Conscience
Pentimento Lyrics

I'm making excuses to justify my conclusions
I'm rationalizing my beliefs to make them seem valid

and bypass convictions that I have.
and ignoring the truths that I know deep down

I'm not ashamed to admit my feelings
I'm comfortable expressing my emotions

Until it comes down to someone who counts.
Except when it's someone who really matters to me

I'm acting like I'm supposed to save the world,
I'm pretending like I have a grand purpose

but I just want to seem real to other people.
but really, I just want to be accepted for who I am

It's in the way that my brain tells my mouth to say something relevant
My mind instructs my mouth to say something meaningful

to get a laugh and feel approved.
to elicit laughter and gain approval from others

I still imagine how often old dead trees show the wind
I ponder how frequently inactive things seek validation

just to prove they have the worth.
to demonstrate their value

Like how much we disregard ourselves
Such as the degree to which we neglect our true selves

just to treasure someone else.
in order to prioritize the happiness of others over our own

And I'm still speaking like it's possible to change.
I continue to discuss the possibility of transformation

But it's not possible to wait.
but waiting alone will not bring change

As the days and nights continue, you can see it taking shape.
Over time, the situation becomes increasingly evident

It's nothing into nothing, always running in place.
There is no progress, just stagnation

So I talk to all my friends about the quicksand that I'm in
I confide in my friends about the predicament I'm in

As if it'd change the way I live.
As if this alone will impact my lifestyle

(I can't stay stuck like this forever)
(I cannot remain stagnant indefinitely)

There's been so many autumns since then
So much time has passed since I've felt differently

And many "others" that have came and went.
Numerous people and situations have come and gone in my life

I'll never look at anything that we once had the same way again.
I will not view our past experiences in the same light

I can't stay stuck like this.
I cannot continue to be immobile

I'll never look at this the same way again.
I will not perceive this situation identically anymore

I can't stay stuck like this forever.
I cannot remain stagnant indefinitely