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1. An English Punk Band with Dani Filth of Cradle Of Filth as lead vocalist who released 1 demo (Alcoholocaust In Your Liver)
2.The ever-growing roots of hip hop music have sprouted many styles and sub-genres, embracing other forms of music in her immeasurable bosom to form a tapestry of music far too complex to put a finger on. From its loud introduction in the late 70s, hip hop has the art of change down to a science. From conscious rap to gangsta rap, hip hop has sported many titles. But just as the culture has changed, so has its artists. However, her latest offspring, P.D.A, is..something else.
Born May 20 1984, to Reba McGuffey, Anthony Jenkins become very proficient in music composition and performance very early. While P.D.A.'s story is not riddled with tales of violence, abusive childhoods or inner-city angst, the musical origin of this Tulsa, Oklahoma native is not a-typical of his hip hop brethren.
At the age of 13 he joined the Tulsa Youth Opera and performed in many off Broadway productions such as Joseph and The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, and Aida. P.D.A's (which means Public Display of Afflection) love for music didn't stop there. He developed an instant appreciation for all genres of music. Some of his idols include Jim Croce, DJ Quik, Jody Gnant, Timbaland, Nancy Sinatra, and Billy Ocean. Just like hip hop, he began to weave these influences together to form his unique rap style. By the age of 14, he knew that he wanted a career in the music industry, but he never knew what for.
P.D.A continued to rap for the next few years but never took the genre seriously until about age 17. On his journey to get an album recorded, he came across Big Wolf Entertainment which accepted him into their family of artists, writers and producers. After a year or so with BWE and no progress, P.D.A. decided he needed to break away from the company. He took his ideas and music and started his own company named Squaresoft, after his favorite video game company that switched names. The first artist he signed on SS was Trip C, a rap/rock artist that he met while working at BWE, they formed a musical partnership and has performed for thousands all over the Midwest opening for people such as Tech N9ne, and Twiztid (among others). He produced and helped write the TripC album Flush Please and it soon became the first album released on SS Productions. the album has sold hundreds of copies around the Midwest and is being played on local radio stations. The second artist he signed on to Squaresoft was a skilled kid by the name of Kawnar, well beyond his years in recording and performance.. P.D.A. saw this and accepted him into his family, they are both currently working on finishing up Kawnar's first release under SS, Pandora's Box. Now P.D.A. was on the right path, he met up with Kansas City, MO Artist, Phantom and after hearing his unique production and lyrics.. signed him.
On his journey to finishing up his sophomore album Act I - The Next Concept, P.D.A. realized that he wouldn't be able to release the album as he intended, since some of the artists on it were with the last studio he was with.. "...the album has always been a curse." So he scrapped the 25 some tracks he had completed for it.. As for what P.D.A. is doing now? He has been producing for some of the hottest people in the game right now, like Phillipian, Monkey Block, Trauma, Infamous, J-Life, Tra-G, Big Hank, and just singed on to work on JaQuay's new album. He is also in the studio working (and almost done with) his third album "Act II - A Different Victim" ..a very strange and mood filled album. As it seems now, even when beat up and kicked, P.D.A. will always stand, and never stop. P.D.A.'s unique style promises to breathe much needed life back into a genre that seems to be dying at her roots.
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Inside
P.D.A. Lyrics
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Till you lacking my niggas l gon keep stalking you
Like a bitch with trust issues I ain't got no problem blocking you
My hammer get you nailed it got some missing screws
Really antisocial cause y'all ain't talking bout no money
Came in the game not knowing shit you're a crash dummy
Wrap his body up and put em in his coffin like a fuckin mummy
Fuck the drip I'd have money and be bummy
Chopstick leave a nigga holy like some fucking crocs
If you think you'll get me popped
Niggas got shit twisted like some fuckin locks
Like a whack barber we push yo shit back
He asked if I sold Coke he
Dope Fien get his head crack
You gettin' hoed by yo bitch I call you norbit
I took that boy off this world I knocked him outta orbit
Yo bitch keep look towards us I think she adore us
Bust on her face then I'm like bae you gorgeous
You can keep the ho how her head game suck
Don't believe in guns but I keep it tuck
Blow that bitch it you try me I don't give a fuck
Caught em at dead end now he ran outta luck
I got niggas sick as fuck like they caught covid
It's freezing in the summer bitch you know my heart been the coldest
You shakin' hands wit the oops you thought I didn't notice
Watch what I do with this next check put your camera on focus
While y'all was hiding we was seeking
And looking for a opp and do him dirty the way he was speaking
Throwing hands like Craig did Debo and leave him leaking
Now i don't know if it's this gas or his body reekin
The song "Inside" by P.D.A. tells a story of a man who is being released from prison and his struggles to reintegrate back into society. The lyrics begin with the news that the man's brother is being released next year and he has been behaving well according to the Governor Conway. The tone of the song sounds hopeful but as the story unfolds, it becomes clear that the man's past will continue to haunt him.
