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Red House Painters Lyrics

So much that I can't say to you
There are many things that I want to say to you, but I am unable to express them.

My voice shakes from the hurt that I hide
I am in pain, but I am hiding it, causing my voice to tremble.

Ashamed of my existence
I feel humiliated and embarrassed about my very being.

And of my petty often wounded pride
I am easily hurt and my self-esteem is easily damaged.

I'd like to come home to see you
I desire to return home and be with you.

And to catch your sickness by the bedside
I want to be close to you, even if it means catching your illness.

But then you'd know how much I really need you
I am afraid to show you how much I depend on and crave your presence.

All the love in an instant
The intensity of my love overwhelms me.

Makes my life stop
My love is so all-consuming that it feels as if my entire life comes to a halt.

But then my hate for you
Despite my love, I also experience intense animosity towards you.

Makes my feelings altogether drop
My hatred overshadows all of my complex emotions, causing me to feel numb.

If only I were blind to your selfish fling
I wish I could be oblivious to your self-centered actions.

And your desperate cause
You are pursuing something with an urgent and intense need.

And didn't press you for the details
I wish I hadn't asked for more information about what you were doing.

That threaten my physical flaws
Knowing the details of your actions causes me to worry about my own physical weaknesses or limitations.

I'd like to come home to see you
I long to return to you and be in your company.

And embrace your illness under soft light
I want to hold you tenderly as you suffer from your illness, in a peaceful and comforting setting.

But then you'd know how much I really need you
I fear that if I show you how much I long for your presence, you will take advantage of me.

So much that I can say to you
There are many things that I want to express to you.

With affection that I burn inside
I am consumed by my love for you.

You're aching from the distance
You are in pain because we are separated.

Avoiding strain that's running still alive
You are trying to avoid the discomfort that our strained relationship is causing.

If only I could heal you
I wish I had the power to alleviate your pain.

In the sprinkling of the ocean side
I wish I could help you by the sea.

But then you'd know how much I really love you
I am afraid to show you the full extent of my love.

All the love in an instant
My love is so powerful that it can overwhelm me in an instant.

Makes my life stop
My love is so intense that it feels as if everything else in my life comes to a halt.

But then my hate for you
Despite my love, I also feel a deep hatred towards you.

Makes my feelings altogether drop
My feelings towards you become so complex that it feels as if all of my emotions become numb.