Illusion
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Hi I'm just a regular guy
I am introducing myself as an ordinary person.

It's just an illusion I made from the outside
The image I project of being ordinary is not my true self.

Inside I got a sick mind
I have disturbing thoughts and feelings inside me.

When the mask goes on just prepare to die [x2]
When I put on a facade of normalcy, it's a warning sign that something is brewing inside of me.

Strange thoughts my mind begins to scatter
My mind is clouded with abnormal and unsettling ideas.

Recover from depression I don't know whats the matter
While I try to overcome depression, I am unsure what's causing it to happen.

Well I'm mad like a hatter and I'm clearly insane
I can be compared to an insane character, the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland, because of my abnormal behavior.

But my life is an illusion so I'm hiding the pain
I live a double life wherein I hide my inner turmoil and pain.

Its strange to be normal but I'm trickin em all
It's odd to appear normal, but I am pulling off the act successfully, tricking everyone.

Cuz what goes on in my mind is like off the wall
My thoughts and feelings are so irregular and crazy that they are compared to things hanging off the wall.

Lasting as I tick tick tick I be a lunatick I need help
I feel that I am going crazy and need psychiatric help.

And I wanna kill myself
I am suicidal and want to end my life.

But I wanna kill everyone else
My mind is so disturbed that I have thoughts of hurting others.

But I know I'm a nice guy you can't even tell
Despite my crazy thoughts, I can still put on a facade of being a nice and relatable person.

That I'm a psycho Michael find someone to rain on
I am a crazy person and Michael should find someone else to unleash his anger on.

Stalk her for months just to scare her
I follow a person for months just to scare and intimidate them.

Walk in your house I creep
I silently enter someone's house without permission.

Sit there all night just to watch you sleep
I spend the entire night watching someone sleep without their knowledge or consent.

And I'll sneak out the door just before you wake
I leave the place before the person wakes up, without getting caught.

The puppy tried to bark but I chewed up his face
I have even hurt innocent animals, as I am not in touch with normal emotions or behavior.

I tried to escape from the realm of insanities
I made an attempt to overcome my insanity.

Sick of people sayin theyre understandin me
I am fed up with people saying they understand me and my condition, which they can never truly do.

You can't understand cuz I dont't even know myself
I can't understand myself and my thought process, so it's impossible for anyone else to try.

I have a disease I need psychiatric help
I recognize my abnormal state of mind as a disease that requires psychiatric intervention.

But I'm in denile you see me happy and smilin
Despite knowing that I need help, I deny it and put on a happy facade.

But inside my mind already died
My mind is so tormented and disturbed that I have already given up on finding any semblance of peace.

Maybe I'm depressed from feelings ive repressed
I think depression comes from bottling up my true feelings and emotions, which eventually leads to a sense of loneliness and despair.

Never expressed but oh I'm obsessed with death I guess
I am fixated on the subject of death, even though I never express it in words or actions.

Something went wrong down the line
There is something fundamentally wrong with my thought processes and emotions.

I can't control the ill thoughts in my mind
My thought process has gone beyond my control, and now I have disturbing and unnatural thoughts.

I look like a nice guy wouldnt hurt a fly
My appearance gives off the impression of being a kind and gentle person.

But its just an illusion I created on the outside
My appearance is only a facade and does not reflect my true self.

Nobody can know, nobody'll know till the mask goes on they'll see
I have secrets that I can't reveal to anyone, and my true self only shows when I drop my mask of normalcy.

The voices in my head forever taunting me
I hear voices in my head, which keep on taunting and disturbing me.

Demonic laughter from hell haunting me
The laughter I hear in my head borders on demonic and comes from a dark place.

I tried to shut them up I bash my head against the wall
I attempt to silence the voices inside my head by hurting myself physically.

And I'll be laughing hard after I bruise and blood my skull
Even after injuring myself, I still laugh and find pleasure in the pain.

The voices the voices they make my brain numb
The voices I hear start to numb my brain and cloud my judgement.

Tellin me to do sick shit in voodoo tongues
The voices in my head compel me to do unspeakable things in a language that is unsettling.

You think youre my friend but I'll stilll fuck you up
Even though someone may be my friend, I may still hurt or harm them due to my disturbed thought process.

You thought I cared about you that was an illusion
The impression I gave that I cared about someone was a facade and did not reflect my true thoughts and feelings.

You don't understand its my mind that I'm losin
People around me cannot relate to or understand the torment that goes on in my mind.

The man that you thought you knew was a mirage
The person others think they know is just an illusion, as the real me is much more disturbed than they realize.

I'm clean cuttin body parts up in my garage
I have crossed a grave line and started cutting up body parts in my garage.

Im the cryo clone you never thought woudl run into you
I am someone that others would never expect to meet in their life.

But I'ma slash you hide you out put you in a tub of tub of vinegar
I can be capable of committing harmful acts on others, like hiding them and submerging them in vinegar.

You want me to kill ya cuz you don't like the torcha
Someone may want me to do them harm because they do not appreciate the person I am.

But I sorta like to see you in pain
My disturbed mind finds pleasure in other people's pain and torment.

Insane what I am but I always wasnt like this
I recognize that I am insane, but I did not start out this way.

Back in the day I wouldn't even write this
In the past, I would not even have thought of writing such abnormal thoughts, much less expressing them.

Used to make songs to party and have fun
I used to write and sing songs that were meant for entertainment and fun.

But now my ill joints make insane clowns run
Now, my disturbed songs and lyrics would even scare insane and crazy people.

The law was changed wheh I was on the brink of insanity
I was at the cusp of losing my mind when the laws around mental health changed.

So I saw a shrink he said hes gonna help me reach to my inner self
I went to a therapist who promised to help me understand my inner self and overcome my issues.

Instead I reach for his throat and strangle to death
Instead of being helped, I became violent and strangled the therapist to death.

I left his office with blood on my hands
After killing the therapist, I got his blood on my hands.

Peoiple in the waiting room all screamed and ran
Witnesses saw me leave the therapist's office after killing him, and they started screaming and running away.

But I didn't sweat it I tried to forget it
I had no remorse for what I did and tried to forget about the incident, remaining closed off to the world.

And nobody knows that I'm a crazy from it
I was successful in keeping my violent tendencies a secret from people around me.

Its hectic to create the illusion of a sane man
It takes a lot of effort and energy to put on the facade of a normal and sane person.

Cuz I'm insane man
In truth, I am a disturbed and insane person.

Prepare to die
As I tend to keep my inner thoughts and true self hidden, others should be worried and cautious around me when I drop my mask and reveal my true self.

Haha you thought you knew me
Others may believe they know me, but the truth is, they can never understand the depths of my insanity.

It's all an illusion
My entire existence feels like a facade and an illusion I have created of myself.