At a party, the man meets a woman and offers to take her home. However, they don't go straight home and instead, she invites him to put his hand in a provocative way. The song suggests that this may have been a setup and the woman accuses him of assault. The police get involved and the man is in danger of going back to prison.
The lyrics then switch back to the perspective of the man's brother, who has been through this ordeal before. He warns him that despite being told he's free, they will never really let him go because of his past. The song ends with the image of summer going out the door, suggesting that the man's chance of a normal life is slipping away.
Overall, "Inside" deals with themes of guilt, redemption, and the cyclical nature of crime and punishment. The song suggests that once someone has been in the system, it is difficult to escape it, even if they genuinely want to change.
Line by Line Meaning
Brother Seems they're letting him out next year
The singer's brother, who's been imprisoned for a while, is getting released soon.
He's behaving himself I hear
The singer has heard that the brother has been on good behavior.
Governor Conway says it will be fine
The governor has given assurance that the brother's release will happen without any issues.
Just as long as he can tow the line
The brother will only be released if he complies with the rules and regulations set by the authorities.
So it's the same old story
The situation is typical and not unique.
But it says here 'Mum you're not to worry'
There's a note somewhere that reassures the mother not to worry about her son's release.
'Cause some you lose and some you lose
The singer is expressing their resignation to the fact that sometimes things don't work out as planned, and one has to accept that.
At this party, he was on his own
The brother attended a party by himself.
All he did was say he'd take her home
The brother only offered to take a girl home from the party.
But it seems they didn't go straight there
The brother and the girl didn't go home immediately.
'Twas on the porch, she told him, 'Put your hand here'
On the porch, the girl made a sexual advance by asking the brother to touch her.
Police 'If what she says is so, we'll never let him go!'
The police have doubts that the brother didn't do anything wrong and will hold him back in custody.
Him 'Never a word could be heard
The brother never spoke about what happened with the girl.
Not even the sound of a bird
The surrounding was entirely silent.
Singing it over again, telling a different story
If one repeats the same thing over and over again, it becomes a different story as it progresses.
Never the same as before
The chain of events never matches what happened originally.
See the summer going out by the door
Time is slipping away.
And now that you've paid for those lies
The brother has suffered the consequences of his wrongdoing.
Get another disguise
Change and start anew.
'It's twenty years now since our Kid came free
It's been twenty years since the brother got out of custody.
Oh I remember August '53
The artist has vivid memories of August 1953 when the brother was released.
But it wasn't quite like they said
The brother's release wasn't exactly as promised.
With that behind you, you can't plan ahead
The brother's past can't be ignored, and it continues to manifest in his life.
So it's the same old story
The situation remains the same, even after many years have passed.
They say you're free, don't worry
The authorities promise the brother that he's free and should not stress himself.
What they said's not so
The authorities were not entirely truthful to the brother.
They never let you go!'
The brother feels like he's still bound by his past and cannot truly be free.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Jalen Price
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@raulleemusic
Fascinating. This is a cogent presentation with concise explanations. You have made this information so much more relatable by speaking from personal experience. I relate to your decision-making process in your youth pretty much in its entirety. "What authority? Show me..." =D
I realized recently that my PDA used to manifest when I played competitive tennis in my youth. I was known to "choke" or throw away my lead when I was ahead, thereby sabotaging my own progress. During this time, as a reaction to my frustration at losing what looked like an unassailable lead, I would start smashing my tennis rackets; by the end of the match my racket(s) would be eviscerated, and I would have lost, often just 'giving up' when I lost my cool, not being able to commit my mind to focus on winning, and putting in a half-assed performance before my opponent even caught up to my score, let alone take the lead - I would practically hand the win to them by self-destructing on court.
Interestingly enough, this only happened in critical, final-stage matches, or in earlier rounds if/when I was faced with an opponent I was expected to defeat easily.
In hindsight, the phenomenon they call "choking", for me, was simply a manifestation of PDA. Understanding even just this one instance of its manifestation has changed my life; it has enabled me give answer to some of my most perplexing (mis)behaviour in my youth and young adulthood.
Thank you for writing your book!
@ryn2844
I relate really strongly to the anxious demand avoidance thing, and yes I need to be in control, because the prospect of being unable to meet a demand, the prospect of failure, is terrifying , but I would never dream of attempting to manipulate or control others. I absolutely don't keep lists of people's weaknesses. I'd never ever ever ever use something like that against people. There is no 'dark center' to my personality. Christ I'm not evil.
