In my head
Richy Nix Lyrics

Days pass and I wander along
As time passes, I aimlessly search for my path

I'm tryin' to find my way
I'm attempting to discover my purpose in life

They think that I'm livin' in the wrong
Others believe that I'm not living life the right way

Well, I got somethin' to say
I have my own thoughts and opinions to express

And we will always be the same
Despite our changes, we'll remain fundamentally the same

Even though we constantly change
Though we undergo many transformations, our core selves stay intact

Fuck lovers
Romantic relationships are undesirable

I hate this shit
I strongly dislike love and relationships

It only hurts now
Love brings pain and suffering

Just another relationship
This is one of many failed romantic connections I've experienced

That doesn't work out
Once again, this love affair is a failure

fuck it I'm Atheist
I reject religion and any notion of a higher power

And I let the word out
I share my atheistic beliefs with others

Fall in love with a crazy bitch
Getting involved with a mentally unstable individual is ill-advised

Your heart will burn out
You'll experience heartbreak and emotional pain

Blood pressure bubbles up
I begin to feel stressed and overwhelmed

What the fuck, I feel stuck; I cannot touch
I'm confused and trapped, unable to create change

Another one of these anti-depressants
I'm taking medication to try and fight my depression

Man, this can't be the message
Surely this treatment can't be the only solution

Somebody hand me a lesson
I need guidance and advice to overcome my struggles

'Cause I'm standing here stressin'
I'm currently feeling extremely anxious and tense

While I'm planning my death and
I'm contemplating suicide

This might be the last minute
I'm aware of how close I am to potentially ending my life

That I stand on this planet
The precious time I have left on this Earth is fleeting

Look at me stranded
I feel helpless and abandoned while dealing with my mental struggles

I'm panickin'
I'm full of panic and anxiety

And I can't understand it
I'm having difficulty comprehending why I'm experiencing these emotions

My life is a manic depressant
My life is a cycle of manic highs and depressive lows

But I manage to stand it
Despite these struggles, I'm able to persevere

Until I land in the Hamptoms
Perhaps once I reach a certain level of success, I can improve my mental state of being

I'm withstandin the damages
I'm enduring the harm and pain, refusing to be defeated

So I gotta calm my nerves
I need to try and reduce my anxiety levels and relax

And take a deep breath
I need to take a moment to collect myself

cause I will never learn unless I take each step
If I don't attempt to make progress and learn from my experiences, I won't grow

Feelin' stronger now
I'm slowly building up my strength and resilience

There ain't a way to fade away
There's no easy escape from one's problems

So take away the razor blades
Removing potential means of self-harm is important for those struggling with depression

It ain't safe to say
It's not okay to encourage or promote self-harm

That making pain will take the pain away
Harming oneself only creates greater suffering

There's greater ways to change the page
There are healthier, more productive ways to cope with pain and suffering

And everybody hates to say it, but
It's difficult to admit, but it's true for everyone

You gotta tame the rage
It's important to learn how to control one's anger and emotions

and quit saying you ain't gonna make it
Stop telling yourself that you'll never succeed or be happy

Oh it's hard
Dealing with mental health struggles is not easy

I know that it's hard
I understand the immense difficulty of enduring mental health issues

You can't trust no one and you're covered in scars
Feeling betrayed and wounded, it can be hard to trust others and form healthy relationships

There's knives in our backs
People can be untrustworthy and hurtful

With our friends' names on them
The people who hurt us often times ironically are those whom we care most about

We try to relax
We attempt to let go of our stress and anxiety

But the pain keeps runnin'
The suffering continues even when we try to escape it

Our mind's off the tracks
Our thoughts and emotions are not settled or organized

But we try to stay on them
Despite our chaos and internal turmoil, we attempt to maintain composure

You lied in the past
Someone may have broken your trust or hurt you before

While we remain honest
Even when others are deceitful, it's important to stay truthful and authentic

We're tired of this crap
We're fed up with the hardships and struggles of life

we just tryin to make dollars
We're working hard to earn a living and find financial stability

we grind for this cash
We work tirelessly for our earnings

While you try to hate on us
Others may attempt to discourage us or unfairly criticize our efforts

Everywhere I go I know they want to fight me
I feel like I'm constantly under attack or facing opposition

Even though they don't know me they don't like me
People may misjudge or assume things about me that aren't true

They think that I'm terrified
Others may perceive me as fearful or vulnerable

I just hold my head up high
Despite this, I remain confident and proud

If they wanna fuck with me
If someone wants to challenge me or cause me trouble

Just know that I'ma let them try
I'm not afraid to stand up for myself and fight back if necessary

These words will prove that
I hope my message will demonstrate that

I will not live in fear
I refuse to let my anxieties and struggles control me

I bet you want to know what I'm feelin' like
You're probably curious about my emotional state of being

While I'm sittin' here spinnin' these rhymes
As I write these lyrics

Well if you want to know what I'm feelin' like
If you're curious about my emotions

I feel like I'm the best of my time
I believe I'm at the top of my game or industry

Took my heart and locked it up in a safe
I've guarded and protected my heart from further heartbreak

With a straight face and threw away the key
I've intentionally closed myself off emotionally

Now that I know my heart is in a safe place
I'm aware that my heart is protected

There's not a single thing that you can do to me
No one can emotionally hurt me because I've shut down my emotions

You have everything that you want
You possess everything you desire or need

It's in your arms
It's literally within your reach, in your grasp

Your arms
Referring to your physical body and space around you