Anxiety
Perceptions Lyrics

Don’t tell me what it means
I don't want to hear other people's interpretation of what I'm going through

To be buried beneath the depths
To feel completely trapped and overwhelmed

That’s not me
I don't want to be defined by my anxiety

In my dreams, I’ve slept Underneath the sea
Even my subconscious thoughts are consumed by my anxiety

Just leave me be
I want to be alone to deal with my anxiety in my own way

It’s ignorant bliss You see
I used to think it was easier not to confront my anxiety, but I'm starting to realize how damaging that mindset is

Now don’t be concerned I was told to be independent
I don't want to burden others with my anxiety, but sometimes I feel like I have to deal with it alone

Here’s my heart, here’s my soul Take what you want, I don’t want it anymore
I'm so drained from dealing with my anxiety that I don't even care about protecting myself or my emotions anymore

Let’s not make a big deal out of this I’ll take my medicine And I’ll die with this
I'm resigned to the fact that my anxiety is just a part of me, and I'll probably never fully rid myself of it

I’m going out of my head again And when I’m falling down You never let me in
I feel like I can't trust anyone with my anxiety, because they won't understand or will judge me for it

I’m going beyond myself This is a cry for help
I'm desperate for someone to notice my struggles and offer me support, but I'm terrified of being vulnerable

And I’m lost in the shadows And every time I rise You fill my head with all your bullshit lies
My anxiety makes me doubt myself and even when I try to overcome it, others' negative words or actions make it harder

And I will not be defined By insecurities that run my mind
I'm determined to not let my anxiety hold me back or shape my identity

I took the bullet You were the gun I should’ve known better I should’ve run But now you should be afraid Because you know with you I’m done
I'm starting to realize that my anxiety isn't my fault, but rather something that's been inflicted upon me, and I'm ready to fight back

It’s anxiety It’s mocking me Get the fuck away from me Leave me be
I'm done trying to ignore or pretend my anxiety doesn't exist; it's a force in my life that I need to confront head on

This fear I’ll forever live with This fire It won't It won't burn out
I'm learning to accept that my anxiety will likely always be a part of my life, but I'm also determined to not let it consume me completely