In 1992, at the age of 18, Thorburn signed with Jive Records, then in the mid-1990s signed with Priority Records/EMI. His contract was later absorbed by Capitol Records but he began recording independently in the early 2000s. He has worked with MC's such as The Notorious B.I.G., Mobb Deep, Chuck D of Public Enemy, Jedi Mind Tricks, Tech N9ne, Hopsin, Talib Kweli, Masta Ace, Kool G Rap, Wu-Tang Clan, Rakim, Killah Priest, and producers Trackmasters, Erick Sermon, DJ Quik, Buckwild, Alchemist, and Ayatollah. He was featured on all three of Rawkus’s Soundbombing albums, as well as the platinum-selling WWF Aggression album, performing the theme song for Chris Jericho. In Ego Trip Vol. 1, Issue 3, the Notorious B.I.G. was quoted as saying, "I thought I was the illest," when referring to Thorburn He is closely associated to the Wu-Tang Clan and its various associates.
In 2004 he released the album Die, Rugged Man, Die on Brooklyn based label Nature Sounds. Thorburn has cameos in several music videos including Havoc from Mobb Deep's I'm the Boss, Sadat X's Throw the Ball and Old Man featuring Wu-Tang Clan's RZA, Masta Killa and Ol' Dirty Bastard in one of ODB's final video appearances.
The October 2006 issue of The Source featured Thorburn's verse on Uncommon Valor: A Vietnam Story as its "Hip-Hop Quotable" of the month and HipHopDX named it as the "Verse of the Year" AllHipHop.com states that "This record will be remembered most for R.A.'s robotic flow recounting his own father's story of war while absolutely murdering the beat." Rolling Stone Magazine recently compared Thorburn's rap flow to that of a blue-eyed Biggie Smalls. When reviewing his song "On the Block", Vibe Magazine said, "I love this song. It give me goosebumps. It's very inventive."
In addition to his hip hop career, Thorburn wrote a monthly movie column for Mass Appeal Magazine, was a contributor to The Ego Trip Book of Rap Lists (St. Martin's Press) and Ego Trip's Big Book of Racism (HarperCollins), and has written numerous articles for other magazines including Vibe, King, Complex, Rides, XXL and The Source.
A horror film fan, Thorburn has written three screenplays with cult film director Frank Henenlotter and is writer-producer of a new Henenlotter film, Bad Biology. The film has an original score by Josh Glazer (J. Glaze) with additional production by Prince Paul, and cameos by Playboy model Jelena Jensen and Penthouse Pet Krista Ayne. Thorburn is working on his directorial debut, a film based on his family, God Take, God Give.
Thorburn's latest album Legends Never Die was released on April 30, 2013. Guest appearances include Brother Ali, Masta Ace, Tech N9ne, Talib Kweli, Hopsin, and Krizz Kaliko. His first single of the album was 'The Peoples Champ'. The second single was "Learn Truth' Feat. Talib Kweli.
Richard Andrew is Thorburn's middle name. His first name has never been disclosed.
Thorburn's father, Staff Sgt. John A. Thorburn, was a Vietnam veteran affected by Agent Orange. Thorburn's family was significantly affected by the potent chemical. His brother Maxx was born handicapped and blind, eventually dying at the age of 10. Thorburn's sister, Dee Ann, was born without the ability to walk or speak. She died in 2007 at the age of 26. Thorburn tells his father's story in "Uncommon Valor: A Vietnam Story," from the Jedi Mind Tricks album Servants in Heaven, Kings in Hell (which was also re-released on the compilation Legendary Classics vol. 1).
John A. Thorburn died 7 January 2010 from cancer. Thorburn said that his father was truly happy within his last year of life, due to his mindset that he could plan for his death.
He is of German descent on his mother's side.
Shoot Me in the Head
R.A. the Rugged Man Lyrics
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I'm self-hating, deprecating, I need help of something
I'm like cunt, pussy, slut, lick twat, lick dick
No, my vocabulary ain't improved one bit
I'm the lowest of the lowest life-forms
And I make it painfully obvious every time I write songs
I'm hated, got liberals begging for the death penalty
I wish my father just put his dick in my mother's mouth
And instead of getting pregnant she choked on me and spit me out
Kids wanna be me, why you wanna copy this loser?
