Forest Green Father
Right Away Great Captain! Lyrics

Cut yard in a coat
I'm trying to look good and put together, but really I'm cutting grass.

Be the joke I would hope you listen
I want to make you laugh, but I also want you to take me seriously.

First start with a deadpan look inside me
I'm not sure what I'm feeling, so I'm looking inward with a blank expression.

Do you know how bad I need to feel unsure
I want to feel uncertain because it's better than feeling nothing at all.

Red sex, just for a man you called that
You're using sex as a way to heal someone who doesn't deserve it.

Healer, for a deadbeat boy to help himself okay
You're trying to fix someone who doesn't want to be helped.

And now it's all what it was
Everything is the same as it was before.

You could never take again
You can't go back in time and change things.

And now I've lost you virgin
I've lost my innocence.

Frame of mind which you know that I was sleeping
You knew I was vulnerable and took advantage of me while I was asleep.

Could you feel my skin it laid outside your door
I was exposed and vulnerable, and you were the only one who could have helped me.

And can you feel, what a holy man I've seen you
I used to think you were perfect and could do no wrong.

Have you seen the man that sees me everyday
Do you know the real me, the one that exists when no one else is around?

Did you absolutely need to feel okay?
Did you have to use me to make yourself feel better?

Cause I'm tired of having nothing else to say
I'm done trying to make excuses for you and myself.

But I hope we catch that fucking man someday
I hope justice catches up to the people who have hurt us.

(Instrumental)

So how far for a dirty dog release me
How much of a mess do I have to be before you'll let me go?

And the alcohol it bleeds me to my bones
Drinking is destroying me from the inside out.

And I stand like a statue in your garden
I'm just a decoration to you, not a real person.

I will take you to the offering I could see
I will give you everything I have, even if it's not enough for me.

Did you beat?
Did you hurt me?

Cause I'm having trouble forgiving me
I can't even forgive myself for what happened.

Cause I hope that I can finally see
I want to understand and accept what happened.

That it's not your fault, its mine
I need to take responsibility for my own actions and feelings.

That it's not what you can't see
It's not about what you don't understand or can't see.

So believe and forgive me
Please trust me and forgive me.

So stop my holy righteous you're invading
Stop trying to fix me, you're only making it worse.

Will the sea come back?
Will everything go back to the way it was before?

Will we end up okay?
Will we ever be able to move on and be happy?

So just know, that you go
I'm letting you go.

I can know that I would help you on the phone.
I'll always be here for you, even if we're not together.

And it's getting awful loud inside this home
The tension and emotions are building up and getting overwhelming.

So don't go.
Please don't leave me alone with all of this.