Growing Pains
Promises Unsaid Lyrics

I've let you take me for granted
I allowed you to treat me poorly and take advantage of my kindness

Digging knives in my back
You have hurt me deeply, even though I trusted and cared for you

While the blindfold that you placed
You deceived me and didn't allow me to see the truth of who you really are

Upon my eyes stayed strapped
I couldn't see the hurtful things you were doing to me because I was blinded by love or loyalty

You put me in this rut
You caused me to feel stuck and unhappy with my life

Closed my casket shut
You made me feel dead inside and hopeless

And my ignorance to all of it
I didn't realize how bad things were because I was in denial or too afraid to confront the truth

Led me to self destruct
Your actions pushed me to harm myself physically, emotionally, or mentally

Why can't we all be safe
I wish everyone could be free from harm and fear of being hurt by others

From all of those just here to take?
It's sad that some people only want to use or exploit others for their own gain

While I've said my peace
I've spoken up and expressed my thoughts or feelings

It never gives me peace
However, it doesn't bring me peace, closure, or satisfaction

Because I relive every moment of those days
I keep replaying the painful memories and can't forget what you did to me

Why can't I cope with anything
I struggle to deal with stress, anxiety, or challenges in a healthy way

Without damaging myself?
I often resort to harmful or self-sabotaging behaviors that only make things worse

Denying almost all advice
I don't listen to others' suggestions or warnings because I feel like I know best

And don't think twice
I act impulsively or recklessly without considering the consequences

'Cause there's something in the water
There's a force or influence that is affecting me negatively and making me feel helpless

And I fear I'm sinking in
I'm scared that I'm losing control or drowning in my own problems

My previous self is haunting me within
I can't escape the memories or mistakes of my past and they keep haunting me

Well, you've painted all my vibrance with your grey
You've taken away my joy, color, or spark and made me feel dull, lifeless, or sad

Then you dropped me like a rose left to decay
You abandoned me when I needed you the most, leaving me to wither and die inside

I back down
I become passive, submissive, or scared when faced with a challenge or conflict

Out of fear and pure intimidation
I feel afraid and powerless when dealing with people who are dominant or aggressive

I give in
I surrender or compromise my beliefs, needs, or values to avoid a confrontation or keep someone happy

When you say you need your second chances
I trust you and believe that you'll change or treat me better if you're given another chance

I can't stand and fight
I don't have the strength, courage, or motivation to resist or rebel against you

Even though I've tried
I've attempted to change or stand up for myself, but it hasn't worked out

But my heart won't beat in silence
I can't ignore my feelings or numb myself to the pain, even if it's easier or safer to do so

A day will come when I'll be numb to your
I might lose my sensitivity or emotional connection to you or the world around me

Violence
Your abusive, manipulative, or hurtful actions towards me

Moments tick tock by the hour
Time keeps passing, but I feel stuck or trapped in the same situation

Potential is fading from this flower
I'm losing my potential, talent, or creativity because of my struggles and hardships

Foreseen futures start to tumble
I'm uncertain about my future or can't envision a positive outcome anymore

Why must I remain so humble?
I wonder why I have to endure so much pain, oppression, or humiliation and can't stand up for myself

The worst part of all of this
The most heartbreaking or frustrating aspect of my situation

Is the cold-hearted fact that
The sad, harsh, or unbearable truth that

You're so consumed in your own selfish desires
You only care about your own interests, goals, or pleasure, without regard for how it affects me

That confronting you would be nothing but
If I confronted you or spoke up for myself, it would be pointless, ineffective, or even dangerous

Meaningless
Without any value, impact, or purpose

And karma's not enough to clean this bed
Even if you face consequences or pay for your actions, it won't erase the damage or pain you've caused me

At the thought of you
When I think about you or remember what you did to me

I blame myself again
I feel responsible or guilty for what happened, even though it's not my fault

Always
I can't escape these thoughts, feelings, or memories, they're always present and haunting me