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Eternal Bliss
Q Strange Lyrics

This is for all the lost souls, there is hope

Happiness is all I want but I am caught by misery
And no one understands or even cares if I just live or die
There is only one way out and I am not afraid to take it
It's the only way I say is Su-i-cide {*repeat 3X*}

This kids mom died when he was just fifteen
Left with his house his pops was a dope fiend
Who didn't give a fuck about him

He even thinks that he'd be better off without him
He goes to school with no friends and he's mad for
He misses his mom even though she was a crack whore
Comes through the backdoor so dad wont see
Cuz after school at 3' he gets greeted with a beat
He has to go around with smelly clothes and no socks
While other kids rocked new Nike's and Reeboks
He's not happy with his miserable existence
Sometimes he has the urge to just say 'Good Riddance'
Grew up around drugs but never thought about trying it
Tried to not become a product of his environment
He tried even to talk to his pillow like a psychiatrist
Screaming in to it 'Why did she have to die'
Mom was in a program to get off the stuff
I guess she wasn't ready, or strong enough
But if she was alive it wouldn't be good either
Cuz dad used to beat her every day and mistreat her
He hates his father but it's all he has left
He doesn't want to live because he's afraid of death
But maybe he think that he'd be better off dead
He grabbed a paper and a pen, wrote a note and it said:

[Chorus x3]

He feels a little nervous because he doesn't know what left it
What be the best to end it – He's starting to cry now.
Time now – he wants to just think it through
Life stinks it's true but there's got to be a better way
A better day may come but it ain't likely
'It's a constant battle in this life, It fights me'
He thinks that he's a coward but in fact he's real brave
Never gave in to temptations that put his mother in the grave
He wants to be saved, but no one hears his cries for help
Except for god in heaven, still he wants to kill himself
He wasn't brought up to know about god and the bible
He own short life was spent nothing but survival
Suicidal thoughts evading his young mind
Sunshine is something he ain't seen in a long time
He can't take the loneliness and the sadness
Goes in the other room and gives his dad a kiss
Even though he's passed out from the drugs
He still only has - and in a way still loves him
He wants to join his mom in eternal bliss
Got in the bathtub and sliced his wrist
As he watched his blood pour out the veins and down the drain
He said goodbye to the pain

[Crying]

[Chorus x4]

There is hope, you can get help
There's somebody you can talk to
There is hope

[Chorus x2]

Contributed by Luke W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.

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Q Strange came up in the working class city of Providence RI. Life wasn't always easy for the self proclaimed "Steven King of Hip Hop". He was an only child in a single parent household and had to fend for himself most of his childhood. He always maintained a close relationship with his mother who was a drug addict for most of his young life. At the age of 9 he spent time in a pediatric mental hospital when teachers found he spent most of his time in class making disturbing drawings instead of classwork. Read Full BioQ Strange came up in the working class city of Providence RI. Life wasn't always easy for the self proclaimed "Steven King of Hip Hop". He was an only child in a single parent household and had to fend for himself most of his childhood. He always maintained a close relationship with his mother who was a drug addict for most of his young life. At the age of 9 he spent time in a pediatric mental hospital when teachers found he spent most of his time in class making disturbing drawings instead of classwork. Throughout childhood and into his teenage years the kid who would later be known as "Q Strange" was an outcast. Never getting ahead in his studies and rarely attending classes Q fell in love with the art of hip hop. Even at the age of 12 he was penning verses rather then school essays. Moving around and changing schools it was hard for him to keep friendships outside of his own family. He recorded his first demo at 14 and knew at that moment that this was what he wanted to do with his life. At the young age of 16 Q lost all he had in life and was forced to support himself when his mother passed away due to a drug overdose. Virtually homeless depending on the kindness of friends and family he bounced from place to place doing whatever he could to surivive. Q was heading down the wrong path getting arrested from charges ranging from shoplifting to felony assault before he was 18. It was at this time he hooked up with a local hip hop collective of MC's DJ's and Producers knowns as "3rd floor productions". His friendship with DJ JD would be one that would ultimately change his direction in life. Although the group was low on funds and had limited studio equipment JD acted as a mentor to Q (known as Mista Jinx at the time) and taught him the art of beatmaking and song structure. Recording with the group as well as solo projects he performed shows and ruled the battle circut until the crew dispanded around 1997. Taking a break from music and trying to struggle with the everyday stress of being broke and working hard he returned to the music scene this time with a whole new darker sound and persona. Q recorded Murder Kill in '97 and locally released a bootleg tape with a dark hip-hop sound and graphic horror subject matter that garnered a huge response from a diverse group of music fans. As word of mouth spread, some fans in the midwest dedicated a website to Q Strange introducing him to the world. In 1999 Q released another bootleg entitled "Decayed Thoughts" which was well recieved and earned him enough money to release his professional debut "Creation to ExeQtion" in 2000. The concept album which was an audio horror "movie" with each song connecting to the next telling a chilling sci-fi horror tale of a deranged serial killer developed a cult following and soon Q Strange was known all over the globe as the next big thing in the dark underworld of horrorcore. In 2003 after several deals gone bad with different record labels Q independently released his second album "Strangeland". This album brought the murderous style that his fans had come to know by now, but also balanced out with more "traditional" hip-hop songs and emotional tracks proving that there was more to Q Strange than just a gimmick. Both albums moved thousands of units with no distribution outside of mail order and consignment deals with various merchants, and was widely bootlegged all over the world. That in addition to extreme high energy live shows earned Q a huge fanbase, and got the attention of the music industry as different labels showed intrest in signing him. In late 2004 Q Strange inked a deal with Mad Insanity Records joining the ranks of underground legends such as Ganxsta NIP, Mastamind (NATAS), and Flatlinerz along with other highly respected up and comers such as Bay Area horrorcore artist and CEO Mars. Mad Insanity will re-release the first two albums with proper distribution making the discs easier for fans to find, and release a new highly anticipated album that will be sure to make waves in the music industry. Q Strange and Mad Insanity Records's vision is to make the world recognize the darkside of underground hip-hop known to its cult following as horrorcore.