Otep have since released six full-length albums featuring many session musicians including Greg Wells, Joey Jordison of Slipknot, Koichi Fukuda of Static-X, Emilie Autumn, Tony Campos of Soulfly and Asesino (ex-Static-X), and Ulrich Wild. Their first three albums, Sevas Tra, House of Secrets, and The Ascension, were released on Capitol Records. However, after the label's merging with Virgin Records, Otep, along with many other bands, were released from their contracts with Capitol in 2007. Two years later, Otep signed with Victory Records and released their fourth album, Smash the Control Machine, which included a reunion with former members Mark "Moke" Bistany on drums and Rob Patterson on guitar. The album also featured Koichi Fukuda on piano and Emilie Autumn on violin.
Atavist was the first album not to feature longtime bassist Jason "eViL J" McGuire who left the band on September 30, 2010, the personnel consisted of session musicians Rani Sharone, Gil Sharone, Tony Campos, Collyn McCoy, Ulrich Wild, and Markus Estrada. On the tour supporting the album, her band consisted of support musicians courtesy of the supporting band and labelmates on the tour, Destrophy. The band is now mainly Otep Shamaya.
In 2011, Otep toured as a supporting act along with Earth Crisis for Cavalera Conspiracy. She also wrote and released a new book of poems titled "New Word Order" in December 2011.
In 2013, Otep released her sixth studio album titled Hydra on January 22 through Victory Records.
Blood Pigs
Otep Lyrics
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Map mange ou sans sel [voodoo curse]
My mistake, was trusting you, blood pigs, with creating my fate. with poetry and suffering. I cannibalized, every ounce of my pain. eye'm still afraid, everyday. these greedy worms, - they devour my plagues, eye'm not your slave, eye'm conquering. you see me rise, & now you're walking away!!! eye'm not ashamed! and now your walking away! eye'm not afraid! and now your walking away!!!
You can't hurt me anymore, you can't hurt me anymore. fed from the womb from which we were bled, vomiting filth in our soft cave heads, chewing on tissue, tendon and fat, destroying the things they do not understand!
Map mange ou sans sel [voodoo curse]
My mistake! was trusting you! blood pigs - with creating my fate! with poetry and suffering I cannibalized... every ounce of my pain eye'm still afraid everyday. you still suckle my plagues. eye'm not your fucking slave, so why you walking away??? blood pig! why you walking away???
The song "Blood Pigs" by Otep is an emotionally charged piece that appears to speak to feelings of alienation and betrayal, as well as issues around self-loathing and defiant self-expression. The singer in the song acknowledges that they are different and imperfect, and that they struggle to fit into the social norms that others seem to take for granted. They are angry at those who would try to force them into conformity, and who use their art and pain against them. Throughout the song, the singer vacillates between feelings of fear and shame, and a sense of empowerment and liberation.
The lyrics are dense with poetry and metaphors, including the recurring motif of "blood pigs" that seems to speak to those who operate parasitically on the pain and vulnerability of others. The use of Haitian voodoo curse reinforces this theme of condemnation for those who prey on others, and suggests a desire for vengeance or retribution. The singer also explicitly references the power of art to save them and to aid in their personal evolution, highlighting the importance of creativity as a means of coping with pain and overcoming adversity.
Overall, "Blood Pigs" is a powerful and intense song that serves as a rallying cry for those who feel outcast and marginalized by society. The lyrics suggest a deep well of pain and anger, but also a fierce determination to fight back against those who would seek to suppress or exploit the singer's sense of self.
Line by Line Meaning
Eye'm sorry, eye'm ugly, all that I am, and I can never live up, eye'm failing, eye'm angry, afraid of the ways, they pretend to be us.
The singer feels sorry and ugly, unable to live up to the expectations of others. They are failing and angry, and afraid of people pretending to be like them but not truly understanding their struggles.
its fuct up, eye'm different, wurdz remain, my only escape.
