The d… Read Full Bio ↴Peter and Kerry is British duo Peter Lyons and Kerry Leatham.
The duo began as an impulsive side-project. The two solo artists, who had become close friends following a years' worth of label-related activities, decided to make use of some spare time one weekend. Having never fully-collaborated, the duo bravely embarked upon an uninterrupted writing and recording session which took place over several days at Lyons' family home in Southampton.
They returned to London with a finished record. Their first release is entitled 'Clothes, Friends, Photos EP'.
I Don't Know
Peter and Kerry Lyrics
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And ever since I was a little kid all I did was hate myself
And they'd tell me that God loves me
Loves me at my worst
And I couldn't help but wonder
Why he'd let us hurt
I've heard so many answers
But none have changed the pain
But I can't stand things that are fake
And I don't think anything I do is good enough
And that little boy still resides in me and he thinks that he's useless
People say that they'll pray for me
Cause they don't know what else to say
I've said the exact same things
But I'm so lonely
And it's a fight every day
I just want to be known
But I think if anyone knew me
They'd hate what they saw
They'd think I was as worthless
As I think I am
And these might be lies in my head
But that doesn't make them any less powerful
I just want to be a good friend
To myself
And to everyone else
And I feel alone
And I feel unknown
And I feel like I have a long way to go
And I know I should hold on to hope
But I don't know anything at all
Yeah I don't know
I don't...
The lyrics of Peter and Kerry's song "I Don't Know" offer a poignant depiction of self-doubt, loneliness, and the struggle to find meaning in life. The singer expresses a deep sense of despair, revealing that "ever since [they] was a little kid all [they] did was hate [themselves]." References to God's love and the pain of suffering suggest a spiritual longing and a sense of confusion about the nature of human existence. The singer's yearning to be known and accepted by others is contrasted with a profound sense of inadequacy and worthlessness, which they seem to perceive as an inherent part of their personality.
Through their lyrics, Peter and Kerry explore the universal theme of the human condition and the search for identity and meaning. The song reflects the emotional journey of someone trying to come to terms with their own inadequacies and to find a sense of hope in a seemingly meaningless world. The lyrics encourage the listener to embrace vulnerability and to seek connection, even in the face of self-doubt and pain.
Line by Line Meaning
Somedays I wish I didn't wake up
There are some days where I feel so low that it would be better if I just didn't exist.
And ever since I was a little kid all I did was hate myself
Since I was young, I have always had negative thoughts about myself and have struggled with self-hatred.
And they'd tell me that God loves me
Loves me at my worst
And I couldn't help but wonder
Why he'd let us hurt
People would tell me that God loves me no matter what, even at my lowest. But I would question why he would allow us to experience pain and suffering.
I've heard so many answers
But none have changed the pain
Despite hearing many different explanations for why things happen the way they do, none of them have relieved the pain I feel inside.
I'm sick of writing sad songs
But I can't stand things that are fake
Although I am tired of writing music that reflects my sadness, I refuse to create anything that isn't real and genuine.
And I don't think anything I do is good enough
And that little boy still resides in me and he thinks that he's useless
I often feel like nothing I do is ever good enough, and that feeling stems back to when I was a child and felt useless.
People say that they'll pray for me
Cause they don't know what else to say
I've said the exact same things
But I'm so lonely
When people don't know how to help or comfort me, they offer to pray for me. But even though I have offered the same to others, I still feel lonely.
And it's a fight every day
I just want to be known
But I think if anyone knew me
They'd hate what they saw
Every day is a struggle, and all I want is to be understood and accepted. However, I fear that if anyone really knew me, they would find me unlovable.
They'd think I was as worthless
As I think I am
And these might be lies in my head
But that doesn't make them any less powerful
I believe that I am worthless, and if others knew me they would feel the same. Even though these thoughts may not be true, they still hold great power in my mind.
I just want to be a good friend
To myself
And to everyone else
Above all, my goal is to be kind and compassionate towards myself and others.
And I feel alone
And I feel unknown
And I feel like I have a long way to go
And I know I should hold on to hope
I feel isolated and like no one truly understands me, and like I have a lot of personal growth to achieve. Despite this, I know that holding onto hope is important.
But I don't know anything at all
Yeah I don't know
I don't...
I am lost and unsure of so many things, and sometimes it seems like I know nothing at all.
Lyrics © DistroKid, HENRY HUGH JAMES PUBL.
Written by: Peter Greenidge
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SatanVenit
I would not say everything's changed
It's too lazy to exaggerate
Maybe it's transition
which hurts more
Than the cleanest of all breaks
And i did not think you'd hear me say
"I did not know it at
the time", etc
For every time that we both laughed
hysterically just like we always
did, I think i broke
down into tears
Or every time we danced
I broke into tears
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
Sometimes you'll give a little look
and sometimes we're like a little book
Of our own language I'm
still learning all the time
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
And I would not draw a line through your name
but I still close my eyes and hear you say
"Well yes it's love but that
is just not enough"
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
For every time that we both laughed
hysterically just like we always did
I think I broke
down into tears
Or every time we danced
I broke into tears
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(I would have asked you then and there to marry me)
(But something made me lose all my vocabulary)
Xancrim
This is the first song I've ever felt directly connected me to a partner. I don't listen to much music on my own, but she's the most musical person I know, and I love her for it. There's something very distinct that cannot be replicated about the feeling you get when someone you love sings to you, or plays a favorite song for you on their own instruments. I miss her dearly each and every day she's away, and listening to this song has filled me with a deep, vivid sense of nostalgia. I think I can recall the first time we listened to this in the car, it's one of her favorite songs, and I haven't listened to this nearly enough, considering how strongly my affections emanate with it... I love this song. I couldn't recommend it more.
imkristine
+Xancrim that was so beautifully said. thank you.
Lance Rumbolt
this is fantastic. I think I prefer the Binaural one but this is very very good. I hope they have every success
Bethany Stallings
ah, they definitely need more views. i love peter and kerry! <3
Olly Netherlands
The songs they use for adverts are actually quite good! Great song!
Rivers in the Sky
I’ve listened to this do many times over the course of a few years. I want to ask, though, what are your interpretations of this song? What is the message, what is it about? (I love both binaural and this)
Oh Ish Waddup
I think the acoustic binaural version is better imo
Dilmanpreet Singh
TheMdwills3521 if only it was fully binaural !
Toivo Kallio
@Dilmanpreet Singh , what do you mean "fully"? The transition to full binaural happens very early and fits the video perfectly.
zBrutalGaming
same