Well known for its deep-rooted success in the music industry, Strange Music/M.S.C. Music have hand-picked yet another weapon of mass consumption; "PROJECT: DEADMAN". M.S.C. Music CEO, Mark Cerami, (notorious co-founder of Priority Records), has played a role in the careers of artists such as, Dr Dre. Run DMC, ICE-CUBE, N.W.A., EAZY-E, MASTER P, and many more. M.S.C. has teamed with Strange Music (TECHN9NE, and motion picture "BEEF" soundtrack), to unleash the Midwest's worst kept secret' the debut release "Self Inflicted", from PROJECT: DEADMAN which hit stores nationally on July 13th 2004.
Consisting of members Mike E. Clark and Prozak, Project: Deadman is a super-group formed in 2003 from the Detroit area. Mike E. Clark's legendary production skills have garnered him multiple gold and platinum success, producing artists like KID-ROCK, GEORGE CLINTON, PRIMAL SCREAM, and INSANE CLOWN POSSE. Clark also heads Detroit-based indie label B4 Records, and Edge One Studios. Rapper PROZAK's acidic tongue has gotten him labeled the "Stephen King of Rap" by Murder Dog magazine, hes been in the Midwest underground rap scene for years recording, marketing, and performing with his former group BEDLAM.
"Self Inflicted" contains 17 insanity-laden tracks drifting from industrial political screams, to slamming bass filled rhymes, along with ghostly morbid melody's, this rock/rap duo are sure to catch a wide variety of followers.
The album features special guest appearances by the Kansas City King TECH N9NE, Flint, Michigan's BREED, and THE DAYTON FAMILY, as well as Detroit's own KING GORDY.
Source: strangemusicinc.com
Poison
Project Deadman Lyrics
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Chances are it wont come back to you. And if it does, do yourself a favor and
let it go yourself
Poison that's what you are to me
Yea I said poison
This prison is a blessing I don't wanna be free
Why sould I have to pay
(Prozak)
I know it's f**ked up how I treat ya tellin your mom I used to beat ya
Mistreat ya and how I used to leave ya
Alone home by the phone crying in pain
Stuttering and flinching every time you have to speak my name
Pamphlets about domestic violence
And how you lived this life of pain and misery and anguish and silence
It seems I can't explain my actions and in my absence
You have to see your family's horrified reactions
'cause uh I know they'd lock me up if they could
Makin excuses for me like a trooper girl just like you should
Shattered dreams and expectations
Starin out the window with teary eyes a broken will and lacerations
Poison that's what you are to me
Yea I said poison
This prison is a blessing I don't wanna be free
Why sould I have to pay
'cause you don't like the way I am today
(Prozak)
When we first got together you said that you respected me
Known about my f**ked up childhood but you still accepted me
We took it to that level but sometimes I swear it's like I'm obsessed with the
devil
And these differences that cannot be settled
Everytime we f**k it's out of spite and hatred
Lookin at me like you wish you could kill me that bond is sacred
See I was f**ked from the get go raised like a pit bull
Mental abuse pain and anguish things I can't let go
All I can do in this life is bring you down
Things were much better for you until the day I came around
F**k it I can't take this pain no more
Pistol in my mouth dead body on the floor
The lyrics of Project Deadman's song Poison deal with the theme of toxic relationships and domestic violence. The singer expresses regret for his past actions towards his partner, acknowledging the abuse he inflicted and the pain he caused. The chorus sings “Poison that's what you are to me, yeah I said poison. This prison is a blessing I don't wanna be free. Why should I have to pay 'cause you don't like the way I am today?” The line “If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it’s yours. Chances are it won't come back to you. And if it does, do yourself a favor and let it go yourself” is a warning to those who may experience abusive relationships. It is also a commentary on how often people remain trapped in poisonous relationships, hoping that things will change, and they will be happy once again.
The rapper Prozak's verse delves deeper into the root of the problems in their relationship. He acknowledges the domestic violence, mental abuse, and anguish that his partner had to endure. He also recognizes how his partner's family must have felt about him and how troubling his actions were. The line, “See I was f**ked from the get-go raised like a pit bull. Mental abuse, pain, and anguish things I can't let go” speak to the cycle of abuse that exists in some families and how challenging it can be to break the cycle. The phrase “This prison is a blessing I don't wanna be free” speaks to the singer's desire to punish himself for his past behavior and his belief that he doesn't deserve to be free or happy. The closing line of the song, “Pistol in my mouth, dead body on the floor,” is a heartbreaking indication of the singer's desperation to escape from his guilt and pain.
Line by Line Meaning
I know if you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours.
Don't hold onto things too tightly. If someone or something you love leaves and returns, it was meant to be. But don't count on it returning.
Poison that's what you are to me
Your presence in my life is toxic and harmful.
This prison is a blessing I don't wanna be free
Being away from you is better than being with you. Even though I am physically confined, mentally I feel freer.
Why sould I have to pay
'cause you don't like the way I am today
I refuse to change myself to please you. I shouldn't have to pay for being who I am.
When we first got together you said that you respected me
Known about my f**ked up childhood but you still accepted me
You claimed to love and accept all parts of me, including my traumatic past. But it seems like that was a lie.
Everytime we f**k it's out of spite and hatred
Lookin at me like you wish you could kill me that bond is sacred
Our physical intimacy is fueled by anger and animosity. The connection we share is tarnished and far from sacred.
F**k it I can't take this pain no more
Pistol in my mouth dead body on the floor
I am so consumed by the unbearable pain of our relationship that I am contemplating suicide. I can't take it anymore.
Contributed by Adalyn H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.