt the lyrics in their way.

@Ros_iel

5y↑9

I take it as someone who leaves a toxic person but they're whole life includes the family and friends in the toxic persons life. While leaving them, they lose everything they knew, thrusted into a new lonely life waiting to be lived in

@kingglitchez6851

i feel this

@jaina62

5y↑31

Ce morceau est beaucoup trop bien. Triste aussi... ET CE GROOVE DE BASSE, I LIKE IT !

@marineglasse4709

5y↑3

OUII CETTE BASSE

@timshank2232

5y↑11

My theory. Every person represents a coping mechanism. Movies? Something to focus on. Cake? Celebrating the loss of a poisonous person. Bow? Changing yourself, or insecurity resulting in longing to be another person. Beer? Something to make you feel good, or “loosen you up”. Umbrella? Self pity, and isolation, disconnecting yourself from the world. Tennis racket? Distraction, a way to loose a track of time. Speaker? The wake up call.

Instead of every person be a human in her life, I believe they are all things she relied on, and when she had none left she had no reason to avoid acceptance and move on.

@cherrywillow3983

5y↑1

Ru F i agree with this the MOST!and it makes sense then that the “wake up call” took away the stamp and ink, because it was the wake up call telling herself to stop hurting herself even more.

@Instinct101B

Pretty certain I'm 15 thousand of those views. I've been unable to get this out of my head so I go back to watching it again. Orla, you're the shit.

@minnesotarascal7453

4y↑1

I knew about 50 seconds into this video that it was one of the best music videos I've ever seen. Probably top 10, definitely top 25.

@Tea-zt5jp

4y↑3

Ive been listening to orla’s music for a while now so when I heard this play on the show normal people I was so happy for her

@guitarfrk99

5y↑17

an absolute banger as always. so stoked to be apart of the premiere in chat with you !!! ❤️

@BeelzebubMontgomery

3y↑1

as someone with BPD this song is knowing your favorite person isn't as good of a person as you thought. you can't stop loving them though.

@BeelzebubMontgomery

We're back to fucking step one. Come on Bee.

@ixchel4784

WHY HAS THIS NOT BLOWN UP

@antonenkotheshow

5y↑61

THANK YOU FOR YOUR MUSIC

@tankgirl9324

4y↑291

Normal People brought me here. I have no regrets.

@vibhormechu4042

4y↑4

Brilliant show!!

@fatimamaaref1659

4y↑4

Me too !!

@echo5010

4y↑3

Omg same!

@jamalaa2023

4y↑3

Me too❤

@saumyasharma6790

3y↑1

Same!! Just started watching episode 2 and this intro song got me hooked

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@Sophia048

Nobody talk to me. I'm busy listening to Orla on a loop.

@morgana9675

ORLA! A shirt with exactly that heartstamp-print would be such cool merch!

@leolunaticLive

5y↑3

How do I relate to all your songs so deeply every time? It always feels like your describing exactly what I’m currently feeling so perfectly

@WouterWeggelaar

5y↑10

Gahhh, still waiting for 8 hours....
Can't wait. I guess I'll stream it all day then...

@orlagartland

5y↑2

Wouter Weggelaar I approve

@georgelinford5576

5y↑1

@@orlagartland I love how you're replying to everyone

@WouterWeggelaar

That did NOT disappoint in any way! I love it. The chat went SO FAST.
Next level creativity, again delivered. Can not wait for more of the artwork now!

@toerag572

5y↑1

The best thing to me is that this is just the beginning of something!

@irispierreart6900

4y↑2

Just randomly clicked on this and so happy i did whoop whoop. Im jamming over here 🤗

@vexxus3425

Obsessed with the meaning behind the hearts! Great music

@prnatin2877

5y↑6

it’s so true that it hurts inside me, because I feel myself also now

@georgelinford5576

5y↑28

ok that was slightly too beautiful for me thank you ok

@neuropiano

You are criminally under-followed/subscribed to. Let’s go, people!!! i’ve been here since the beginning

@AddisonButts

4y↑1

god this cuts to the heart of me every time. from denying intimacy to avoid baggage in each fleeting relationship, to the truth of it being all along you couldn't avoid it, you are marked and you carry with you every person you let in no matter how hard you try not to

@SoniaOReilly

5y↑12

okay REAL TALK: how does the heart stamp seems full at the start and then we start to see the break in the middle? HOW! also OW MY HEART! also love u

@WouterWeggelaar

Clever camera masking tricks! I will DM you how to not spoil the magic

@hiczan

@@WouterWeggelaar I also wanna know!