The singer acknowledges that things are messed up, and that they are different from others. The only way they can escape is through words.
art saves, all of me, evolving, and now you're walking away!!! eye'm so afraid! and now your walking away!. eye'm so ashamed! and now your walking away!!!
Art has saved the singer, allowing them to evolve and become a better version of themselves. However, they feel afraid and ashamed that the person they are addressing is walking away.
My mistake, was trusting you, blood pigs, with creating my fate. with poetry and suffering. I cannibalized, every ounce of my pain. eye'm still afraid, everyday.
The artist regrets trusting the people they call 'blood pigs' with their fate. They used poetry and suffering to cope with their pain, but now they feel like they cannibalized every ounce of their pain. They still feel afraid every day.
these greedy worms, - they devour my plagues, eye'm not your slave, eye'm conquering. you see me rise, & now you're walking away!!! eye'm not ashamed! and now your walking away! eye'm not afraid! and now your walking away!!!
The people the artist refers to as 'greedy worms' consume their troubles, but the artist is determined to not be their slave anymore. They are conquering and rising, but the person they are talking to is walking away. The artist asserts that they are not ashamed or afraid.
You can't hurt me anymore, you can't hurt me anymore. fed from the womb from which we were bled, vomiting filth in our soft cave heads, chewing on tissue, tendon and fat, destroying the things they do not understand!
The singer declares that the person they are addressing can no longer hurt them. They describe a disturbing image of being fed filth while still in the womb, and the destruction of things that are not understood.
Tyrant. betrayer. parasite. traitor!!... and still you feed them... and still you need them, eye'm sorry, eye'm ugly, dangerous, can't describe it enough, eye'm failing, eye'm angry. I use my fear to empower my hate, eye'm fuct up, eye'm different. wurdz remain my only escape, art saves, all of me, evolving, and now your walking away!!! eye'm not ashamed! and now your walking away! eye'm not afraid! and now your walking away! and now your walking away! and now your walking away
The singer is filled with anger towards the person they are addressing, calling them a tyrant, betrayer, parasite, and traitor. They note that despite this, the person still feeds and needs their actions. They admit to being sorry, ugly, and dangerous, and that they use their fear to empower their hate. They reiterate that they are different, and that words remain their only escape. Art has saved them and helped them evolve, but the person they are talking to is still walking away.
My mistake! was trusting you! blood pigs - with creating my fate! with poetry and suffering I cannibalized... every ounce of my pain eye'm still afraid everyday. you still suckle my plagues. eye'm not your fucking slave, so why you walking away??? blood pig! why you walking away???
The artist repeats their regret for trusting the person they refer to as a 'blood pig' with creating their fate. They used poetry and suffering to cope with their pain, yet still feel afraid every day. This person still feeds off their problems, but the artist asserts that they are not their slave. They demand to know why the person is still walking away, addressing them as a 'blood pig.'
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Lyrics:
Blood pig (x2)
I'm sorry, I'm ugly
All that I am and I can never live up
I'm failing, I'm angry
Afraid of the ways
They pretend to be us
It's fucked up, i'm different
Words remain my only escape
Art saves all of me, envolving
And now you're walking way
I'm so afraid
And now you're walking away
I'm so ashamed
Now you're walking away
[voodoo spell]
My mistake was trusting you
Blood pigs
With creating my fate
With poetry, and suffering
I cannibalized every ounce of my pain
I'm still afraid, everyday
These greedy worms
They devour my plagues
I'm not your slave
I'm conquering
You see me rise
And now you're walking away
I'm not ashamed
And now you're walking away
I'm not afraid
Now you're walking away
No
You can't hurt me anymore (x2)
Fed from the wound from which we were bleed
Vomiting filth in our soft cave heads
Chewing on tissue
Tendon and fat
Destroying the things they do not understand
Tyrant
Betrayer
Parasite
Traitor
And still you feed them
And still you need them
I'm sorry, I'm ugly
Dangerous
Can't describe it enough
I'm failing, I'm angry
I use my fear to empower my hate
I'm fucked up, I'm different
Words remain my only escape
Art saves all of me, envolving
And now you're walking away
I'm not ashamed
And now you're walking away
I'm not afraid
Now you're walking away (x3)
[voodoo spell]
My mistake was trusting you
Blood pig
With creating my fate
With poetry and suffering
I cannibalized
Every ounce of my pain
I'm still afraid everyday
You still suckle my plagues
I'm not your fucking slave, so why you walking away?
