when the hospital was my home
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Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear
I sense the breeze on my skin, and even hear it in my ear, though it feels like you're whispering in my direction, though not physically here

Life is slow, sleeping twelve hours a day, ay
I'm living at a considerably slower pace since my procedure, sometimes sleeping half of the day away

Since I had my surgery, it's never been the same
My life has been altered since my operation and things never went back to what they once were

I'm sick and it sucks and my friends barely visit
I'm unwell and it's pretty difficult, and also a bummer that my buddies don't come around much anymore

Every week that goes by, end up feeling more distant
As time passes, my friends and I feel like we're becoming more distant from each other

Cried so many times trying to chip away my fear
With tears in my eyes, I've tried to get rid of my terrified feelings

Praying when I'm sad, thinking of our younger years
Whenever I'm down, I find solace in praying and reminiscing about our happy childhood times

First night that you kissed me, cuddle watching Disney
I remember the evening you first kissed me when we snuggled up and watched a Disney movie together

Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me
Presently, I yearn for a message from you at night that indicates you miss me

Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side
Whenever you're near me, every moment feels like a gift and truly valuable

We didn't see this coming, it's okay to say goodbye
We didn't anticipate this situation, and it's alright if we have to bid adieu

But I hate saying goodbyes
Although it's okay to say goodbye, personally, I don't enjoy it at all

Would you stay here longer?
I'm asking if you could remain with me for a longer time

Sorry, I'm not stronger
I apologize profusely, but honestly, I'm not strong enough to deal with this on my own

Speak to me with honesty, it's harder than we thought it'd be
Be truthful with me, speaking candidly has proven to be more difficult than we imagined

Tell it to me straight, I don't want no probably's
Inform me straightforwardly, I don't want any uncertainty or maybes

Tell me when you're tired, 'cause I'm getting tired too
Please tell me when you're feeling fatigued because I'm also starting to feel exhausted as well

The rain is feeling heavy and the sky isn't so blue
The rain feels gloomy and the sky looks dull and colorless

Pills for my breakfast, promising they'll heal me
I take pills as my first meal of the day, hoping that they'll hasten my healing process

Hanging out with doctors and staring at the ceiling
I spend most of my time with doctors and spend a lot of it lying in bed and staring up at the ceiling

My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me
Mondays are my best days because that's when you visit me

Wish you would stay longer, but I know it's not easy (yeah)
I wish you could stick around for a longer time, but I realize it's not an easy task to accomplish

I was excited for that concert
I was thrilled and looking forward to that live music performance

Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse?
Tell me everything that happened, and did the performers sign your newly bought Converse shoes?

I don't wanna let go when we hug
I don't want to release you from the embrace when we hug

One thing worse than dying is losing who you love
Nothing hurts more than losing the one you love, even more than death

Yeah, noticed all the pain you had to deal with
I've observed all the anguish you've had to endure

Was sick of all the doctors lying, saying that you'd heal quick
I was tired of doctors misleading you into thinking that you'd heal soon

It's been a couple days since you left us in that Hearse
It's only been a few days since you departed in a hearse

Your girl just called me, said she's pregnant and that would've been my first
Your significant other contacted me, informing that she's pregnant and that it could have been your first child together

So shocked when she told me, why didn't she tell you?
I was surprised when she disclosed it to me instead of informing you directly

She thought you'd leave the world to get your promises and fell through
She thought you'd work tirelessly to achieve your promises, but unfortunately, it didn't happen

You always talked about how you were ready for a son
You always mentioned how prepared you were to have a son

Now you'll be watching over him free of pain
You'll watch over your child from above, without any pain or ailments

Hope that one day he'll look up and feel your love
I hope someday your newborn child will look up at the sky and sense your love

When I get to Heaven, I'ma wait for you
When I reach Heaven, I'll be waiting for you

Sorry for the things that I put you through
I apologize for the things I've put you through when we were together

You had to watch me flat line
You witnessed my heartbeat becoming flat, a possible cardiac arrest

Wishing that we had time
I'm wishing we had more time together before the end came