Forgive Me
Proof (D12) Feat. 50 Cent Lyrics
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Here I stand as a dysfunctional man
Quick-tempered, short-fused, and pissed at God
Demons pullin' at my soul 'til it's ripped apart
Secret's out momma that fire I started it
Fuck the fireman logic of the closet by the wire shit
What's positive about a father that bust nuts then wussed up
And a momma that don't show her son enough love
And force these chicken head bitches to get abortions
I'm married to game, my mistress is fame
My girl Paq the closest, she know I ain't gon' change
Go insane in a world evil as ours
I done shot at houses, people and cars
The deeper the scars, the worst is the history
God you ain't gotta forgive me, just don't forget me, you hear me?
Lord forgive me, for I've sinned
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I recall memories, filled, with sin
Over and over again
And again
And most importantly I'm tryin' to support my seeds
Can't seem to get away from them courtin' fees
Embroidery, on my hood across my heart disorderly
Breakin' in houses of people who ain't got more than me
Accordingly, I move in error
Gotta face the fact though I can't fool this mirror
Neglected my daughter and tryin' to blame on how I was brought up
Like I'm a product of this environment, why ain't I shot up?
Got up today like, "Why you let me breathe again?"
And with each breath I feel death is creepin' in
Thinkin' sinners are winners and I'ma finish last
My pen and pad record my life as each minute pass
Passin minutes, I shook sin and shook drugs
I did right by you but still you took Bugz
Then caught me in adultery, fought me
For not knowin' through the dark streets you walked me, talked to me
Lord forgive me, for I've sinned
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I recall memories, filled, with sin
Over and over again
And again
It's the risk that's a rush so rush my wrists in the cuffs
It's like a fight for yo' attention and love
Speakin' of Bugz, give me a hint from above
If he not you know I wanna be sent when I'm done
Kid outta wedlock so my lady's frontin'
I love 'Em, cause he gave me somethin'
A positive anything is better than a negative nothin'
I was on the edge of death ready to jump in
It's hard when you can't find love anywhere
And just because the reverend listen, don't mean he care
Pops on crack with a sufferin' past
I dream in black and white, the world color me bad
Other than sad, painful and stress
Life is good with the webs that, tangle with death
Control the border, control the school
I have sinned amongst men and my soul is yours, yours
Lord forgive me, for I've sinned
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I recall memories, filled, with sin
Over and over again
And again
Lord forgive me, for I've sinned
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I recall memories, filled, with sin
Over and over again
And again
In the song "Forgive Me," Proof (D12) and 50 Cent open up about their troubled pasts and the sins they have committed. Proof begins by describing his dysfunctional upbringing and how it has left him quick-tempered and angry at God. He reveals that he started a fire and resents the fireman logic of covering up the incident. He also speaks about his absent father and unloving mother, which has led him to run from his first son and force women to get abortions. He claims that he is married to the game and that his mistress is fame, but despite his chaotic life, his friend Paq knows him well and understands him. He admits to having shot at people and cars, and the deeper his scars, the worse his history is. In the end, he begs God not to forget him.
50 Cent follows with his own confessions, saying that he sinned over and over again to stay on top. He remembers past sins, including breaking into houses of people who have less than him and being neglectful of his daughter. He speaks about the risk of being a rapper, the pressure to succeed, and the high stakes of competition. He talks about his friend Bugz, who was killed, and how he wants to be with him once his own life is over. He also speaks about the reverend who listened without caring and his father who suffered from drug addiction. He dreams in black and white because the world colors him bad, and he has anxiety about death. He concludes by saying that he has sinned amongst men, and his soul is for God to control.
Overall, "Forgive Me" is a raw and emotional song that explores the personal demons of Proof and 50 Cent. It showcases their pain, their regrets, and their desire for forgiveness from a higher power.
Line by Line Meaning
Barely raised by my dysfunctional fam
My family was not functional in raising me up
Here I stand as a dysfunctional man
I am now a man with issues and problems due to my upbringing
Quick-tempered, short-fused, and pissed at God
I have anger issues and I am angry at God for how my life has turned out
Demons pullin' at my soul 'til it's ripped apart
I am constantly fighting inner demons that are tearing me apart
Secret's out momma that fire I started it
I confess that I am the one who started the fire that my mother blamed on someone else
Fuck the fireman logic of the closet by the wire shit
I don't believe in the logic of the firefighters who investigate fires by following wires in closets
What's positive about a father that bust nuts then wussed up
There's nothing positive about a father who impregnates someone and then abandons them
And a momma that don't show her son enough love
My mother didn't show enough love to me while I was growing up
Shit, that's why I run from my first son
I am avoiding my responsibility as a father to my first son
And force these chicken head bitches to get abortions
I am pressuring women to get abortions because I don't want to take responsibility for my actions
I'm married to game, my mistress is fame
I am devoted to the game (hip hop culture) and I am also seeking fame
My girl Paq the closest, she know I ain't gon' change
My girlfriend Paq is the closest person to me and she knows that I am not going to change
Go insane in a world evil as ours
Living in a world with so much evil is driving me crazy
I done shot at houses, people and cars
I have shot at homes, people, and cars in the past
The deeper the scars, the worst is the history
The more scars I have, the worse my past is
God you ain't gotta forgive me, just don't forget me, you hear me?