@WouterWeggelaar

5y↑4

@@hiczan OK OK,

** SPOILER **
look closely at 1:04
The shot is completely blocked off, and there is a clear opportunity to cut to another take without noticing it.

In the shot with the whole heart stamp, the woman walks off in front of Orla. Orla stays very still as she walks out of shot, and then they switch the stamps, rewind the music a bit and shoot the second take. In editing, they make everything to the right of the woman the new shot and to the left the old shot.

@charm4672

5y↑2

Nah I think it's just the ink. At the start there was a lot and the crack was probably shallow so the ink just filled it but near the end as the ink was running out the crack became more apparent

@bea4135

5y↑7

YES GIRL!can‘t wait for the video. so excited!!

@xThePinkApple

i can't get over how GOOD this song is

@josieknott5919

5y↑1

This to me is about a depressional episode. Pushing friends and family away and ruining a relationship. People try with orla to ‘be happy’ and end up leaving when it becomes difficult to get through to her, orla knows she ‘did it to herself’ however can’t do anything about it, as her mental health is something she can’t change. Great imagery and lyrics I loved it

@georgiabarke3072

5y↑4

um-wow!! can't wait to see you in concert in London in a few months yay!! :)

@juliettyrer-bragg6435

5y↑13

so excited !! I predict that this video may involve stamps !??

@orlagartland

5y↑6

Juliet Tyrer-Bragg great prediction

@willowray9007

3y↑2

This is such a underrated song, it deserves so much more recognition 💞💞💞

@doougle

Really great song. The perfect color for any crayon box. "I can't shake it off".

@ericthelemming

5y↑3

I am simultaneously looking forward to this and not ready for this! 🤪

@orlagartland

5y↑2

ericthelemming ☺️☺️☺️

@angelsadventurez

5y↑3

This was so beautiful and so sad but I relate to it sm... I love ur music sm Orla, thank u for this masterpiece

@Dizzula

That funk bass though! I was not ready!

@greghobart6886

I've been a big fan for along time. I was on my way home from work listening to the car radio and it started playing this song. I couldn't believe my ears. Congrats on the radio play.

@ellathomsen4710

5y↑100

[Verse 1] I woke up to an empty bed I took a walk to clear my head I wished you were there instead But then I shook it off What the hell did I used to do? I'm even starting to speak like you And now you're living in my memory, living in my mouth Living in the four fucking walls of my house  [Pre-Chorus] I feel like a let-down To not be your friend now I-I feel like a let-down And now you're gone, gone, gone  [Chorus] I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I Oh, I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I [Verse 2] Your personality's split in two I fell in love with a half of you And when you told me what you went through I couldn't brush it off (Brush it off, brush it off, brush it off, brush it off) I wonder, what are you doing now? Defeats the point of shutting you out And now my part of London feels so haunted You gave me a power that I never even wanted  [Pre-Chorus] You said, "I feel like a let-down To not be your friend now" I-I feel like a let-down And now you're gone, gone, gone  [Chorus] I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I did it to myself I know I Oh, I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I (I-I did it) [Pre-Bridge] Oh my god, you're everything I know Let it sink in right now Oh my god, you're everything I know Get ready for the comedown  [Bridge] Did it to myself Did it to myself Did it to myself I know I- Did it to myself (I-I) Did it to myself (I-I) Did it to myself (I-I) I know I (I-I)  [Chorus] I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know, I know, I know, I know, I know (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I can't blame nobody else (I-I) I know I did it to myself (I-I) I know I
[Outro] You said answer honestly And I went with option B I lost you and you lost me I can't shake it off

@ms.e3870

5y↑26

I did it to myself...
sigh
Why am I like this?

@likaaptsiauri7881

Coming back for the 3rd time, can never get enough

@yeahokbud6173

3y↑1

Ive never heard the end of this song, because I keep replaying it.

@XxlonerxinxlovexX

5y↑5

Did you actually manage this in one take?! Incredible, I love it!

@JimHealy

5y↑6

Despite what Orla might say, I am ready.

@ananyab728

This song is my favorite now a days... heartbreak playlist 💔

@francesca_2760

realised its under two weeks til i get to see Orla live! Found her when Roots came out, and rediscovered last year. Absolutely cannot wait. SHE IS AN ICON, every song is just something that hits close to home

@dsprev8509

4y↑12

I’m waiting for the flood of comments saying “who was here from normal people”...

@emilycarwood2761

5y↑10

i love how melodic the "I" is sung to just be met with the almost spoken "letdown"

@malcolmcairnie9054

Still my favourite Orla song. Faaaack. It's so good.

