In 2003 Alex got a deal with Accession Records and released his first official album "Skin on Fire".
In 2005 he released a second album "Overkill", and at the same time got a contract with Albert Diehl (Contribe).
Albert has been and is still a good motivation for Alex, and a few months after the signing, the EP "Storm of Impermanence" was released.
In October 2006 the third album, No need to worry, was released.
On 07-09-28 the 4th studio-album "borderline" followed. The CD is divided into two chapters: "rage" and "melancholy" showing both the harsher and softer side of painbastard´s music.
borderline
Painbastard Lyrics
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One year of FEAR and one year of HOPES
I sit on the fence – my SOUL is cloven in two
I' m on the run but nobody is hunting me
Refrain:
I walk the borderline – between HOPE and DESPAIR
I walk the borderline and try to hide my true colours
My personality disorder – I will meet my FATE (and laugh in its face)
One year of TRUTH – one year of LIES
One year of secrets and one year of idle talk
My name is "Betrayal" but I prove my INNOCENCE
My mother is a saint and my father is a pack of LIES.
Refrain…
One year of insight – one year of ego trips
One year of tragedies and one year of intrigues
I am the fool who will have the last laugh
And I am the warrior who will be the first to DIE
Refrain…
The lyrics to Painbastard's song "Borderline" delve into the emotions and experiences of the singer over the course of a year that has been filled with changes, stagnation, fear, and hope. The singer expresses their internal conflict, feeling as if their soul is "cloven in two" and being on the run without anyone actively pursuing them. The refrain speaks to the central theme of the song, as the singer walks the "borderline" between hope and despair, feeling sorrow and grief while also holding onto warmth and heart.
The second verse continues with the theme of contrasts, with the singer experiencing truth and lies, secrets and idle talk. The singer identifies themselves as "Betrayal" but intends to prove their innocence, while also recognizing the falsehoods within their own family. The refrain repeats, highlighting the singer's struggle to hide their true colors and their personality disorder.
The final section of the song speaks to a year of insight, ego trips, tragedies, and intrigues. The singer identifies themselves as a fool in one moment and a warrior in the next, holding onto the belief that they will have the last laugh even as they face death.
In summary, the lyrics of "Borderline" present a complex and emotional portrait of the singer's experiences over the course of a year filled with change, conflict, and self-reflection.
Line by Line Meaning
One year of bold changes – one year of stagnation
In the past year, I've experienced major changes followed by a period of no progress or growth.
One year of FEAR and one year of HOPES
Throughout the year, I've gone through both moments of fear and moments of hope.
I sit on the fence – my SOUL is cloven in two
I'm indecisive and torn between two opposing paths, causing internal conflict within myself.
I' m on the run but nobody is hunting me
Although I feel like I'm constantly fleeing, there's no one actually chasing me.
I walk the borderline – between HOPE and DESPAIR
I'm walking a fine line between the feelings of hope and despair.
I feel my SORROW and GRIEF and the warmth of my HEART
I'm experiencing the emotions of sadness and pain, but also the comfort of love and warmth within myself.
I walk the borderline and try to hide my true colours
I'm trying to conceal my true identity while standing on this uncertain path.
My personality disorder – I will meet my FATE (and laugh in its face)
Despite any personal struggles or obstacles, I'm confident in facing whatever comes my way and will overcome it with laughter.
One year of TRUTH – one year of LIES
This year has involved both moments of honesty and moments of deceit.
One year of secrets and one year of idle talk
I've faced a year of keeping secrets and talking without any true purpose.
My name is 'Betrayal' but I prove my INNOCENCE
Although it may seem like I'm betraying someone or something, I'm actually innocent and not intentionally causing harm or deceit.
My mother is a saint and my father is a pack of LIES.
I have conflicting feelings towards my parents, one being seen as a perfect figure and the other as dishonest or untrustworthy.
One year of insight – one year of ego trips
This year has involved moments of gaining knowledge and being self-reflective, as well as moments of egoistical attitudes.
One year of tragedies and one year of intrigues
This past year has seen its fair share of tragic events and mysterious situations.
I am the fool who will have the last laugh
Despite being seen as foolish by others, I know that I will have the satisfaction of the last laugh in the end.
And I am the warrior who will be the first to DIE
Even if I have to fight until my dying breath, I will do so as a brave and courageous warrior.
Contributed by Isaiah R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.