Relient K is an American rock band formed in 1998 in Canton, Ohio by Matt T… Read Full Bio ↴Relient K is an American rock band formed in 1998 in Canton, Ohio by Matt Thiessen (lead vocals, guitar, piano), Brian Pittman (bass), and Matthew Hoopes (guitar, backing vocals), during the band's junior year in high school and their time at Malone College. The band is named after guitarist Hoopes' automobile, a Plymouth Reliant K car, with the spelling intentionally altered to avoid trademark infringement over the Reliant name.

In 2000, Dave Douglas replaced Stephen Cushman on drums. In 2004, John Warne, formerly of Ace Troubleshooter replaced Brian on bass guitar. In 2005,Jon Schneck joined on with additional guitars, as well as banjo, bells, and backing vocals. In 2008, Ethan Luck, formerly of The O.C. Supertones and Demon Hunter replaced Dave on drums.

The band has released 9 albums, including 2 Christmas albums, as well as 6 EPs, and some other miscellaneous projects. Starting in 2000 with their second album, Relient K was signed to Gotee Records, a Christian record label. In 2004, their album Mmhmm shot them into mainstream popularity when it released at #15 on Billboard 200, and was released on Gotee, Mono Vs. Stereo (both Christian record labels), as well as Capitol, a secular label. They stayed with Gotee/Capitol until 2007, and their album Five Score and Seven Years Ago released at #6. Their latest album, Forget and Not Slow Down was released in 2009 with Mono Vs. Stereo. The band has done very well in both the Christian and mainstream music industries. The band has received numerous awards including a Grammy Award nomination in 2003 for Best Rock Gospel Album and two Dove Awards. The band has sold over 2 million records, with three albums being given gold certification by the RIAA.

The band's musical style has changed over the years, starting off as very pop-punk, and maturing into a unique sort of pop-alternative-rock, with many songs varying in style, and some including acoustic guitars, piano, banjo, synths, bells, etc. Through the years, their lyrics and songwriting have matured, but they have not lost their silly side and sense of humor. They still often reference their Christian faith throughout their songs.

Matt Thiessen, the band's main songwriter, also has a solo side project, Matthew Thiessen and the Earthquakes. He has also collaborated with Owl City. Dave Douglas also had a solo side project, Agnes.

Faking My Own Suicide
Relient K Lyrics

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So I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral

Because a part of you will die along with me

I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know, I'd let you know

All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide, because you know

Because you know you will never leave my sight
Until the day that I die for the first time

And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Relient K's "Faking My Own Suicide" explore the desperation of a person who craves attention from someone they love. The singer of the song decides to fake their own suicide to grab the attention of their love interest. They want to make them realize how much they mean to them and how important they are in their lives. They wish to evoke an emotional reaction from their loved one, hoping that they would realize their true feelings before it's too late.

The lyrics also highlight the remorse that comes along with such an act. The singer wishes that their loved one had realized their love for them before it was too late. They want to create a scenario where their loved one would come to their grave and express their love, only to realize later that they are alive. The singer wants to evoke a strong emotional reaction in their loved one, which would make them realize the intensity of their feelings towards each other.

Overall, the song's lyrics illustrate the emotional desperation that can consume someone who craves love and attention. It highlights the importance of expressing your feelings towards your loved ones and not taking them for granted.

Line by Line Meaning

So I've made up my mind
I have decided to do something drastic to get your attention

I will pretend to leave this world behind
I'm going to stage my death, but it's only an act

And in the end, you'll know I've lied
You will realize that my death was not real

To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide
This is a desperate attempt to show you how much you mean to me

I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
I'm doing this because I believe you won't appreciate me until I'm gone

You just haven't realized
You haven't recognized how much you truly care for me yet

They'll hold a double funeral
My staged death will be so convincing that others will be mourning my loss as well

Because a part of you will die along with me
You will be so heartbroken that it will feel like a piece of you has died too

I wish you thought that I was dead
I want you to miss me so much that you wish I were really gone

So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
I want you to be the one feeling sad and lonely, not me

And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
I hope that my death will make you realize how much you care for me

You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say
If I were really dead, you would never be able to tell me how much you cared for me

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
I want to leave you a message explaining why I did what I did

Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
I want to reassure you that I knew how much you cared for me, even if you didn't show it

You say aloud that you would have been my wife
I hope that you will finally admit how much you wanted to be with me

Right about that time is when I come back to life
I want to surprise you by revealing that I'm still alive

And let you know, I'd let you know
I want to tell you in person how much I truly care for you

All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
I staged my death to prove how much you meant to me

You just never realized
You didn't understand the depth of my love until I was gone

I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
I want to shock you with my return

Opened so wide, because you know
You will be amazed that I was able to pull off such an elaborate plan

Because you know you will never leave my sight
I want to make sure you understand how much I need you in my life

Until the day that I die for the first time
I want you to be by my side until the very end of my natural life

And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
We will be filled with so much joy and emotion for having overcome this hardship

So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive
Our love will be stronger than ever, now that we have been through this experience together

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: MATTHEW THIESSEN

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

Florencia Ferrari

3y↑6

Lyrics:

So, I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
Oh, I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know all along I was...
All along I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide
Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed at the love that's so alive
Our love is so alive

All comments from YouTube:

Dan Astalyn

3y↑22

I thought this song was abusive at first (believe me, a guy did this to me), but then... I realized that the song is really sad. It is someone that does not want to lose his loved one, and is thinking (in delusion) that this is the way. It is not OK, of course. But this way of thinking is really common. It hurts not to be loved. So he wonders "If I die, will the other person be as hurt as I am right now? will they regret not loving me?". So actually this whole song is the imagination of someone who has a one-sided love. It is delusional and sad at the same time.

Fosuke M

@giantsr1eva Romeo and Juliet?

giantsr1eva

@Daniela Rim
It could also be very destructive. What if the other person figures out that they do love the person who they think is dead and commits suicide? If it works, it could be great, but it could also fail miserably. Just remember that actions have consequences.

Christian Verstappen

2y↑6

Just listened to it. Your interpretation is spot on. Ironically I was actually in an abusive relationship and thought the same things as Matt sang about.

I remember thinking and talking to a friend about how “I wonder if she thought I got in a car accident, would she care then?” If you’re thinking like this, you def have problems you need to work through in your relationship and may even need to leave it. But yes, this is a very common way to think it feels and while I can see the issues people have with the song, I think it’s ultimately good albeit delusional on the singers part.

Anjali Kaptain

4y↑13

I love this song! It's so depressing. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Florencia Ferrari

3y↑6

Sybel

2y↑2

When I had a break up I wanted the bus I was on to crash. Idk if it's a universal thing or I need therapy. It's wanting the pain to leave and the person that caused it to feel it.

Tickle Tipson

2y↑2

This song is so sad. He thinks the only way to get her attention is to "kill" apart of her aka her forgotten love for him. He hopes when he walks through the door her newly found love will spark