So Many Ways
Playton feat. Julia Blumental Lyrics


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Are you going to fight me
That silence within me
I don't feel safe here
(I don't feel safe)

Still afraid of tomorrow
Searching for so much within my hand
Go alone I'll follow
(You go alone)

Can't stay where I am
Can't make any step
I'm thinking too much it's driving me mad

Do I despise me
Am I too proud of myself
Been looking for my own face
So many ways

So many ways I've walked but they all lead me to the same place
So many rounds I've lost I know I still depend on your grace
Won't you help me to kill my pride
I will try standing still this time

Are you going to fight me
This time I'm ready
I'm waiting for you here
(Waiting for you)

So tired of lying to myself
Now I can tell you it was so hard
To face it all without you
(To be alone)

Still counting mistakes I can't overcome
This circle of thoughts I'm under the charm

Do you despise me or can you be proud of me
Please look into my own face

So many ways I've walked but they all lead me to the same place
So many rounds I've lost I know I still depend on your grace




Won't you help me to kill my pride
I will try standing still this time

Overall Meaning

The song "So Many Ways" by Playton feat. Julia Blumental explores the struggle of self-reflection and the constant search for one's identity. The lyrics express the internal conflicts of the singer who feels trapped in their own thoughts and experiences fear and uncertainty about the future. The first stanza reflects the singer's insecurity and fear of being left alone to deal with their problems. They question if anyone is willing to help them through their struggles or if they are on their own.


In the second stanza, the singer admits to feeling lost and dependent on someone else's guidance. The repetition of "So many ways" suggests that despite trying different paths, there is still a feeling of stagnancy and a lack of progress. They express a desire to be rid of their pride and ego and seek help from someone they trust. The final stanza reveals the singer's readiness to confront their problems and ask for help. They are tired of lying to themselves and know that they need assistance to overcome their inner turmoil.


The song's chorus has a hopeful tone, indicating that there is a chance for healing and growth. Despite the struggles and setbacks, the singer is willing to stand still and confront their issues head-on. Overall, "So Many Ways" is a powerful reminder of the importance of vulnerability and seeking help when needed.


Line by Line Meaning

Are you going to fight me
Are you going to resist or challenge me


That silence within me
The lack of communication or expression inside of me


I don't feel safe here
I do not feel secure or protected in this environment


(I don't feel safe)
(I do not feel safe)


Still afraid of tomorrow
I am still scared or worried about the future


Searching for so much within my hand
Looking for many things within my reach or control


Go alone I'll follow
You can go by yourself and I will come after


(You go alone)
(You can go alone)


Can't stay where I am
I cannot remain in my current position


Can't make any step
I cannot make any progress or move forward


I'm thinking too much it's driving me mad
I am overthinking and it is causing me to feel insane


Do I despise me
Do I hate or strongly dislike myself


Am I too proud of myself
Do I have an excessive or unreasonable amount of self-esteem


Been looking for my own face
I have been trying to find or understand my true identity


So many ways
I have taken many different paths


I've walked but they all lead me to the same place
Regardless of the paths I have taken, I still end up in the same destination


So many rounds I've lost I know I still depend on your grace
Despite my mistakes and losses, I still rely on your mercy or kindness towards me


Won't you help me to kill my pride
Can you assist me in overcoming my excessive self-esteem or arrogance


I will try standing still this time
I will attempt to remain motionless or stable in a situation


This time I'm ready
I am prepared or willing to face a challenge or obstacle now


I'm waiting for you here
I am anticipating or expecting you to join me in this location


(Waiting for you)
(I am waiting for you)


So tired of lying to myself
I am fatigued or exhausted from deceiving or misleading myself


Now I can tell you it was so hard
Currently, I can reveal to you that it was very difficult


To face it all without you
To confront everything on my own without your assistance or presence


(To be alone)
(To be by myself)


Still counting mistakes I can't overcome
I am still keeping track of errors or faults that I cannot fix or conquer


This circle of thoughts I'm under the charm
I am under the spell or influence of this cycle of thinking


Do you despise me or can you be proud of me
Do you have a strong dislike towards me or are you capable of feeling proud of me


Please look into my own face
Please look deeply into my identity or essence


Won't you help me to kill my pride
Can you assist me in overcoming my excessive self-esteem or arrogance


I will try standing still this time
I will attempt to remain motionless or stable in a situation




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Comments from YouTube:

@Sarah-tj1tq

I adore this song.

@cuddlylawyer

haunting piano line. love it. bravo.

@bsky8444

love this sound.. can't get enough

@Dragon.7722

Haha, my name is Julian Blumenthal :D

@MrTazmanas

Without H

@IvanAzoyan

hello! Where is original version? Where is Andrey Platonov? Привет, где можно найти оригинальную версию? На promodj уже нет. Куда исчез Андрей Платонов?
UPD: Ok. I found original mix, but where is Playton? (Andrey Platonov)?

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