Réconciliation
Pain of Salvation Lyrics


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I thought I'd seen hell
Thought I knew it all
Now I know too well
Hell is to wake up
But it makes all the difference

Tasting the tears in my mouth
Taking the weight on my shoulders
The hours and days of your life
Don't necessarily make you older

I'm sick of running away
Along these bloody streets
I'm sick of predators and prey
Of being everybody's end!

I've washed my hands of your blood
Thought it would leave me clean
But with time on my hands
It turned to mud forming this crust of sin

Now, to be truly free
I'll let it come to me
So, break me if you must
When you break this crust
Freedom is to see

Hear this voice, see this man
Standing before you I'm just a child
Just a man learning to yield

I hate these hands soaked in blood
I hate what these eyes have seen
Up to my knees in filth and mud
How it hurts to become clean

I was always on my mind
But never on my side
Run, but if you run away
You'll always have to hide




So if you need to run
Run for help!

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Pain of Salvation's song "Reconciliation" describe a personal journey of self-discovery and realization. The singer of the song starts by saying that they thought they knew what hell was, but woke up to a reality that was far worse. The journey towards reconciliation begins with taking responsibility for one's actions, acknowledging the weight of the consequences and accepting that time and age aren't necessarily the same thing.


The next part of the story sees the singer becoming tired of running away from their sins and the world in general. They refuse to play the part of predator or prey and want to stop being the end of people. However, they also carry with them the guilt of their past, hoping to erase it by washing their hands clean of it. But as time passes, this guilt turns into a weight that adds to the existing burden.


But the singer finds hope in accepting their role in the events of their past and letting go of the fear of being judged. They decide to face the consequences and break free from the guilt, even if that means being broken themselves. The song ends on a message of hope, urging the listener to run towards help if they need it.


Overall, "Reconciliation" speaks to the human desire for forgiveness, redemption, and self-acceptance. The song encourages the listener to take responsibility for their actions and seek redemption in the face of the consequences of their past deeds.


Line by Line Meaning

I thought I'd seen hell
I had believed that I had gone through the worst things in life


Thought I knew it all
I was confident about my understanding of what it means to suffer


Now I know too well
But now I have learned that I was wrong


Hell is to wake up
Because waking up every day to face the same struggles over and over again is true suffering


But it makes all the difference
But going through these struggles and enduring them is what makes us truly strong and resilient


Tasting the tears in my mouth
I am feeling the pain and anguish of my struggles


Taking the weight on my shoulders
I am shouldering the burden of my own problems and responsibilities


The hours and days of your life
The amount of time you spend on this earth


Don't necessarily make you older
Does not necessarily mean that you have gained wisdom or learned anything significant


I'm sick of running away
I am tired of constantly trying to escape my problems


Along these bloody streets
In this harsh and cruel world


I'm sick of predators and prey
I am tired of the constant struggle for survival and the vicious cycle of victim and aggressor


Of being everybody's end!
Of being the cause of everyone's problems and suffering


I've washed my hands of your blood
I have distanced myself from the harm that I once caused you


Thought it would leave me clean
I had hoped that this distancing would purify me of my guilt


But with time on my hands
But as time passed by


It turned to mud forming this crust of sin
The guilt and shame I feel has hardened into a shell that I cannot escape


Now, to be truly free
In order to truly be liberated


I'll let it come to me
I will accept my guilt and face it head on


So, break me if you must
So, if facing my guilt requires me to be broken, then so be it


When you break this crust
Breaking through the shell of guilt and shame that has festered inside me


Freedom is to see
True freedom comes from seeing the truth about oneself and accepting it


Hear this voice, see this man
Listen to my words and see that I am no different from you


Standing before you I'm just a child
Despite my struggles and suffering, I am still vulnerable and innocent at heart


Just a man learning to yield
I am still trying to find my way in this world and learning to be humble


I hate these hands soaked in blood
I detest the pain and harm that I have caused to others


I hate what these eyes have seen
I am repulsed by the harsh realities of life that I have witnessed


Up to my knees in filth and mud
I have waded through the muck and grime of life


How it hurts to become clean
It is painful to face and accept the truth about oneself and strive to become a better person


I was always on my mind
I was always preoccupied with my own thoughts and worries


But never on my side
I was never able to find peace or comfort in my own thoughts


Run, but if you run away
Try to escape your problems, but if you do so


You'll always have to hide
You will always be haunted by your past and the problems you have failed to confront


So if you need to run
So, if you must escape


Run for help!
Run to seek help and support from others




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Written by: DANIEL GILDENLOEW

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