Suicidal Thoughts in the Back of the Cadillac Pt. 2
POUYA Lyrics

MTM, hit 'em with the heat
Starting off with a bang, MTM is coming in hot with fire music

I'm a down south Florida boy, ain't goin' back to Hollywood
Proud of his roots, Pouya won't forget where he came from and the hard work he put in

From the gutter to your guts, let me ignite the firewood
Aiming for the heart of the listener, Pouya brings his passion and energy to every line

Still I roll slow in the Chevy donk
Despite his success, Pouya remains humble and true to himself, still cruising in his beloved Chevy donk

Never forget where I rose up from, spit on my face, get rid of my funds
No matter what life throws his way, Pouya won't let it bring him down or forget where he came from

And who am I? Just another guy stuck in desperation
Despite his success, Pouya still feels the weight of the world and struggles with his own demons

Lookin' at the ceilin' fan, spinnin' around, havin' a panic attack
Feeling overwhelmed and anxious, Pouya turns to music to cope with his mental health issues

I don't pop no pills 'cause it don't take the pain away from me
Pouya refuses to rely on drugs to numb his emotional pain, knowing it won't truly solve anything

I don't crack no seals 'cause it done took the gang away from me
Not wanting to fall into old habits, Pouya distances himself from negative influences and past mistakes

I been known to pimp a ho, got dirty loafers on my feet
Acknowledging his flaws, Pouya admits to past mistakes but also recognizes his own growth and progress

Bitch you got me mesmerized, them thighs the size of me
Pouya indulges in lustful desires, being captivated by physical attributes of others

Lemme slide inside yo body beef, bitch
Pouya is unabashed about his sexual desires and makes himself clear about his intentions

I got my chain on, ain't a thing wrong with a broken frozen wrist (bitch)
Despite his humble beginnings, Pouya enjoys the fruits of his labor and isn't ashamed to show off his success

Them suicidal thoughts inside the Cadillac won't fade away
Struggling with depression and darkness, Pouya confronts his inner demons and mental health issues

Another day I piss away, another day don't go my way
Feeling stuck and trapped in a negative cycle, Pouya struggles to see any progress or hope for change in his life

Another ho gon' look my way, lookin' for a paper chase
Wary of shallow intentions, Pouya is cautious of others who only seek to take advantage of him

Everything I did is crumblin' beneath my feet
Feeling like his hard work and life's progress is all falling apart, Pouya is on the verge of a breakdown

I'm feelin' lonely, feelin' like I'm only stuck with memories
Isolated and alone, Pouya realizes he's relying only on his own memories to keep him company

Take me back to what I was, take away what I've become
Wishing for a simpler time, Pouya yearns to go back to a time when he wasn't weighed down by the burden of his current problems

Take away the grayer days, take the bullet out my brain
Desperately wishing for a way out, Pouya wants to erase his darkest moments and escape his mental anguish

Take my dick out your mouth and let me be myself
Asserting his identity, Pouya wants to be accepted as he is without judging or objectifying him

I wonder what the people around me think about me
Insecure about his own self-worth, Pouya worries how others perceive him and if he's living up to their standards

Back at my shady ways I go
Despite his best intentions, Pouya falls back into old habits and negative patterns of behavior

Pack the gat and let it blow
Feeling hopeless and without any other options, Pouya sees violence as the only way out of his problems

Just let my lover, brother, mother, sisters, father know I love 'em
Amidst his personal struggles, Pouya wants to make sure his loved ones know how much they mean to him

Mikey I told you we was gon be somethin'
Reflecting on his journey, Pouya remembers a time when he was hopeful for the future and believed in his own success

Diamonds dancin' by the dozen
Celebrating his material success, Pouya revels in his newfound wealth and success

Nick I told you we would rise from nothin'
Grateful for the support and friendship of those who believed in him, Pouya expresses his appreciation for those who helped him get to where he is today

Look at the way they look at me now
Basking in the glow of his success, Pouya revels in the attention and recognition he's receiving

Rich forever, blowin' money 'til I'm senile
Enjoying his newfound wealth, Pouya isn't afraid to spend lavishly and live life to the fullest

I got addicted to the money as I fell inside a hole (yo, bitch, hey, yo)
Realizing that his obsession with money and fame has only dug him deeper into a personal crisis, Pouya sees his addiction as a source of his problems

The cries and crowd get louder, the deeper that I go (hey, bitch, uh, yo)
Feeling like he's digging himself a deeper hole, Pouya is weighed down by the expectations and pressures of his audience and fans

Nobody know what I've been doin', tell myself I hate myself (hey, yo, bitch, bitch)
Feeling alone and disconnected from others, Pouya falls into self-hatred and negativity

I can't control the cards I'm dealt (yo, yo, bitch)
Acknowledging that much of his circumstance is out of his own control, Pouya tries to come to terms with the world around him

I spent a lot of time alone inside my room
Struggling with depression and loneliness, Pouya withdraws into his own space and isolates himself from others

Thinkin' about what I would do if I knew you was on the fence about me too, bitch
Feeling insecure and paranoid, Pouya worries that others may not like him or may be talking about him behind his back

I crashed the whip and hit a bitch, and almost killed the bitch
Reflecting on a moment of recklessness and danger, Pouya recognizes how close he came to severely injuring or even killing someone

And now I'm back in the Cadillac with that black pistol grip
Despite the danger and risks, Pouya continues to engage in risky behavior and carry weapons

The AC don't work and I'm feelin' like I was a kid again
Despite his wealth and success, Pouya can't escape his roots and remembers a simpler time when he didn't have it all

Feelin' like I wasn't gettin' in with the cooler kids
Despite his newfound popularity and success, Pouya still struggles with feelings of inadequacy and not fitting in with the crowd

How the fuck can I get out of this funk?
Struggling with depression and despair, Pouya asks himself how he can escape this negative cycle and find happiness

If I die, you cry, then move on, the next day
Acknowledging that his death would impact others, Pouya realizes that life goes on and others would eventually move on without him

I'm ill-advised, fuck you, bitch, you can't even look me in my eyes (bitch, bitch, yo, yo)
Feeling disrespected and disregarded, Pouya lashes out and asserts his own strength and independence

Them suicidal thoughts inside the Cadillac won't fade away
Confronting his darkest thoughts and feelings, Pouya acknowledges his struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts

Another day I piss away, another day don't go my way
Feeling trapped and stuck in a negative cycle, Pouya sees no progress or hope for a better tomorrow

Another ho gon' look my way, lookin' for a paper chase
Wary of those who only want to take advantage of him and his success, Pouya is cautious of shallow intentions and desires

But bitch I'm not the one, so get your comfort from another
Asserting his own identity and independence, Pouya won't be used or taken advantage of by others

Fade away, fade away
Acknowledging the fleeting nature of life and success, Pouya recognizes that everything eventually fades away and comes to an end