Ascent Of Man
R.E.M. Lyrics


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So hesitation pulled me back
I'm stronger when I don't attract
In your eyes I'm a lamb without a rack
And I am getting confused
I'm a cactus trying to be a canoe
As you pan for ore
In the desert, floored
I say to you

That I could never imagine a place so beautiful
I could never steal your gold away

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

(I try to walk like a big wham bam
I came across like a battering ram
I try to float like a telegram sam
I'm trying to divine you)

My book is called "The Ascent Of Man"
I marked your chapter with a catamaran
The accent's off
But I am what I am

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

(I try to walk like a big wham bam
I came across like a battering ram
I try to float like a telegram sam
I'm trying to divine you)

I looked for you, it's my last grandstand
A motorscootered goat legged pan
Figure eighting in quicksand

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

(I try to walk like a big wham bam
I try to float like a telegram sam
I came across like a battering ram
I'm trying to divine you)

(I try to walk like a big wham bam
I try to float like a telegram sam
I came across like a battering ram
I'm trying to divine you)

So hesitation pulled me back
I'm so in love I don't attract




And with my hands tied I won't crack
('Cause in my mind I called you back)

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of “Ascent of Man” by R.E.M. describe the internal conflict and self-doubt of the singer who is trying to reconcile his desire to be strong and assertive with his fear of rejection and vulnerability. The opening lines “So hesitation pulled me back / I'm stronger when I don't attract” suggest that the singer is aware that his tendency to hold back and avoid putting himself out there may actually make him stronger. The next line “In your eyes I'm a lamb without a rack / And I am getting confused” indicates that the singer feels emasculated and powerless in the eyes of the person he is addressing, possibly a romantic interest, and that this is causing him to question himself.


Throughout the song, the singer uses vivid imagery to describe his struggle: “I'm a cactus trying to be a canoe”, “As you pan for ore / In the desert, floored”, and “My book is called "the ascent of man". / I marked your chapter with a catamaran”. These lines suggest that the singer is attempting to transform himself into something he's not, or to navigate a difficult terrain without the right equipment. The repeated refrain “I try to walk like a big wham bam / I came across like a battering ram / I try to float like a telegram sam / I'm trying to divine you” reinforces the idea that the singer is struggling to find his footing and appear confident and assertive.


However, the final lines of the song, “So hesitation pulled me back / I'm so in love I don't attract. / And with my hands tied I won't crack / ('Cause in my mind I called you back)” suggest that the singer may have found a way to reconcile his conflicting desires. He has realized that by holding back and not trying to force things, he is more attractive to the person he loves. He is also willing to take a risk and call them back, despite feeling vulnerable and potentially rejected. The song captures the complex emotions and struggles of trying to navigate relationships while maintaining a sense of self-worth and dignity.


Line by Line Meaning

So hesitation pulled me back
I am reluctant to approach you and take the next step in our relationship


I'm stronger when I don't attract
I am more confident when I am not actively seeking attention or validation from others


In your eyes I'm a lamb without a rack
In your judgment, I am weak and vulnerable and lack the qualities that would make me desirable or impressive


And I am getting confused.
My feelings and thoughts about you are becoming more complex and unclear


I'm a cactus trying to be a canoe.
I am trying to transform myself into something I am not and it is not working


As you pan for ore
While you search for something valuable or worthwhile


In the desert, floored,
In a barren and uncomfortable environment


I say to you.
I speak to you and share my thoughts


That I could never imagine a place so beautiful
I am amazed by the beauty of my surroundings and the experience of being with you


I could never steal your gold away.
I would never want to take advantage of your kindness or generosity


(I try to walk like a big wham bam
I am attempting to appear impressive and dominant


I came across like a battering ram
My approach was too aggressive and forceful


I try to float like a telegram sam
I am striving to be graceful and effortless


I'm trying to divine you)
I am attempting to understand your thoughts and motivations


My book is called "the ascent of man".
I am inspired by the idea of human progress and evolution


I marked your chapter with a catamaran.
I have associated my experience with you with the idea of sailing and adventure


The accent's off,
I realize that my pronunciation or emphasis may not be correct


But I am what I am.
I accept myself for who I am, even if it is not perfect or ideal


I looked for you, it's my last grandstand.
I have made a final effort to find you and connect with you


A motor-scootered goat legged pan
A whimsical and fanciful image of a mythical creature on a scooter


Figure eighting in quicksand
Moving in a circular pattern in a situation that is stuck and unproductive


(I'm so in love I don't attract.
My love for you is so strong that I do not need to seek attention or validation from others


And with my hands tied I won't crack
I am able to endure challenges and difficulties without breaking down or giving up


('Cause in my mind I called you back)
I have imagined a conversation with you and felt comforted by the thought of being able to speak with you




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Peter Buck, Mike Mills, Michael Stipe

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