When I Grow Up
Punk Goes Pop Vol. 2 Lyrics

I lit a fire to the bridges of the people that I love
I purposely destroyed the relationships with the people I care about

I through them in the river & they never floated up
I cut ties with them and they never forgave me or reconciled

It got me really thinking would I sink or would I breathe
This situation made me question if I will struggle or thrive

I got so much time for people who don't got no time for me
I prioritize people who don't prioritize me

And it got me really thinking where I'll go when I grow old
I contemplate what my future will be like when I am old

Will my dad still see his kids or will I have some of my own?
I wonder if my father will still have a relationship with me or if I will have children of my own

Will my life be where I want it to be with all my goals?
I speculate if I will achieve the life I desire and accomplish my goals

Will my wife be living happy at the place that we call home?
I question if my future wife will find happiness in the home we create

When I grow up, will I feel I done enough?
In the future, will I feel satisfied with my achievements?

When I grow up, will they remember who I was?
Will people remember me and the person I used to be as time passes?

When I grow up, will I become just old and grey?
Will I simply become old and lose my vitality as I age?

When I grow up, I'm gonna change
In the future, I intend to undergo personal growth and transformation

When I grow up, I'll go insane yeah
As I mature, I anticipate experiencing profound mental and emotional turmoil

When I get old, I'll play them back you'll think they're kinda boring
When I'm older, I'll reflect on my past mistakes, although they may seem uninteresting to others

I've made mistakes before but I will never say I'm sorry
I have made errors in the past but I refuse to apologize for them

I lost my momma she ain't with me but I know she's watching
My mother has passed away, but I believe she is watching over me

Everyday I wake up, everyday I hate love
Each day when I wake up, I find it difficult to trust and enjoy love

Asking why she broke my heart I know it didn't phase her
I question why she hurt me, even though it didn't affect her emotionally

Tell me how can we live happy all we chase is paper?
I wonder how we can find happiness when our main pursuit is wealth

Money don't bring happiness but maybe it will later
Although money doesn't guarantee happiness, perhaps it will in the future

Yeh I feel like, nobody understands
I often feel like nobody comprehends me

Yeh I feel like, was this suppose to be the plan?
I question if this is how my life was meant to unfold

I don't know right, time moves so slow
I'm unsure, but time feels like it's passing by slowly

I had a bad couple of months I almost let myself go
I went through a challenging period where I nearly gave up on myself

But everyday I feel the same, I gotta change switching my lane
Despite feeling stagnant, I acknowledge the need to make a change and switch directions

I gotta go don't need a plane, let me just walk I'll find a way
I don't need extravagant means to move forward, I just need to start taking steps

Let me just go find myself, I'm walking through hell
Allow me to embark on a journey of self-discovery, even if it means facing challenges

Passed the old me down there & he wished me well
I leave behind my former self and he hopes for my success

Will they save me? Or will I die alone
I wonder if someone will come to my rescue or if I will face death alone

Will they help me? Find my way home
Will someone assist me in finding my path back to a feeling of belonging

Cause it feels like I've lost sight the older I grow
As I grow older, it seems like I have lost clarity and direction

I've had a bad couple of months I'll still be here when I'm old
Even though I have experienced hardships recently, I will persist and endure until I am old