All I do is spit bullshit immature potty humor
You doubting me and not listening when I'm talking
You can put my dick in your mouth and rub my balls on your chin
Motherfucker done, duck, sucker run,
Run Amok, buck, buck gun, Whoudini, hut, hut, one
All the other white rappers they can suck my dick
In fact all the black rappers they can suck my dick
In fact everybody out there you can suck my dick
Find me in the basement fighting pitbulls with Michael Vick
Now I can say faggot, shit, dick, rape, eat cunt
Ain't no censorship issues here so let's be blunt
People never could stand me, I really don't care
Will I make some enemies with this record? Hell yeah
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a fucking fat fuck
Shoot me in my head, shoot me in my head
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a fucking fat fuck
I'm a fucking fat fuck
Oh yes, I'm a little bit old and a little bit bitter
I could have sold more and been a little bit bigger
They claimed that I am the next rapper to get slained
Come on, shoot me in my head, put a bullet in my fat brain
I got explosives, guns, knives, weapons of all types
Ninja stars, nunchucks, bats, pipes, looking for fights
(this is shit, can't you talk about something more positive
Like the environment or something important like politics?)
Yeah, sure - Bill O'Reilly he would hate my guts, so what?
Katie Couric she would hate my guts, so what?
Barbara Walters or Whoopi; which one's the dumber slut?
Keith Olbermann, bitch, could get a knife in his gut
Obama nation, the Bushs, the Clintons or 80's Reaganomics
It don't matter, the government always be taking your profits
The republicans ain't shit, the democrats ain't shit
What would make you think that either side is ever gonna change shit?
Nancy Pelosi, that bitch crazy
Before Obama she was water-boarding terrorists and blowing Dick Cheney
Think they was looking for Bin Laden, that's a croc
They was looking for him like they looking for the murderers of Biggie and Pac
Fuck this, I ain't talking politics no more
Instead I'll walk in your office and shit on your floor
How my crazy ass look spitting political themes?
When I ain't even had beef with Bush 'til New Orleans
Hmm, strictly spitting that horribleness
Anybody that don't like it they can gargle my piss
Rugged Man need love
I'mma grab Obama with that three trillion dollar budget
And head to the strip club
I'm the last one they should ever let speak
I should save politics for Dead Prez and Immortal Technique
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a fucking fat fuck
Shoot me in my head, shoot me in my head
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a fucking fat fuck
I'm a fucking fat fuck
The lyrics to R.A. the Rugged Man's song "Shoot Me in the Head" are quite dark and showcase the artist's self-hatred and deprecating thoughts. The first verse highlights the artist's low self-esteem and lack of self-worth. The second verse is full of profanity and derogatory words, and the artist seems to want to offend everyone. He talks about how people hate him and wish he was dead, which creates a sense of loneliness and isolation. In the third verse, R.A. the Rugged Man expresses his bitterness towards the government, politics, and famous personalities. He also speaks about his desire to visit a strip club and his belief that he should stick to rapping and leave politics to other rappers.
There is an underlying theme of self-destructiveness and suicidal thoughts throughout the song. The chorus repeats the phrase "shoot me in my head" several times, which shows the artist's extreme self-loathing. The song offers a rare glimpse into the mind of someone struggling with depression and self-hatred.
Line by Line Meaning
Self-destruction, I'm headed for self-destruction
I am causing my own destruction and I know it
I'm self-hating, deprecating, I need help of something
I dislike myself and need assistance to get through it
I'm like cunt, pussy, slut, lick twat, lick dick
I use vulgar language and have not improved in that regard
No, my vocabulary ain't improved one bit
My use of language has not progressed
I'm the lowest of the lowest life-forms
I consider myself to be of the lowest form of life
And I make it painfully obvious every time I write songs
I reveal my low opinion of myself through my songwriting
I'm hated, got liberals begging for the death penalty
I am disliked, some liberals even wish for my execution
And conservatives wishing my mother aborted her pregnacy
Others have such hatred for me that they want my mother to have aborted me
I wish my father just put his dick in my mother's mouth
I wish I had never been born and instead been choked on at conception
And instead of getting pregnant she choked on me and spit me out
I wish my existence had been prevented from the very beginning
Kids wanna be me, why you wanna copy this loser?
