God Willing
R.O.C Lyrics

I wasn't fed from a silver spoon, I barely ate
I didn't come from a privileged background, and I often struggled to have enough food to eat.

And when I did I wasn't full had to finish my brother's plate
Even when I did have a meal, it wasn't always enough, and I had to rely on sharing my brother's plate to feel satisfied.

Eight brothers and sisters I had to share with
I grew up in a large family with eight siblings that I had to share resources and space with.

Two different mothers but the love was in comparison
Although I had two different mothers, the love within our family was evenly distributed and equal.

I had a dad but he was fucked up
My father had his own issues and struggles, which affected his ability to be present and supportive in our lives.

We all got flaws, I forgive you for your fuck ups
Nobody is perfect, including my father, but despite his mistakes, I choose to forgive him and let go of any resentment.

He gave up cause he was lookin to the street for guidance
My father lost his way because he sought guidance and direction from the streets instead of making positive choices.

So undecided with silence, so it forced him to hide it
He struggled with inner conflicts and uncertainty, which led him to keep his troubles hidden from others through silence.

Nobody's perfect
This line reinforces the idea that imperfection is a universal trait and nobody can claim to be flawless.

God willing I don't die in these streets in cold blood
With the grace of God, I hope to avoid falling victim to violence and being killed in the dangerous streets.

Repenting for the lives I hurt as a cold thug
I regret the harm I have caused and seek repentance for the pain I have inflicted on others while living a life involved in criminal activities.

We never had shit so to get it we sold drugs
Due to our lack of opportunities and resources, we resorted to selling drugs in order to survive and improve our circumstances.

And nobody said shit when my momma was on drugs
There was no intervention or support from others when my mother struggled with substance abuse issues.

Every day is like a risk and it's giving me cold blood
Living in constant danger and uncertainty makes me feel numb and unaffected emotionally.

Just praying to exist and resist every cold slug
I rely on prayer and inner strength to keep going and survive the threat of violence and bullets fired with malicious intent.

Everybody got the answer I know it's a better way
Despite the multitude of opinions and advice from others, I believe there is a better path or solution to our problems.

If I can't make it out the ghetto I'm hustling every day
If I don't succeed in escaping the impoverished neighborhood, I will continue to work tirelessly and use my street smarts to make a living.

Hope god forgive me for my sins I ain't worried bout the enemy
I hold hope that God will grant me forgiveness for my transgressions, and I am not concerned about external enemies or their judgments.

No weapon formed against me shall prosper not even frenemies
I have faith that no harm or plan intended to harm me will succeed, not even from those people who pretend to be my friends but secretly harbor ill intentions.

They know not what they do they need protection from they damn self
Those individuals who harm me or act against me are unaware of their own destructive behavior and require protection from the consequences they bring upon themselves.

To focused on the next so they can't do shit for they damn self
Their excessive preoccupation with what comes next prevents them from taking any productive actions for their own betterment.

I always been a black sheep addicted to being different
I have always felt like an outsider and have a natural inclination to stand out and embrace my uniqueness.

God in guidance I glide while they fall for being vindictive
I rely on God's guidance to navigate through life smoothly, while others succumb to their desire for vengeance and become trapped in a cycle of bitterness.

I am self made what I been through made me different
My experiences and struggles have shaped me into a self-made individual who possesses a distinctive personality and outlook on life.

You busy trying to be him so that's why we can't tell the difference in you niggas
You are so preoccupied with trying to imitate someone else that it's difficult to distinguish your true self and unique identity from others.

I always listen to lil bro he told me shoot first
I value the advice and perspective of my younger brother, who advises me to take initiative and act decisively without hesitation.

Cant be careful with how you move just make your move first
In certain situations, it is not advisable to be overly cautious or hesitant; instead, it is better to take immediate action and seize opportunities.

We use to fight over the hits just to pay dues first
In the past, we used to compete and struggle for opportunities in order to establish ourselves and pay our dues before anyone else.

And taking joint chances with life to lose first
We shared risky endeavors and put our lives on the line, accepting the possibility of losing everything before anyone else.

Remember days when we was hungry had to move work
I recall the days when we were extremely hungry and had to engage in illegal activities or hustle to make a living and survive.

To get our daily bread that's hot chips and school shirts
Our basic necessity was to obtain enough money for food, which often meant sacrificing proper meals and resorting to cheap snacks and prioritizing school supplies and uniforms.

Ain't have no toilet paper bet that shit from school work
We were so financially disadvantaged that we couldn't even afford toilet paper, so we resorted to taking it from school or other places where it was available.

Tanesha kept us all smiling how we lose her
Tanesha, someone important to us who brought joy and happiness to our lives, is no longer with us, and it's painful to accept her loss.

I sip this Henny for days we lost plenty I can't cry now
I drink this Hennessy liquor to commemorate and mourn the many losses we've experienced, but I've shed so many tears already that I cannot cry anymore.

Done lost so many out my city hope it die down
I have lost numerous friends and loved ones from my city, and I hope that the high number of deaths and tragedies decrease and come to an end.

The government don't got no help but we can buy pounds
The government offers little assistance or support, but we have the means to purchase drugs or other illegal substances instead.

These rap niggaz say ride with pole don't even ride around
These rappers talk about carrying guns and being tough, but they don't actually live the dangerous lifestyle they glorify in their lyrics.

Stuck in the sunken place niggaz was not around
Feeling trapped and devoid of hope, many people who claim to be friends or allies were nowhere to be found when I needed them the most.

While tryna stay afloat they wanna hold ya down
While I am struggling to survive and keep my head above water, there are individuals who actively work against me and attempt to hinder my progress.

Been social distancing before coronavirus
I have been physically and emotionally distant from others long before the COVID-19 pandemic forced everyone into isolation.

Got no bars for quarantine I just hope it get put behind us
I have no desire or readiness to be confined by the limitations or restrictions of quarantine; I can only hope that this situation comes to an end soon.