Blood pig
Why you walking away? (x3)
@PneumaNoose
The first time I heard this song (which was the first time I ever saw and heard OTEP), I was mere weeks away from escaping my abuser. I was a s-x sl-ve from 14 to 19. If I ever meet Otep Shamaya, I’m gonna let her know she’s what planted the seed of what fueled my courage to finally risk it all to get away. I drove 12 hours straight to California in the middle of the night. I played “Rose” by APC and scream cried and ROARED the words the whole time. I wanted to turn back so many times cuz I was scared shitless but Maynard kept singing “I ROSE, I ROARED…” That’s when my Lion Mentality (as I call it) was born. About a year later I found this song again (Blood Pigs) when I had the freedom to listen to whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I’ve been blasting OTEP regularly ever since. I am 36 almost 37 as I write this. If I didn’t have music, I wouldn’t be alive today.
ART SAVES! SEVAS TRA FOREVER!
@laughingdoc1673
🤘💯🥺🥺
@starofeden9277
Now you can let go..and be at peace
forgive its the past
@AnthonystannisJenkis-pi7gm
Sorry you had to endure such shit goes to show the power of metal also not all men are twats
@user-ix6vv8lo5j
I hope you had the courage to help bring that person/those people down so they couldn’t hurt anyone else
@PneumaNoose
@@user-ix6vv8lo5j I turned him in and wasn’t believed by the police. I was arrested for False Report to a police officer. I was 18 when I turned him in, and I had proof that I was living there as a minor, but they still didn’t believe me. It was “some crazy story” according to them. So crazy it “couldn’t be true” they said. There’s documentaries and investigations being done about that exact BS that cops do to young women. It’s easier to charge a girl with False Report than to do an entire investigation, apparently. I truly thought I was the only one until I stumbled upon a Netflix doc about it a few months ago.
That bad man STILL contacts me to this day saying he shouldn’t have let me get away and I was the best thing he’s ever had. It’s been almost 20 fkn years and he makes new FB accounts to msg me from cuz I block him every time. I have a folder saved on my hard drive with ALL the stuff he sends me and I email everything to my best friend cuz I bought gun. I will be armed with proof up to the DA’s eyeballs that he’s been stalking me ever since I escaped. I wish this man no harm because I have learned compassion is the only way we will ever progress as human beings, but I won’t let him touch me ever again. If he tries to break into my house (like he did 18 years ago), I will not ask questions. I learned the hard way that sometimes you really MUST put yourself first. Because I can’t call the cops on him ever again thanks to that False Report arrest. The DA who prosecuted me was the same DA that refused to let Daniel Villegas free (an innocent man who was wrongfully convicted of murder as a teenage boy). He was recently released (FINALLY!). The corruption runs deep in my city’s Law Enforcement, but thankfully he’s no longer our DA.
That documentary is called “Victim/Suspect” on Netflix. What happened to those poor girls is EXACTLY what happened to me when I tried to get help. This is exactly why I fled the state and didn’t just go to a different town. I wanted a new life where I wasn’t seen as some liar (honesty really matters to me).
@prostheticsynthesis1034
12 years later and her voice still gives me chills...major respect, fucking love Otep
@LumpyChoadGravyBoy666
Vocal effects pedal, bruh. You want real demonic growls... listen to my mother (before her demise anyway). I didn't call her the Beast for nothing.
@gerald5313
Man ino u ain't disrespecting otep on here
@WELLINGT00N
Da infância à vida adulta 💜🎶🎸