Otep have since released six full-length albums featuring many session musicians including Greg Wells, Joey Jordison of Slipknot, Koichi Fukuda of Static-X, Emilie Autumn, Tony Campos of Soulfly and Asesino (ex-Static-X), and Ulrich Wild. Their first three albums, Sevas Tra, House of Secrets, and The Ascension, were released on Capitol Records. However, after the label's merging with Virgin Records, Otep, along with many other bands, were released from their contracts with Capitol in 2007. Two years later, Otep signed with Victory Records and released their fourth album, Smash the Control Machine, which included a reunion with former members Mark "Moke" Bistany on drums and Rob Patterson on guitar. The album also featured Koichi Fukuda on piano and Emilie Autumn on violin.
Atavist was the first album not to feature longtime bassist Jason "eViL J" McGuire who left the band on September 30, 2010, the personnel consisted of session musicians Rani Sharone, Gil Sharone, Tony Campos, Collyn McCoy, Ulrich Wild, and Markus Estrada. On the tour supporting the album, her band consisted of support musicians courtesy of the supporting band and labelmates on the tour, Destrophy. The band is now mainly Otep Shamaya.
In 2011, Otep toured as a supporting act along with Earth Crisis for Cavalera Conspiracy. She also wrote and released a new book of poems titled "New Word Order" in December 2011.
In 2013, Otep released her sixth studio album titled Hydra on January 22 through Victory Records.
Invisible
Otep Lyrics
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Speak like we do,
Think like we do
Obey...
Beneath the cold sun
Watching you walk away
In rivers so decayed
I am invisible...
I'm in this mood for days...
Teeth on every wall...
That never go away.
I'm made of blades and flame...
I'm sick and dangerous...
You're my favorite prey
'Cause I hurt the ones I love.
[Chorus]
You're so lovely when you cry.
You're so perfect when you lie.
You can be my crucifix,
Hold me up to watch me die.
Can't you see?
I'm invisible...
Beneath the Pagan moon
One more prey dies today.
On sheets of flesh and doom
Shivering in endless shade like criminals...
The stain still remains
And I promise you, it never goes away.
[Chorus]
Behold,
Feast your eyes as the peripherals explode.
Can you see me now? (2x)
The ugly will resign
When the young blood eats the light.
And one day,
this pain could save your life.
[Chorus]
Living in the shelter,
Lying here alive...
We're painting submission
Across the shadowed sky...
Fire on the sides,
Burned and bright, has arrived
Lost in flight, on golden molted wings
Now do you see?
Now do you...
Now do you see?
Mama, don't cry...
I'm leaving his life...
It's not your fault.
It's not your fault.
Paid for our sins,
You protected us then...
And saved us all.
I make this vow,
I promise you now
He'll never touch us again...
He'll never touch us again...
He'll never touch us again...
The opening lines “Dress like we do/Speak like we do/Think like we do/Obey” suggest a culture or a society that requires conformity in the behaviors and beliefs of its people. The singer of the song rejects this requirement and acknowledges a sense of invisibility or marginalization that comes from not conforming to the dominant culture. The following lines suggest the singer has experienced some kind of trauma or violence, described as “Teeth on every wall…” and “…I’m made of blades and flame/I’m sick and dangerous…” The singer admits to hurting those they love, perhaps indicating a cycle of abuse or trauma that is difficult to escape from.
The chorus emphasizes the singer’s desire to be seen and recognized, even if it means being seen in pain or distress: “You’re so lovely when you cry/You’re so perfect when you lie/You can be my crucifix/Hold me up to watch me die.” This could be interpreted as a cry for help or a desire to be noticed, even when it comes at a great cost. The closing lines of the song address a figure, perhaps a parent or guardian, and suggest that they have protected the singer from harm in the past. The vows made at the end of the song could be seen as a turning point or a resolution to break the cycle of violence and trauma that has been a part of the singer’s life.
Line by Line Meaning
Dress like we do,
Conform to our appearance,
Speak like we do,
Use our language and tone,
Think like we do
Adopt the same beliefs and values as us,
Obey...
Comply with our expectations and commands,
Beneath the cold sun
In a world that lacks warmth and compassion,
Watching you walk away
Feeling helpless as someone leaves,
Where my terror runs
Experiencing overwhelming fear,
In rivers so decayed
In torrents of negativity and despair,
I am invisible...
