In its earlier days, the band had duel vocals performed by De Marrais and Fischer; later, De Marrais would become the lead vocalist in the majority of their songs. The band's many tours and intimate live shows at venues such as Brooklyn's Northsix (now Music Hall of Williamsburg), Washington, D.C.'s The Black Cat, Bowery Ballroom in NYC, and Chapel Hill's Cat's Cradle helped to grow its fan base and fuel album sales.
On November 6, 2006, the band announced, through Pitchfork Media, that the December 16th show at New York City's Bowery Ballroom would be their last. They played one more show on December 17th at Northsix, which De Marrais referred to as "home" because it also served as the band's rehearsal space.
The band reformed in 2014 with a reunion show at Bowery Ballroom on December 31. Additional shows were added for February 14 and April 18, 2015 at Lincoln Hall in Chicago and Union Transfer in Philadelphia, respectively.
In 2017 the band released S/T, their first album in 11 years.
Made in Secret
Rainer Maria Lyrics
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i'm reaching out to you.
there is no reason why
we shouldn't end our fear of the dark
while the daytime's safe.
and i know it takes a lot of strength
to reach out, i tried to reach out.
and you laughed in my face
and you told me no,
you can't stand my pain (or rage)
and i can't believe you
could be so selfish
when i hurt this much.
there is a secret i haven't told to anyone.
The lyrics to Rainer Maria's song "Made in Secret" speak to the vulnerability and bravery that come with reaching out for help during times of darkness and pain. The singer expresses a deep desire for their partner to not let them down during this vulnerable moment of asking for support. They acknowledge that there is no reason why their fear of the dark can't end, especially since it is "safe" during the daytime. However, the singer also faces rejection and laughter from their partner when they try to reach out, causing them to feel disillusioned and hurt.
The final line of the song, "there is a secret i haven't told to anyone," adds a layer of secrecy and internal struggle to the narrative. It suggests that there is some deeper pain or trauma that the singer is grappling with, but hasn't yet found the courage to share. The lyrics ultimately convey a sense of loneliness, isolation, and hurt, as well as a longing for connection and understanding.
Line by Line Meaning
don't let me down this time.
I am afraid of being disappointed again, please don't let me down.
i'm reaching out to you.
I am asking for your help and support.
there is no reason why
we shouldn't end our fear of the dark
while the daytime's safe.
We can overcome our fears when there is no threat, so let's try to do it together.
and i know it takes a lot of strength
to reach out, i tried to reach out.
It's not easy to ask for help, but I have already tried and it took a lot of courage.
and you turned to me
and you laughed in my face
and you told me no,
you can't stand my pain (or rage).
You rejected me and made me feel worse by laughing at my vulnerability and refusing to empathize.
and i can't believe you
could be so selfish
when i hurt this much.
I am in pain and it hurts me even more that you are being selfish and not considering my feelings.
there is a secret i haven't told to anyone.
I have something that I have not shared with anyone, and it's weighing on me.
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Maximillian Coghlan
I was screaming this song in the shower five years ago and I still do today.
wreckincheck
About time somebody put this song up on Youtube. :D
CarterJ9
I'M REACHING OUT TO YOUUUUUUUU