Cloaks and Daggers
Park Ave. Lyrics

I woke up dead today
I woke up feeling empty and lifeless.

And what's worse, I didn't care
To make matters worse, I didn't even have the energy to care.

I just laid there and waited for the feeling to return
I simply lay there, waiting in anticipation for something to stir inside me.

But the feeling never returned
Unfortunately, that inner feeling never arrived, and I remained numb.

It's a fear
Perhaps it's a fear that's gripping me and keeping me from feeling alive.

And if I lay still enough
If I'm still enough, I can almost trick myself into thinking you're still with me.

I can pretend that you're still here
It's challenging to admit that you're gone, so when I lie as still as possible, I can imagine your presence.

And when the city's cloaked in black
When the city is blanketed in darkness and feels deserted, it's a perfect reflection of my inner state.

The only color that attracts
The only thing that gives me comfort and attention is sadness and loneliness.

The lonely people here
I'm surrounded by others who feel the same way that I do, and that's a sad fact to consider.

Ask one and they'll tell you
If you ask anyone how they're doing, they'll all have a similar response; lost, lonely, and abandoned.

What's the point of falling in love
Love seems like an utterly pointless exercise when all it does is leave you cold and hurt.

When all it does is leave you cold?
When love results in nothing more than cold and lonely nights, what's the point?

And I don't want to do this anymore
This existence without you is not only empty, but it's also exhausting and draining me more and more.

I woke up all alone
All I have now are memories, but they're not as physically reassuring as your actual presence.

It's the first day in a long, long time
It's been a while since I didn't start my day imagining you with me or feeling the weight of your absence.

That I couldn't imagine myself crying when I think of you
It's been so long since I broke down in tears just thinking of you all alone.

But I'm too tired to hurt anymore
I've reached a stage where hurt doesn't even faze me anymore; instead, it just makes me feel exhausted.

And I know that it can't last forever
Eventually, everything will change, even though it feels like the misery will never end.

And in the darkness of my apartment
My apartment is a suitable environment to express my inner darkness and pain.

I found light there and it burns
Ironically, the only light in my world is also the cause of my hurt, and it feels like it's burning me up inside.

But I came to welcome the pain
Although I wish I didn't have to feel the pain, I've realized it's better than feeling numb all the time.

'Cause it's the only thing that makes you strong
Pain has an almost strengthening effect, which is why enduring it is making you stronger.

And I miss you still but I guess I'll just move on
Missing you is a permanent part of my existence, but I know I must move forward and try to live a life without you.