FEEL
Phora Lyrics

First I lost you, now I'm lost in the drugs
After losing you, I have resorted to using drugs as a way of coping.

Pop this, take that 'till I feel numb
I use different drugs until I don't feel anything anymore.

All I ever wanted was to be yours
My desire was to be entirely devoted and committed to you.

All I ever wanted was to feel love
My deepest desire was to experience real love with you.

But I'm six pills in and I feel fine
I have already taken six pills, yet I still feel okay.

Can't stop thinking 'bout when you were still mine
The thought of when we were still together is constantly on my mind.

I just don't know what to do now
I feel lost and uncertain about the next step to take.

Guess I'll take another one just to kill time
I will take another pill because I don't know what else to do with my time.

Can't feel my face and I can't move
I have taken so many drugs that I have lost feeling in my face and can't move properly.

But they say you can't love what you can't lose
It is often said that one cannot truly love what they have not experienced the pain of losing.

So. I'm sitting here trapped in my own thoughts
I am lost in my own ruminative thoughts.

Now I can't feel all 'cause of you
Due to your absence, I am incapable of feeling anything at all.

You ever so lost that you feel alone?
Have you ever felt so lost that you feel completely isolated and alone?

You ever scared to end up on your own?
Have you ever feared being alone for the rest of your life?

You ever get hurt till you can't feel
Have you ever been so hurt that you no longer feel anything?

I ain't never had a place I could call home
I have never experienced a sense of belonging.

I ain't never had nobody I could run to
I have never had someone that I could confide in or run to for comfort.

I ain't never had a home I could come to
I have never had a place that I could consider my safe haven.

I ain't ever have nobody really love me
I have never truly experienced love from anyone.

And that's probably why I don't know how to love you
My lack of experience with love may be the reason for my inability to love you properly.

But it's really hard to think about you
It is extremely difficult to get you out of my mind.

Can't breathe, can't eat, can't sleep without you
My dependency on you has reached a level where I am incapable of taking care of my basic needs without you.

And they all say I lost myself tryna find you
Others have pointed out that I have lost myself in the process of trying to find you.

But I'm not me without you
Without you, I feel like I have lost a part of myself.

I don't want to go through it no more
I don't want to experience the pain of losing you again.

I just took all these pills
I have resorted to taking more pills to deal with my emotional pain.

Fuck love, fuck life I can't do it no more
My struggles have led me to feel hopeless and give up on love and life altogether.

Think I'm fading out
I feel like I'm losing consciousness.

Please don't let go 'cause I'm fading out
I am pleading with someone not to let me go because I feel like I might lose consciousness completely.

Doing everything I can to feel something
I am actively trying to find anything that can make me feel something.

'Cause everything I do feels like nothing
Everything I do feels empty and meaningless without you.

Don't know what to think
I am unsure of how to process my emotions.

Don't know how to move
I am unsure of how to proceed or take action.

'Cause it don't really make sense without you
Without you, everything seems pointless and doesn't make sense.

I don't really make sense without you
Without you, I feel like I am incomplete and don't make sense.