@mayaabdeljalek7351

3y↑1

Can I just say that all her music videos are genuinely interesting and captivating without having to be super over the top like lots of other artist videos. I Lovee her music too!

@Oliver_Patricia

5y↑3

I’ll take the popcorn...

@ctraye6293

5y↑21

Not entirely sure what it means but I know there’s something in there that everyone can relate to in their own ways.

@aboogienights3000

Found this after watching Normal People. Now added 2 my playlist, thanks Orla, this is so funky

@LeonMire

My interpretation: I see each of the people as being her friends, each of which she alienates because of her emotional distance in the wake of a devastating breakup.

The object each holds represents the basis of their friendship. The popcorn as someone you like to watch movies with, the cake as the friend you bond with over eating or cooking, the casual tennis partner, etc. These relationships quickly fall by the wayside because they've become one-sided and no longer enjoyable.

I think of the umbrella as representing that really understanding, caring friend who's always been there for you in tough times, and the megaphone as being that friend who tells you the blunt truth when you most need to hear it. These two are her true friends, but even they can't get through to her and eventually leave.

As the lights go out, she looks around and finds that she's lost not only her romantic partner, but everyone she cares about. As the remnants of her friendships pile up around her, she realizes that she has no one to blame but herself.

@willowsill1

4y↑19

@karolinaugowska801

5y↑11

update: it's been four days and i still can't get this song out of my head

@helloabbylyons

4y↑1

Aaaaaaaand hitting replay!!

@mikaelalucido

I never needed a song more.

@cmmusic0429

5y↑23

i feel like a let down cause I’m late to the Orla party :(

@cat_le123

Me too :(

@LexCroucher

5y↑5

yesssssssssssss

@ceceg411

Just discovered Orla and I'm Hooked!

@MonsterVSAnimal2

Did I used to watch your covers YEARS ago... I wanna guess 6-8 years ago??? And I saw this video pop up in my recommended randomly & it all came back to me... and a few of your original songs you played acoustically... “Let Me In” comes to mind & there’s another one I can’t remember the name... DAMN well I’m glad you’re still making music!!!! 👏🏽 loved this

@nattt505

5y↑108

So my theory is that she’s bisexual, and all the girls leave hearts on the left because she’s ashamed of being attracted to them, and all the boys leave hearts on the right because she thinks they’re the “right” option. Also, the objects represent key components in each relationship that she was too depressed/disassociated to feel, so the person took it with them when they left.
Finally, at the end, everything comes back to her as she realizes what she’s lost, and all the objects have equal weight because she acknowledges that it was hopeless love every single time.

@bannappleblonde

5y↑8

The lyrics speak to my avoidant attachment style self TOO much oof

@mom2warren614

Brilliant interpretation of running away someone who truly cared about your best interests by being wrapped up in yourself.

@cassidygiven

how are all your songs so relatable😭

@jonasmyers7737

5y↑8

Nobody:
Me: blasting this in my room after being led on for a month because she couldnt just say she wasnt interested

@peachbun

5y↑1

Imagine being led on for years, encouraged to be strong, while you're fighting through pain to heal and try to walk again, and your mom is dying....this person you love and miss tells you to be strong, they take your gifts, they talk about how we will meet again, you fight through the pain and agony to improve so you won't be a burden on them, and when you're finding strength and kept hope all this time, they give up on you and say you're brainwashed because you came to believe in God :D Fun times.

@jonasmyers7737

@@peachbun fuck dude, i didnt expect to get any responses to that but now i feel genuinely bad for u. OOF

@emerohagan9421

5y↑3

Anyone know the Ike chords for this amazing perfection?

@ixchel4784

5y↑1

Emer O'Hagan if you find out let me know haha

@nikkiiwithani

https://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/tab/orla_gartland/did_it_to_myself_chords_2816528

@emerohagan9421

Thank you so much Nikki Reyes!

@kellyd3078

5y↑1

Every time... Every time Orla comes out with a new song, I fall in love immediately.
And the music videos?!?!
Even better!!! ❤️

@satan324

5y↑2

3 seconds in and I'm already in love with her voice

@annekashelley1255

5y↑27

‘and i will wait i will wait for you’

that was so bad but oh welll

i’m so hypED!!!

@evangklti5830

1y↑8

Normal people brought me here

@ItalianRory

5y↑1

awesome song and awesome music video! I really want to see the behind the scenes/outtakes now.

@anneleenschwartz4937

3y↑1

I saw ur 1st films, knew it, wow, the best, gaat to have u around, pure, honest, true, thank u

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