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Ricky Hil Lyrics

I don’t understand, nothing at all
I am confused and uncertain about everything happening around me.

They don't even stand for nothing at all
The people around me seem to have no purpose or meaning in their lives.

Why you think that you don't even see me at all?
I feel invisible and ignored by those around me.

I clean the floors and I watch me crawl
I am in a low position in life and I feel helpless in improving it.

I lock the doors and I watch me fall
I try to protect myself but end up hurting myself in the process.

I'm out the doors, and I'm out the laws
I am living outside the norms and rules of society.

I swear to god, It's like never before
I have never felt this way before and it is overwhelming.

I'll make you want me more than ever before
I strive to be desirable and sought after.

I focus on the pain 'cause I can't ignore
I am obsessed with my pain and cannot distract myself from it.

I focus on the pain and I want it more
My suffering has become a source of motivation and inspiration for me.

I'm cut from a cloth that ain't in store
I am unique and different from others, and cannot be easily replicated.

I hope you understand what I do it for
I hope others can understand and appreciate my actions and motivations.

I do it for hell, I do it for me
I am doing this for my own personal satisfaction and fulfillment, even if it is painful or difficult.

Pay attention, don't lose me
I want people to pay attention to me and not forget about me.

CT gon' choose me
I feel confident that Connecticut (CT) will support me and my music career.

Why is that so difficult to see?
I am frustrated that some people cannot understand my potential and talent.

Riding by myself in the two seat
I am driving alone and feeling isolated.

Smoking back to back out the QP
I am smoking large amounts of marijuana to cope with my problems.

Bitches back home say they knew me
Women from my past claim to know me, but I do not feel any connection to them.

But I ain't got no love for a groupie, yeah
I do not have any interest in superficial relationships or fans who only like me for my fame.

Put that on a dead bitch, put that on me
I am willing to swear on my own life and the life of others to demonstrate my sincerity.

She ain't on my feet, I'ma dog set me free
I am not tied down to anyone and enjoy my freedom to do as I please.

I ain't gon' pray nor drop to my knees
I am not religious and do not believe in begging for help or forgiveness.

Leather on my seat, I'm American made
I take pride in my American heritage and success.

They think that they like me, but they're in a phase
Some people claim to like me but are only temporary fans and do not truly understand me.

They could be like me, I don't care anyway
I do not need others to imitate or admire me, and am indifferent to their opinions.

They just wear a bunch of shit I wouldn't wear anyway
I have my own unique style and taste, and am not impressed by others' fashion choices.

I'm sorry if I get too carried away
I apologize if my behavior becomes excessive or overwhelming to others.

I put this weed in the air everyday
Marijuana is a daily part of my lifestyle and routine.

I gotta stay high 'til they bury me babe
I will continue to use marijuana and stay in my current lifestyle until my death.

I swear I'm on my way, I'll be there any day
I promise to achieve success and make a name for myself soon.

I'll come and carry the weight
I am ready to take on the responsibility and burden of fame and success.

Never gonna change
I will remain true to myself and my beliefs.

Promise you that I'll stay the same, well
I swear to stay consistent and genuine throughout my life.