Until Now
River Phoenix Lyrics


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Until now, I've been blind.
Until now, I've been wasting time.
I've been lost on streets of plenty.
I've been tossed on icy seas.
And all I've crossed, ain't worth a quarter.
It's muddy water, until now.

There's a light that shines forever,
There's a light that shines for me.




There's a light, my footsteps guiding.
For I've been hiding, until now.

Overall Meaning

The opening lines of River Phoenix's song Until Now reveal a character who is just starting to see things clearly. He acknowledges that until this moment, he has been blind and wasting time. The lyrics suggest a sense of revelation and epiphany, as he realizes that all the things he has experienced up until now weren't worth much, like muddy water. However, this realization is paired with a newfound sense of hope as he discovers a light that shines for him and appears to guide his footsteps. He has been hiding until now, presumably from something or someone, but the light is leading him out of hiding and into the light of truth.


The overall meaning of the song is open to interpretation, but it seems to be about a person who is awakening to a deeper sense of purpose and direction in life. It may also be a reflective piece about a person who has been lost and is now being found. The imagery in the song is powerful, especially with the recurring theme of light and darkness, and the use of water to represent the things that we cross in life. The vocals in the song are haunting and emotional, conveying a sense of longing and yearning for something more.


Line by Line Meaning

Until now, I've been blind.
I didn't see things clearly before now.


Until now, I've been wasting time.
I didn't use my time effectively before now.


I've been lost on streets of plenty.
There have been many choices and opportunities, but I didn't feel like I had purpose or direction.


I've been tossed on icy seas.
I felt adrift, lost and uncertain in life.


And all I've crossed, ain't worth a quarter.
Despite my journey, I haven't gained anything of real value.


It's muddy water, until now.
Life felt murky and unclear, but that has changed.


There's a light that shines forever,
There's something eternal, constant and hopeful in the world.


There's a light that shines for me.
I sense this light specifically for me, it's personal.


There's a light, my footsteps guiding.
This light is a helpful guide in life.


For I've been hiding, until now.
I've kept myself hidden in shadows, not fully engaged in life. But that has changed now.




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@trendingsonfacebook1968

Until now, I've been blind.
Until now, I've been wasting time.
I've been lost on streets of plenty.
I've been tossed on icy seas.
And all I've crossed, ain't worth a quarter.
It's muddy water, until now.

There's a light that shines forever,
There's a light that shines for me.
There's a light, my footsteps guiding.
For I've been hiding, until now.



@screenplaysbydanny2846

A poem about River from the poetry book, “12:12 Midnight”
by Danielle Ever Rose

“FOREVER RIVER"
A peaceful river flows from the start,
Twenty three days and twenty three nights apart.
The clear water calm turning into rushing rapids,
Tearing you up before you get out.
But like a Phoenix from the ashes,
He will rise,
A beautiful spirit,
Haunting striking eyes.
A room full of vipers,
A venom so strong,
Taken away in the hollow morning songs.
This river treasure like a shooting star,
Lights up the night sky,
And for a moment,
Shines brighter than all the other stars.
Seemingly gone forever,
But never forgotten.
RIP River Phoenix.



All comments from YouTube:

@daydreamerzclub

I hate that no one in my generation really knows about the beautiful talent that was, River Phoenix.

@Yas-ei3st

Same sis. Same.😕😕😕

@ciarashirley2843

YasM! Same 😞

@danielac.2604

Me too

@christinakrmpk6814

Omg sis i got u

@riverphoenixhenzi7943

There’s no one around me that I can talk with about River Phoenix 😭😭

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@mucasman1738

I hate looking at those comments saying it was a waste of talent. it wasn't. he used his talent since the beginning and to the end of his life. To me, he didn't waste it, he used it. anyway Rest In Peace little man we will always love you🌺

@naveennarwal4198

mucus man we will always 😭

@adam_ziegel

Tallent used in love and good will is never waisted

@Nominay

It's also erroneous since people willfully look over the fact that River was planning on retiring from acting, after Interview With the Vampire.

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