Paved In Skin was an underground industrial band. The band itself (vox:Patrick McBride, bass:Dustin Blegstad, drums:Joseph Clouder and keys:John Bergin) released an EP entitled "Skin" and an album entitled "Box". Both are out of print. Martin Atkins' (from Pigface) Underground Inc. Records (formerly Invisible Records) released "Off" in 2002, which rounded up most of the tracks from the out of print EP and album, plus live tracks.
In 1994, Trust Obey released an album entitled "Fear and Bullets" which was limited to 1500 copies. The copies were distributed with signed and numbered copies of James O'Barr's comic book, The Crow. The music itself was based on and inspired by the comic. As Trust Obey, Bergin was the first act signed to Trent Reznor's Nothing Records, though the debut album, "Hands of Ash", was never released on the label. After separating from Nothing, Bergin released the album on Fifth Colvmn Records in 1996, with a sticker on the front quoting Reznor: "Not a great commercial potential." In 1999, Invisible Records re-released "Fear and Bullets". The re-release is a reworked version of the original album. It omits two songs from the original version, and replaces them with two new ones. The new album also includes previously unpublished drawings of The Crow by creator, James O'Barr.
Tertium Non Data was formed in 1994 as a collaborative side-project between John Bergin and Brett Smith (also from Trust Obey,as well as Caul). The first Tertium Non Data recording was self-released in 1994. It was followed in 1995 by two more self-released collections, "The Vacant Chair" and "Lust". 1999 saw the release of "The Third Is Not Given' (which is the English translation of Tertium Non Data). 2001 saw the release of "Hers Is Blood".
In 2000, Bergin and Smith collaborated again, this time with Jarboe, under the name of Blackmouth. The collaboration yielded one self titled album.
As a side project from Trust Obey, C17H19NO3 (aka chemical formula for morphine) is a dark ambient music project along the same lines as Lustmord and In Slaughter Natives. The releases were as follows: "He Swallows The Ground" (1994), "Terra Damnata" (1996), "1692 / 2092" (1998) and "Terra Null" (2001).
He has also released tracks on compilations under the names Orifice, Lolo and Camouflaged Abominations.
Murder
Paved in Skin Lyrics
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I will do this to you
For everything you gave
I have nothing to show
Now that you've seen
There's nothing in me
Once gentle hands
Can I ever change this?
I don't know where to begin
I'm always falling
Back here again
And it all fades away
It all comes down
Yeah, it all fades away
And it all comes down
It hurts too much to stop
It hurts too much to keep going
With all the good I've seen
And all the pain that I've known
There were times
That I could see more clearly
Not being happy
It's just miserable
And it all fades away
It all comes down
Yeah, it all fades away
And it all comes down
It hurts too much to stop
It hurts too much to keep going
With all the good I've seen
And all the pain that I've known
It's inside you
It's inside
It lives inside
It grows inside you
I know this now
I'll do this to you
My pain is still alive
How can I face myself?
How ?
I never wanted this
Forever ever
The lyrics of Paved in Skin's song Murder are rooted in the complex emotions of betrayal, revenge, and pain. It is a song that delves deep into the turmoil of human relationships and showcases the cycle of hurt that often ensues when one person hurts another. The repeated lines "When you do this to me, I will do this to you" and "For everything you gave, I have nothing to show" highlight the feelings of anger and frustration that the singer feels towards their counterpart.
The concept of reciprocity comes into play, where the singer is motivated by a desire to hurt the person who has hurt them. The lines "Can I ever change this? I don't know where to begin" and "I'm always falling back here again" demonstrate the feeling of helplessness that the singer experiences in their quest for revenge. They are caught up in a never-ending cycle of pain, and the idea of breaking free seems daunting.
The chorus of the song, "And it all fades away, It all comes down, Yeah, it all fades away, And it all comes down" highlights the inevitability of the situation. No matter what happens, the hurt and pain will eventually subside, but the scars will remain. The singer acknowledges the futility of their actions, but their need for revenge overpowers their reasoning.
In the final lines of the song, the singer realizes that the pain they feel is not unique. It is a part of the human condition, and everyone deals with it in their own way. "It's inside you, It's inside, It lives inside, It grows inside you, I know this now, I'll do this to you, My pain is still alive" showcases the emotional complexity and universality of the human experience.
Line by Line Meaning
When you do this to me
When you hurt me, or betray me in some way
I will do this to you
I will do the same back to you, to get revenge
For everything you gave
For all you did for me, or all the love you showed me
I have nothing to show
I have nothing to offer in return, or to prove my gratitude towards you
Now that you've seen
Now that you know what I'm capable of
There's nothing in me
There's nothing good left in me, or nothing worth loving or trusting
Once gentle hands
Hands that once comforted and cared now cause harm
Get so unkind
Become harsh and hurtful
Can I ever change this?
Is it possible for me to improve and become a better person?
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to start, or what steps to take
I'm always falling
I keep making the same mistakes, or returning to the same bad habits
Back here again
In the same place of pain, or stuck in a cycle of negative behavior
And it all fades away
And all the good things, moments of happiness or positivity, disappear and are forgotten
It all comes down
Everything falls apart, or everything leads to this moment of defeat and hopelessness
It hurts too much to stop
Stopping or changing feels unbearable, or like giving up something important
It hurts too much to keep going
Continuing with the current pattern or situation feels unbearable, or like enduring endless pain
With all the good I've seen
Despite having experienced some great things in life
And all the pain that I've known
And having gone through some terrible experiences, or endured pain and suffering
There were times
There were moments when things were better
That I could see more clearly
When I had more perspective on my situation, and could make better decisions
Not being happy
Feeling unfulfilled, sad or ungrateful, despite having good things in life
It's just miserable
The feeling of unhappiness or dissatisfaction is overwhelming, or all-consuming
It's inside you
The feeling of pain or anger is within oneself, and not necessarily caused by external factors
It's inside
The source of negative emotions is internal, or emotional in nature
It lives inside
The negative emotions or experiences, such as pain or anger, persist over time
It grows inside you
The negative emotions or experiences can become stronger and more intense over time
I know this now
I have come to understand this truth, or learned this lesson through personal experience
I'll do this to you
I will cause you pain, or hurt you in some way
My pain is still alive
I am still experiencing pain or emotional distress, and it is affecting my behavior and decision-making
How can I face myself?
How can I come to terms with who I am, or what I have done?
How ?
How can I find the answer, or make the change?
I never wanted this
I never intended to cause pain, or be in this negative situation
Forever ever
This feeling, or this cycle of pain and negative behavior, seems like it will last indefinitely, or have a long-lasting impact
Contributed by Bentley B. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Craig Johnson
Trust Obey Vs. Paved in Skin covering Ministry
Shadowusako
John Bergin i am reaching out to you.