Feeling unnoticed and disregarded,
I'm in this mood for days...
Feeling trapped in gloom and misery for a long time,
Teeth on every wall...
Sensing danger or threat everywhere,
That never go away.
That persist and continue to haunt,
I'm made of blades and flame...
Being volatile and destructive,
I'm sick and dangerous...
Being ill, both physically and mentally, and posing a risk to others,
You're my favorite prey
Viewing others as targets or victims,
'Cause I hurt the ones I love.
Harming those closest to me because of my own issues,
You're so lovely when you cry.
Finding pleasure in others' pain and suffering,
You're so perfect when you lie.
Admiring deception and manipulation in others,
You can be my crucifix,
Being a source of salvation or a means of causing harm,
Hold me up to watch me die.
Taking delight in self-destruction,
Can't you see?
Don't you understand my perspective,
Beneath the Pagan moon
In a world that is wild and unrestrained,
One more prey dies today.
Claiming more victims,
On sheets of flesh and doom
In blood and misery,
Shivering in endless shade like criminals...
Suffering in darkness and isolation like a prisoner,
The stain still remains
The damage and consequences of actions persist,
And I promise you, it never goes away.
Assuring others that the memories and effects last forever,
Behold,
See and witness,
Feast your eyes as the peripherals explode.
Experience the shock and thrill of violent destruction,
Can you see me now? (2x)
Do you recognize me or my pain,
The ugly will resign
The unpleasant and distasteful will not last,
When the young blood eats the light.
When youth and vitality consume and overpower weakness and darkness,
And one day, this pain could save your life.
Suggesting that adversity and suffering can lead to growth and strength,
Living in the shelter,
Existing in a place of safety and protection,
Lying here alive...
Being in a state of living but not thriving,
We're painting submission
Conforming and submitting ourselves to the expectations of others,
Across the shadowed sky...
Covering the truth and reality with darkness,
Fire on the sides,
Embers on the fringes,
Burned and bright, has arrived
Strong and influential forces have arrived,
Lost in flight, on golden molted wings
Flying away on powerful but deceptive wings,
Now do you see?
Now that the truth is revealed, do you see and understand,
Mama, don't cry...
Comforting and consoling someone who is grieving,
I'm leaving his life...
Leaving behind someone or something that was harmful,
It's not your fault.
Reassuring someone that it's not their responsibility or blame,
Paid for our sins,
Having atoned or suffered for our mistakes and wrongdoings,
You protected us then...
Thanking someone for their past support and care,
And saved us all.
Rescuing us from harm or danger,
I make this vow,
Making a solemn and serious promise,
I promise you now
Assuring someone that I am sincere and committed to my word,
He'll never touch us again...
Ensuring that someone who caused harm will not be able to do so again,
He'll never touch us again...
Repeating and emphasizing the promise to provide reassurance and hope,
He'll never touch us again...
Finishing the song with a powerful and resounding commitment.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: GREG TRIBBETT, OTEP SHAMAYA
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@ieattrees8551
I listened to this song often as a small girl on the verge of entering puberty. There were many nights spent staring out the window watching the trees sway. I recall using this song as medicine, attempting to unravel the sexual abuse and trauma I’d experienced as a child. I laid motionless in a meditative trance-like state, allowing this song to wrap me up in its arms. I didn’t feel alone with Otep’s voice ringing in my mind.
@Umbra16
I completely forgot how much I love this song. I just remembered it existed today.
@JustineHorner
1:00 - 1:13 = 13 seconds of pure excellence! The entire song is great, but I especially love that part!
@proximity101
It really warms my heart to see a positive comment list on this you guys are the real music lovers
@subjectz
this song speaks measures to anyone that has hurt or felt pain. in my 31 years of life i have never heard anything spoken in such truths that it makes me afraid.
@timsrensen3542
You know.... !
@dogukanbayram4589
Holy shit you're 37 now
@tiamod
Holy shit you’re 39 now
@wilsonemile4414
I With You On That My Dear ❤
@JohnRobinson-ro2yj
This woman is infinitely talented. She writes some of the most thought provoking and emotionally challenging lyrics I have ever heard. If she teamed up with Maynard James Keenan for an album, that would be a dream come true.