Honestly I think this is a p!ss-poor attempt at showing people the insides of PDA'ers minds. It's accurate to some people, probably, but this weird evil sh!t can't be everyone with PDA. To me it seems like all this does is increase villification, not actual understanding. You didn't even manage to convey that this is about fear, anxiety and a lack of confidence in one's ability to function as expected first and foremost.
No I haven't somehow mastered neurotypical empathy in order to manipulate? What? That's not something you can just choose to do. I have heaps of empathy and care for the people of the world, it's just hard for me to instinctively relate to and understand neurotypicals. That is how most aut!stic people's empathy works.
When a demand that is too much for me persists, all that happens is that I get a panic attack/meltdown (=uncontrollable sobbing for me)/su!cidal intent, probably all at once. It all turns inwards, not outwards. I wouldn't harm a fly. My ability to love and care does not go anywhere. That is always there. I'll probably just feel extreme amounts of guilt and shame and hopelessness for letting you down and being a burden and not being able to explain why. I feel guilty, because falling apart feels like manipulation because it does get people to give me a break, even though I'm not in control of it happening. But no holy heck I've never made another person cry in one of these instances, all that happens is that they want to hug me until I'm better, without immediately asking what's wrong, and while I'm not a fan of hugging, this is pretty close to what I need in a moment like that.
Yes I mask (A LOT) and I show different people different true aspects of myself, shards, but that's because I don't want to be rejected, and not because I'm looking to misrepresent what I am or to manipulate the people around me. I'm just intimately familiar with what it's like to be rejected by everyone around you, and not willing to go through that again, so I'll sacrifice my personhood for your comfort around me.
When someone asks me to do something, yes the first thing I do is say 'no', but then I still do it. Maybe I'll wait half an hour, so that it's MY choice, maybe I hand over the butter at the same moment as the word 'no' leaves my mouth, but I do it. Unless it's a big thing that's too overwhelming, like finding a job or finishing a thesis, then I try as hard as I can but anxiety overtakes me and I have to stop to bring the anxiety back down to non-su!cidal levels.
Yes I'm more comfortable in roleplaying and fantasy than in life, and yes the extent to which I obsess over D&D and stories (both ones I make in my head and external ones) is a problem. My special interests are pretty typical for an aut!stic person I'd say. I'm as resistant to change as your average aut!stic. I've never been boisterous or difficult or anything ADHD-adjacent, no disrespecting authority (outwardly anyways). I just feel like this guy is generalizing his own experiences to a group of people that is probably a lot more diverse than is presented here.
Maybe this whole PDA thing just isn't as applicable to myself as I thought, but then again, the demand avoidance part resonates so hard that it's probably the biggest problem in my life. Why else would I be unable to meet demands to do things that I desperately want to do?
Maybe the darkness only develops when PDA'ers get pushed too hard, don't get listened to, don't get granted agency, and so they need to develop these defense mechanisms that I didn't need.
As a counter-anecdote to the 'time to put your coat on' line, my parents deliberately always phrased things like 'do you want to put your coat on inside out or upside down?' (that's an actual example) and then the answer would be a stubborn 'inside out!' Everyone wins. If my answer was 'no', my parents would be like 'okay well I'll let you bang your head into a wall then, you'll see for yourself.' My parents never did the 'because I said so' thing, because that didn't work. They learned really quickly that explaining precise reasoning as to why things had to happen was the way to go. Then I could make the decision of whether I agreed they should happen.
@autumnrose2085
This man just helped me answer what I’ve been trying to figure out my entire life. I felt like there was a darkness to me and that deep down I was a horrible human being. A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I now I can research and get help to learn how to be more one with it. I don’t know if he’ll read this but if he does- you changed my life. Thank you. ❤️
@nicorovertsthesecond9069
This, this, and so much this.
@hannastratman3231
I just found out about this archetype today and I literally texted my sister “There’s like tons of resources for me which makes me sad cus I thought I wasn’t a nice person when push really came to shove” 😭😭
@ParanoidGoblinoid
Me too, at age 49 1/2. We should come with instruction manuals. ❤ 🫂
@Casiielake
I thought this darkness was my bpd😅 im not even sure if i have bpd but i know i have pda
@dannyarcher6370
You're still lazy, though.
@bertaga41
This is brilliant. Should be compulsory viewing for doctors, psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers and teachers and of course families who need it.
Thank you so much.
@meldais1
Today is the first day I am hearing this term. I want to fucking SCREAM. I am 41 and I won’t even wear makeup because of the expectation. Nothing in my life is untouched by this. My finances, relationships, money management- all of it. I need it to stop!!!!!
@vazzaroth
This is the best video I've ever seen on the internet to help me understand my own internal processes that sometimes worry me b/c they're so automatic yet so enigmatic. Thank you so much.
@kathleen5798
My brother was diagnosed with this at the very beginning of lockdown. it's really difficult for us as a family to handle his instability but having a label now, i can find helpful videos like these and they help so much