I ask God not to forget me, even if He doesn't forgive me
Lord forgive me, for I've sinned
I ask God for forgiveness for my sins
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I have committed sins repeatedly to maintain my status
I recall memories, filled, with sin
My memories are filled with sinful actions
And most importantly I'm tryin' to support my seeds
My biggest priority is to support (financially) my children
Can't seem to get away from them courtin' fees
I am struggling to pay the fees related to court cases I am involved in
Embroidery, on my hood across my heart disorderly
There is embroidery on my hoodie that is not in order across my heart
Breakin' in houses of people who ain't got more than me
I have robbed homes of people who have less than me
Accordingly, I move in error
My actions are often wrong due to my mindset
Gotta face the fact though I can't fool this mirror
I need to confront the reality that I can't deceive myself anymore
Neglected my daughter and tryin' to blame on how I was brought up
I have neglected my daughter and I am trying to blame it on how I was raised
Like I'm a product of this environment, why ain't I shot up?
I wonder why, as a product of my environment, I haven't given up on life
Got up today like, "Why you let me breathe again?"
I wonder why God allowed me to live another day
And with each breath I feel death is creepin' in
I feel like death is constantly approaching with every breath I take
Thinkin' sinners are winners and I'ma finish last
I believe that those who sin are successful, and I am destined to fail
My pen and pad record my life as each minute pass
I write down my thoughts and experiences as they happen
Passin minutes, I shook sin and shook drugs
I am trying to leave my sinful and drug-filled past behind
I did right by you but still you took Bugz
I did what I believed to be right, but I still lost my friend Bugz
Then caught me in adultery, fought me
I was caught cheating on my girlfriend and we had a conflict
For not knowin' through the dark streets you walked me, talked to me
I am angry because God did not guide me through my dark times
It's the risk that's a rush so rush my wrists in the cuffs
I find excitement in taking risks, which is why I am willing to be handcuffed for it
It's like a fight for yo' attention and love
I feel like I am constantly fighting for attention and love
Speakin' of Bugz, give me a hint from above
I am hoping for a sign from God related to my friend Bugz
If he not you know I wanna be sent when I'm done
If he is not in heaven, then I hope to be sent there when I die
Kid outta wedlock so my lady's frontin'
I have a child born out of wedlock, and my girlfriend is upset about it
I love 'Em, cause he gave me somethin'
I love my child because he has given me something to live for
A positive anything is better than a negative nothin'
It is better to have something positive than nothing at all
I was on the edge of death ready to jump in
I was close to dying and was ready to accept it
It's hard when you can't find love anywhere
It's difficult when you are unable to find love in any aspect of your life
And just because the reverend listen, don't mean he care
Just because someone listens to you doesn't necessarily mean that they care about you
Pops on crack with a sufferin' past
My father was addicted to crack and had a difficult past
I dream in black and white, the world color me bad
I have negative thoughts and dreams, which makes me think that the world sees me as a bad person
Other than sad, painful and stress
Aside from feeling sad, I am also experiencing pain and stress
Life is good with the webs that, tangle with death
Life can still be good even when it involves dangerous situations
Control the border, control the school
If you control the border, you control the school
I have sinned amongst men and my soul is yours, yours
I have committed sins against humanity and my soul belongs to God
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Capitol CMG Publishing, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: CURTIS JAMES JACKSON, C. CONLLEY, DE SHAUN D. HOLTON, B. JOHNSON, LARRY LOUIS, D. MOORE
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@dellonosborne5336
Ppl still dont recognise proof for all the skills he presented in songs.
He did all that rappers braggin bout
Multi syllablez
Middle rhymes
Tongue twisters
Metaphors flow emotion and messages
He is way better than em jus compare the content
He always said something
This album is an all time classic to me
@MorganKing95
Probably one of the most emotional raps I've ever heard. Everybody may remember Proof as Eminem's best friend and a member of D-12, but he was really underrated as a solo artist
@91Definite
StrasbergProtégé Shit this aint more sadder than Kurt Kobain. That shit sent chills down my spine
@controversialmann5345
StrasbergProtégé this albums a classic
@felixreynolds7072
Guys i havent seen anything about difficult by eminem that shit makes me cry every time
@TheWeedyBird
91Definite fact
@jayspaghetti2717
chibbles 1999 cos people are talking about proof not em
@teahen
The man that taught Em and gave him to the tool to become the best... Imagine Proof had his chance to show who he was... He was the one of the teacher's of one of the best of all time just imagine where he would be now....
@angeljesus4050
Bobba Fett and Eminem is Bruce lee
@Patrick-xo4fq
I agree.. So underrated, amazing talent
@alphabanjaxedbanshee7034
You say that like em owed him something before he existed