I don't understand why anyone would aspire to be like me
All I do is spit bullshit immature potty humor
I only produce immature, crude humor
You doubting me and not listening when I'm talking
You don't believe in me or listen to what I have to say
You can put my dick in your mouth and rub my balls on your chin
I disrespect you by suggesting a crude and degrading action
Motherfucker done, duck, sucker run,
I threaten violence and aggressiveness towards others
Run Amok, buck, buck gun, Whoudini, hut, hut, one
I produce chaotic and nonsensical lyrics
All the other white rappers they can suck my dick
I disrespect other white rappers and demand their submission
In fact all the black rappers they can suck my dick
I disrespect black rappers and demand their submission
In fact everybody out there you can suck my dick
I disrespect everyone and demand their submission
Find me in the basement fighting pitbulls with Michael Vick
I associate myself with animal abuse and violence
Now I can say faggot, shit, dick, rape, eat cunt
I feel comfortable using slurs and vulgar language
Ain't no censorship issues here so let's be blunt
I don't face censorship and am free to speak my mind
People never could stand me, I really don't care
I know people dislike me but don't care
Will I make some enemies with this record? Hell yeah
I expect to make more enemies with this song
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a fucking fat fuck
I have a poor opinion of myself and my weight
Shoot me in my head, shoot me in my head
I am so unhappy with myself that I wish for death
Oh yes, I'm a little bit old and a little bit bitter
I am aging and resentful of it
I could have sold more and been a little bit bigger
I could have had more success but didn't
They claimed that I am the next rapper to get slained
Some believe I may be the next rapper to be murdered
Come on, shoot me in my head, put a bullet in my fat brain
I still feel the same way as before, wishing death on myself
I got explosives, guns, knives, weapons of all types
I possess a variety of weapons for violent purposes
Ninja stars, nunchucks, bats, pipes, looking for fights
I carry weapons and am looking for trouble
Yeah, sure - Bill O'Reilly he would hate my guts, so what?
I do not care if Bill O'Reilly dislikes me
Katie Couric she would hate my guts, so what?
I also do not care if Katie Couric dislikes me
Barbara Walters or Whoopi; which one's the dumber slut?
I disrespect and insult these women
Keith Olbermann, bitch, could get a knife in his gut
I threaten violence towards Keith Olbermann
Obama nation, the Bushs, the Clintons or 80's Reaganomics
I don't have respect for any political figures or parties
It don't matter, the government always be taking your profits
The government is always diminishing your wealth
The republicans ain't shit, the democrats ain't shit
I have disdain for both parties
What would make you think that either side is ever gonna change shit?
I believe neither party will actually make significant change
Nancy Pelosi, that bitch crazy
I disrespect Nancy Pelosi
Before Obama she was water-boarding terrorists and blowing Dick Cheney
I insult Nancy Pelosi and suggest she is immoral
Think they was looking for Bin Laden, that's a croc
I believe the search for Bin Laden was a lie
They was looking for him like they looking for the murderers of Biggie and Pac
I believe the search for Biggie and Pac's murderers was also a lie
Fuck this, I ain't talking politics no more
I change the topic, no longer interested in talking politics
Instead I'll walk in your office and shit on your floor
I make a violent, destructive threat
How my crazy ass look spitting political themes?
I believe I am too crazy to talk about politics
When I ain't even had beef with Bush 'til New Orleans
I am apathetic to politics, only becoming involved when it directly affects me or my community
Hmm, strictly spitting that horribleness
I produce unpleasant, crude content
Anybody that don't like it they can gargle my piss
I am exceptionally disrespectful and insulting to anyone who dislikes my music
Rugged Man need love
I am hinting that I need love or attention
I'mma grab Obama with that three trillion dollar budget
I make a threatening and disrespectful statement towards Obama
And head to the strip club
I follow up the inappropriate statement with another one
I'm the last one they should ever let speak
I recognize that I am not a great speaker
I should save politics for Dead Prez and Immortal Technique
I believe other artists are better suited for political commentary than I am
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Cris
I thought this was his dopest album. Until I heard "All my heroes are dead". He's definitely one of the best rapper ever. Dope lyrics, dope flow... He's fire
Alexandru Dobrin
This is the real rap.
MPABIPOLARCHRISYSLQC
@Jellyfish shoot me in my head what u mean what’s the name of the song it’s in the title
Mats Lund
PHIRE FILMZ I swear if i had a record label I'd sign yo ass, and you would go platinum in a week with those lyrics right there
NSJ421
Alexandru Dobrin weeaboo it's MCEEING
PHIRE FILMZ
+MrXXAntonXx Its Called Swiggity swag
PHIRE FILMZ
xD
omdway
This dude is hilarious. The first few lines were putting me off, but this track is hard. U need to listen through the whole thing and appreciate the ironic sarcastic tone of the piece. Dope.
Cris
@mynamenegus good luck censoring this song 😂😂😂
LS6-SS
@MJ chorus is hilarious bro😆