Lucky
Rasmus Nelausen Lyrics

The words I ache to say are stuck inside me
I have something important to say, but I can't seem to get the words out.

Playing hide and seek just to avoid my mouth
The words I want to say are dodging me and it feels like they are doing it on purpose.

They are cursed with the power to deny me
The words I struggle to say are tormenting me and have the ability to prevent me from expressing myself.

Toiling them and singing them out loud
I am trying so hard to express the words, but it is difficult.

And the words they take up air for which I'm gasping
Trying to express these words is emotionally exhausting and draining.

Burns like fire and fills me up with doubt
I'm filled with self-doubt and the words I want to say feel scary and intimidating.

But fire burns like fire always has been
It's normal for difficult, unpleasant things to be challenging.

Nothing left to do but wait it out
All I can do is be patient and wait until I feel ready to speak.

And I wonder what's the point in even fighting
I'm questioning the value of standing up and speaking my truth.

would be easier to paint my eyes black
It seems like it would be less difficult to harm myself than to express my feelings.

so I'm punching holes in air in which I'm hiding
I'm frustrated and anxious, and I don't know how to express myself.

hoping it won't ever hit me back
I'm afraid of the consequences of expressing myself.

And I can see why she would start to doubt it
I understand why my partner might start to mistrust me.

When she asks if everything's all right
My partner is trying to check in on my emotional state.

But the truth is that I wouldn't be without it
Even though it's hard, I couldn't live without expressing myself.

It's the only thing that's keeping me upright
Expressing myself is what gives me strength and keeps me going.

And the wonder of it all is that she's leaving
I'm amazed that despite my struggles, my partner is still with me.

Her fears behind to see this through
My partner is choosing to be supportive and courageous.

And when she does it makes me start believing
My partner's support is helping me feel like I can express myself.

Maybe I could too
I am beginning to feel hopeful about my ability to speak my feelings.

So in the evening when the birds they sing their last song
At the end of the day, when everything is still and peaceful...

They sing of everlasting love
I am reminded of the love and support in my life.

I wonder how I got to be so lucky
I am grateful for the love and support in my life.

To know that she'll be here when I wake up
I can count on my partner to support me through my struggles.