Obscene
Rollins Band Lyrics

I'm so confused
I'm completely baffled by what I'm feeling.

Can't find the line
Can't distinguish the boundary between what I use and abuse.

Between what I use and abuse
I can't differentiate between utilizing substances and excessively utilizing them, ultimately harming myself.

So unreal
The way I pretend and deny my true feelings is ridiculous.

How I lie and try to deny
I dishonestly try to hide my innermost feelings from myself and others.

The things that I feel
My authenticity is struggling to break free and I suppress it with lies.

I'll love you and hate you both at the same time
I hold conflicting feelings about you, both positive and negative, simultaneously.

Heal you and hurt you and laugh as you cry
I am responsible for your feelings, the good and bad, and derive amusement from it.

Why I don't know
I am confused about my emotions and actions.

Right at you right in you
I confront you aggressively, directly and deeply.

Right through you right past you I go
I pass by you without paying attention, but without actually leaving.

Can't you see
Are you blind to my emotional turbulence?

First it's him then it's her
I keep bouncing my affection from one individual to another.

Then it's us then it's you
My loyalness sways from our friendship to your person time and time again.

Then it's me
Ultimately, I am self-serving.

Misery, depression, elation all mine
I alone bear responsibility for my own negative and positive emotions.

Refine confinement all my design
I have willingly put myself through a refining crucible resulting in a self-imposed confinement.

You and me
We are both pitiful and hopeless due to our inner turmoil and self-delusional thinking.

Pathetic we cling
We hold on vainly to a false sense of freedom, despite the reality of our attachment.

We think that we're free
We both erroneously believe that we are free, but in fact we are confined.

Ugly
I am fundamentally unattractive, inside and out.

You and me
Our combined traits make for an unappealing picture.

You see, you see the real me
You observe first-hand the disturbed individual I am.

So obscene
I am behaving abhorrently, to the point of being indecent.

Flapping wildly
My behavior is panicky, disorderly and alarming.

You see what I mean
Do you realize how crazed my conduct is?

Keep away
Stay away from me, as you don't know what I'm really like.

Can't see why you do what you do
I don't understand why you act the way you do, as I am too emotionally unstable.

And say what you say
I can't comprehend what you're talking about or why you're saying it, because of my disturbed state.