Holding On
Rhyme Asylum Lyrics

Tears appear as I’m alone in the dark
I am crying while being by myself in darkness.

Haunted by suicidal thoughts and all the ghosts from the past
I am tormented by suicidal thoughts and memories of the past.

Heart broken in half, I’m internally bleeding
My heart is shattered, and I am hurting inside.

Searching for reasons why my angel turned into a demon
I am trying to understand why the person who was my angel turned to be a demon.

Soul mates is a myth, there’s more chances for a blizzard of identical snowflakes to exist
Finding a soulmate is unlikely, almost like a blizzard of identical snowflakes.

Hold blades to my wrists
I put blades to my wrists.

Separate soul from my flesh, sick of trying to cope with the stress and showing regrets
I want to die and put an end to the stress and regrets.

So-called friends posing a threat
The people I thought are my friends are a danger to me.

Cut the cancer at your circle before you’re pushed over the edge
Eliminate toxic people from your life before they push you over the edge.

I take steps closer to death
I am walking towards my death.

Had a head-on collisions with depression and was left as an emotional wreck
I struggled with depression and became emotionally damaged.

Try to step in my shoes, walking through a wilderness
Put yourself in my position to understand how difficult it is.

A Venice winter weather reflecting my mood
My mood is like a Venetian winter.

These are just confessions of truth, expected to lose
These are honest confessions, and I expect to lose.

So I watch the world with a negative view
I see the world negatively.

I’m a dead man walking, spirit dragging my carcass
I feel like I'm already dead, and my spirit is dragging my lifeless body.

Wish I shared the same faith as Natasha?
I wish I had the same faith as Natasha.

I don’t pray, this God isn’t listening
I don't pray because I don't think God is listening.

My father forgets his sorrow swallowing bottled oblivion
My father drinks his pain away.

No model civilians in these turbulent times
There are no perfect people in these chaotic times.

Not afraid of death, I’m afraid of the journey of life
I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of the obstacles in life.

And my words to the wise;
My advice to the wise is;

Stand strong, and as long as fire burn in my eyes I’m determined to fight
Stay strong, and I'm determined to fight as long as I have the fire in my eyes.

Most of the time it seems life’s going wrong
Most of the time, life seems to go wrong.

We feel like outcasts and we don’t belong
We feel like outsiders and don't belong.

We need to vent that’s why we wrote this song
We wrote this song to express ourselves and let out our emotions.

I hope I’m strong enough to keep holding on
I hope I am strong enough to keep going.

I been searching blindly to find myself
I have been searching aimlessly to find my identity.

For many times I felt like my life was hell
I felt like I was living in hell many times.

I even cried for help, I’m down everyday
I even begged for help, and I feel down every day.

And now very afraid from how memories fade
I am scared of how memories disappear.

I refuse to live in poverty, but feel guilt
I don't want to live in poverty but feel bad for wanting an easier way to make money.

For wanting an easy way out and win the lottery
I wish I could win the lottery to get out of my current situation easily.

Trying to drown the pain, but I’m sinking so deep
I try to escape pain, but it only makes it worse.

Wanting things I can’t have and having things I don’t need
I want things I can't have and have things I don't need.

I’m lonely at times, and I’m needing some luck
Sometimes I feel lonely and need good luck.

Developed thick skin from receiving tough love
I have become stronger from receiving harsh love.

Some people are blessed with better lives, I zone out
Some people have better lives, which makes me disengage.

With no sound when I rest my head at night
I sleep soundly without any noise at night.

Hoping for better dreams, but I’m so stressed waking up in cold sweats when I attempt to sleep
I want to have better dreams but wake up stressed and sweating when trying to sleep.

We live in war, rest in peace
Life is like a battlefield, but we rest in peace when we die.

Using hope as a shield when swinging swords against the Beast
When fighting against difficulties, we use hope as a shield.

Wondering if I got a tragic life ahead of me
I wonder if my life will be tragic.

Cause on my roads to riches: traffic lights are never green
I can't seem to catch a break or find success.

My imagination is restricted by a migraine
My migraine restricts my imaginative thinking.

When I try to paint a perfect picture in my mind frame
I struggle to envision perfection in my mind.

Dreaded how times change
I fear how times are changing.

Friends using drugs and alcohol as anaesthetics for life pain
My friends use drugs and alcohol to escape the pain of life.

In the back of my mind, wanting to reach back
I sometimes want to go back to the past.

To ‘03 and recapture all my happiest of times
I want to relive the happiest time of my life in 2003.

In the spiralling downward descention drowning in depression
I am spiraling down into depression.

No amount of counselling sessions could ever bound my aggression
No amount of therapy can contain my aggression.

Crushed by a powerful tension, I don’t see sheep at night
I feel immense pressure, and insomnia keeps me awake at night.

I’m too busy counting my blessings
I am too distracted by counting my blessings.

Cold as the frostbitten globe giving up by a ghost
I feel cold and lifeless as if a ghost has taken over me.

Feel ungrateful complaining about my status of living
I feel bad about complaining about my living conditions.

When these day people die in disgraceful conditions
People die in terrible conditions these days.

I guess it’s all relative, my force’s negative
I guess it's all a matter of perspective, and mine is negative.

I channel war messages just to form sentences
I use my feelings of war to make my sentences.

Life is my sworn nemesis, I even admit
I openly accept that life is my worst enemy.

Sometimes I wish to beef on my wrist and cease to exist
Sometimes I want to hurt myself or die.

All issues closed to my broken heart
All my problems stem from my broken heart.

Am I walking a chosen path? I can’t embrace faith with open arms
I don't know if I am choosing to walk this path, and I can't blindly follow faith.

Emotions charge breaking the curse, since the pain of the Earth but I can’t explain it in words
My feelings and emotions are strong and help break the curse of the world, but I can't articulate them.

I’m battling demons inside, searching for unachievable reasons to the meaning of life
I am fighting inner demons, trying to figure out the unachievable meaning of life.

Clueless as to when I meet my demise
I have no idea when I will die.

Feelings behind my insecurities stop me ceasing my time
My insecurities and feelings prevent me from ending my life.

I can’t sleep through the night, my dreams are denied
I struggle to sleep through the night, and my dreams are impossible.

As the tears begin to seep from deep in my eyes
As tears form in my eyes and start to stream down my face.

Slowly losing strength on my grip
I am losing strength in my grasp.

Fingers slipping from the edge of the cliff
My fingers are letting go of the edge of the cliff.

Falling into the endless abyss
I am falling into an endless abyss.