I Am Not
Pendulum Lyrics


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Can you stay up for the weekend
And blame God for looking too old
Can you find all that you stand for
Has been replaced with mountains of gold
You cannot dream yourself to notice
To feel pain and swallow fear
But can you stay up for the weekend
For next year

God I can't do this any more
Though I'll be laid down on the floor
As many feet walk through the door
I'm not alone

If I see a light flashing
Could this mean I'm coming home
If I see a man waving
Does that mean I'm not alone

If I see a light flashing
Could that mean I'm coming home
If I see a man waving
Does that mean I'm not alone

If I see a light flashing
Could this mean I'm coming home
If I see a man waving
Could this mean I'm not alone

If I see a light flashing
Could this mean I'm coming home




If I see a man waving
Could that mean I'm not alone

Overall Meaning

The song "I Am Not" by Pendulum is a powerful reflection on the struggles of modern society and the search for meaning and belonging in a world that seems to prioritize material success over personal fulfillment. The opening lines of the song invite the listener to ponder whether they can set aside the distractions of daily life and truly connect with their deeper values and emotions. The reference to blaming God for looking too old is a critique of the tendency to use religion or spirituality as a way of deflecting responsibility for our choices and actions.


The next lines challenge us to examine whether what we stand for has been replaced with mountains of gold, suggesting that our pursuit of wealth and material goods may have come at the expense of the things that truly matter in life. The repetition of the question "Can you stay up for the weekend" is a call to action, challenging us to push beyond our comfort zones and commit to living a life that is true to our values and passions.


The chorus of the song shifts the focus inward, as the singer expresses his own feelings of desperation and isolation. The repeated line "God I can't do this any more" is a raw expression of pain and exhaustion, while the subsequent lines about being laid down on the floor and having countless feet walk through the door suggest a sense of vulnerability and helplessness. The references to seeing a light flashing and a man waving convey a sense of hope, as if the singer is searching for a sign that he is not truly alone in his struggles.


Overall, "I Am Not" is a deeply poignant and emotionally charged song that speaks to the universal human experience of grappling with our fears, doubts, and desires. It challenges us to confront the ways in which we may be complicit in our own misery, while also acknowledging the power of community and connection to help us find our way back to a place of hope and meaning.


Line by Line Meaning

Can you stay up for the weekend
Are you strong enough to take control of your life and enjoy yourself on the weekends?


And blame God for looking too old
Do you sometimes use external factors as an excuse for not being able to enjoy your life to the fullest?


Can you find all that you stand for
Can you identify your values and beliefs and keep them intact despite challenges?


Has been replaced with mountains of gold
Or have you traded your principles for material possessions and financial gain?


You cannot dream yourself to notice
Simply dreaming about a better life is not enough to overcome your struggles and fears.


To feel pain and swallow fear
You have to confront your pain and fear to grow as a person.


But can you stay up for the weekend
Are you willing to take a break from the cycle of stress and worry to enjoy yourself on the weekends?


For next year
And will you continue striving to improve your life in the future?


God I can't do this any more
I am feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope any longer.


Though I'll be laid down on the floor
I may feel defeated and exhausted.


As many feet walk through the door
But I am not truly alone in my struggles - others are going through similar experiences.


I'm not alone
I have support from others who understand and care about me.


If I see a light flashing
Is there hope for a brighter future?


Could this mean I'm coming home
Am I heading towards a better place or state of mind?


If I see a man waving
Is there someone reaching out to help me?


Does that mean I'm not alone
Am I able to connect with others to lessen my feelings of isolation?


If I see a light flashing
Is there hope for a better tomorrow?


Could that mean I'm not alone
Am I able to find support and hope even when I feel lost and alone?




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Comments from YouTube:

boinghd

you know what... the sound effect at the begining of this song is sort of like Rotar on the tri repetae++ album by autechre... either way, i love this song..

murphychips

This is just the best song.

L Tischmann

i miss the high-pitched chirp at the begining... gotta buy this in qood quality

Chief0Martini

"The following is pure fiction"

fallenangel006

@tetrageddon1000 Yes, I have it as an mp3

Adam Haase

Is this the Pendulum being Insecurity and Coma?

Crystal 💎

Yes

Adam Haase

@Crystal 💎.
Thank you.

Bladamone Sauce

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